2016 Memory Jar Review

First off, HAPPY NEW YEAR FRIENDS!!!!!!

I cannot believe it is already 2017.

 

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My camera year is wrong…should say 2016, ignore that mishap. :/

 

As I sat down on New Year’s Eve to sift through my memory jar- a bandwagon that I finally hopped on two years ago- I was amazed at how little I felt like I did, because of how quickly I felt the year had flown by. It was a blur for me. But as I dove into these colored pieces of paper, the many memories came flooding back….and a lot actually happened. It’s so easy for us to get wrapped up in the holiday bit at the end of the year, that we forget all the memories we made throughout the year.

So here are some of my most favorite memories- (in no particular order!)

 

*My 2016 Highlights*

 

Took my god daughter to see Trolls- “Sophie’s big girl movie date”- Trolls, went to a diner, and saw the Christmas Lights with my family.

 

Had a little Walking Dead Season 7 Premiere Party but… RIP Glenn still heartbroken: / haven’t watched an episode since then, but my party looked awesome. Read my post HERE!

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Celebrated my grandmother’s 83rd birthday with a whole bunch of family.

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I made a few job changes and had to bounce around a bit, which was a bit difficult but finally found a place where I am happy for now, it was for the better- I’m building a work family and have made some great friends. Read my post on “adulting” HERE!

Finished two short story series-On The Run & Love Conflicted (-premiered in 2015 but carried over into 2016)

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Started a brand new series- Welcome Home (-first chapter premiered in 2016, rest will be continued in 2017)

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My best friend Roe got engaged!!!!

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Went on a massive family trip to Great Wolf Lodge and had a blast! (vlog will eventually get edited!)-Read my post HERE!

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Why does my camera have the wrong year? How do I fix that?

Sophia Bush retweeted my tweet and my phone blew up….

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My brother got married and he and his wife bought a house.

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I entered one of my scripts into a writing contest! (although nothing came of it, it was a huge leap that I took, and I was really proud of myself for facing that fear.)

I got free movie passes for covering a story in my local theater, my best friend Jenny and I saw Finding Dory in 3D…because why not?

I’ve realized that I can overcome my anxiety on my own, but the help that I have received has been a gift I will continue to utilize.

My best friend and I finally saw Bethany Joy Lenz in concert and WE MET HER! #LifeGoal –Read my post HERE!

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Fuller House seasons 1& 2 are killin’ the game #NetflixIsDangerous

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I went for bridesmaid’s dresses for my friend Jenny’s wedding-I was asked to be her maid of honor last year.

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I went on The Polar Express with my god daughter and other family members. (vlog will eventually get edited!)

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I worked for a summer camp, and my kids made some really great story books for my creative writing class.

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I hosted a Gilmore girls: A Year in the Life- Netflix revival….viewing party- Read my post HERE!

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I got a vlog up on my YouTube channel, and have been vlogging more, but editing has been a slow process. I WILL GET THERE!

I finally got to pretend to be a YouTube vlogger and did a Mini “Vlogmas” from Dec. 23-Dec. 31 into 2017 (Stay Tuned!)

My brother and I started to shoot the first installment of our zombie short, but it got halted because…. #WeddingCraziness #BridalShowerCraziness

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michelleleighwrites turned 3!!!!!!! Read my post HERE! (It’s turning 4 in a WEEK!!!!!!)

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 Justin Timberlake released new music & a video – Can’t Stop The Feeling! (he also produced the soundtrack to Trolls (What a beautiful, fun loving film, highly recommend seeing it!). Read my fangirl report HERE!

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Valentine’s Day Girls Nite In with my girls.

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Celebrated my Aunt Mary’s birthday  with some dinner at her favorite Mexican restaurant and had some Pepsi- her favorite drink. Love you Aunt Mary, Miss you!

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Bruno Mars new album, listening to it as I write. So obsessed! #24KMagic #Chunky #ThatsWhatILike #VersaceOnTheFloor #Finesse LISTEN

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Rocked some obnoxious Christmas Lights for the holidays. #BestDecisionOfMyLife #5BucksWellSpent #ShoutOutToStrangerThings

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Received some handmade Christmas cards from my students.

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30th Birthdays Celebrations- We hosted a big family dinner for my sister in law and went on an AC family trip for my brother.

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Family BBQ’s!!! #Cousins

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Best Friend Weekend. – Even at 25, my best friend and I still keep our sleepover tradition going. It started off going to the Zumba class that my best friend teaches, then we had some dinner at her house (BBQ chicken my fav at their house hold-like old times), next we watched our favorite tv show One Tree Hill until 4 AM, Went for breakfast the next morning, got manicures, and shopped a bit. It was so nostalgic and it was just what we needed. #BestFriendMiniWeekend #RoshellWeekend

That Zumba class tho-I had been trying to get to one, forever!

Britney’s back bitches! #GLORY album is just….EPIC! Read my post HERE!

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Rainbows.

Pineapple float- #SOTRENDY

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Took my mom to see the Radio City Spring Spectacular- it was her mother’s day gift and it felt really great to be able to do that for her. What a brilliant show. Visually stunning!

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Got hooked on Murder Mystery 13 Part Series American Gothic- so damn good! #SHOUTOUTTOBETHANYJOYLENZ

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Started Stranger Things #NetflixIsDangerous

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Attended my best friend’s engagement party.

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Continued with the annual chop.

 

Dressed up in Hawaiian theme attire for my cousin’s birthday party.- Read my post HERE!

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Finally got to rock the yellow, red, blue look I’ve wanted to try for forever! Read my post HERE!

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After the chop, had to try out some new hair do’s – Reverse Space buns.

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Marina Squerciati answered my tweet, (cuz we’re besties) ;). #thathashtagtho

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My parents treated me to a massive birthday dinner at my favorite restaurant. Got my big gold number balloons too! #BlackAndGold #Family #Friends Read my post HERE!

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That TWD finale tho. #WHOISIT? Read my feels HERE!

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Started an unintentional tradition of taking massive group family photos/selfies.

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Bridal expos with my bestie. #MaidofHonor #OnCall

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My cousins from Florida surprised us with a quick visit!

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Curvy Barbies (and other body shapes and sizes) are a thing! #FINALLY #Variety

Read my post HERE!

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That *NSYNC picture. #reunion #myheart

 

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Met our newest family member! My god daughter is a big sister!

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Started watching a few new tv series- This Is Us (I have to catch up, I’m so behind) and Shades of Blue.

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Damn a lot can happen in a year. I am grateful for the blessings 2016 has given me. Of course it wasn’t all marshmallows and honey all the time, but I still fought through obstacles and made beautiful memories. Cheers to 2017, may it be beautiful and happy and healthy for all of you, filled with love and inspiration and success. See you soon friends!

*Most images are my own.*

-<3-

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The Halloween Party

halloween-partyMeet Maddie                                                                   Meet Jared

Maddie lies in bed as her cellphone alarm rings in her ear, willing her to wake.

She groans and reaches for it, knocking it off her end table as it falls, sliding further away.

“Ughhh,” she says as she grabs her pillow putting it over her head, trying to hide from the cruel reality of the morning world.

Her dorm room door burst open a few seconds later.

“HAPPY HALL-O-WEEN!!!!” her roommate Kim screams in a sing song way, her curly blonde hair bouncing as she jumps onto Maddie’s bed, causing a disruption in her comfort zone of white soft blankets and pillows.

“NO!” Maddie answers turning over and away as she hides under the covers.

“Oh come on! I thought you said this was one of your favorite holidays. Only 12 hours until all the parties start happening!”

“Correction- Halloween used to be one of my favorite holidays, (she says sitting up in a huff.) But have you forgotten how my boyfriend just broke up with me last week, – he was the other half of my costume, how can I be Raggedy Ann without an Andy?”

“Ok yes, Vinny sucks for breaking up with you. But there is an easy fix to your costume problem, honey. Buy a new one.”

“What am I made of money…?”

“Return the other, duh? Come on… get your ass in the shower, I’m coming back in a half hour and I expect you to look alive!” Kim says as she glides out of the room in an exaggerated way, her arms afloat in a fairy stance.

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Thankful for the dim lighting, Maddie drags her feet and walks into her dorm suite living area/kitchen where Kim sits eating a bowl of cereal.

“Hallelujah!” Kim sings out, throwing her hands up in the air, as her brown eyes sparkle with sarcasm.

Maddie groans as she shuffles over to the seat next to Kim, Kim smiles and slides a mug of already poured coffee over to her.  The hazelnut scent dancing in the air, creating happy thoughts in her mind.

Maddie grabs it and takes a sip.

“Ah.”

“I made a damn good pot today, right?”

Kim nods.

“Thank you. I need this.”

“So…I figured we’d just go to the mall, it has the Halloween store in it and then if we need any extra odds and ends we’ll just shop around.”

“Do we have to? Can’t I just stay home? I won’t be any fun tonight anyway.”

“No, you are not allowed to sulk.”

“I am not sulking, I’m just-“

“Sulking,” Kim says nodding with wide eyes.

Just then their suite door flies open with little warning, as a sandy brown haired, blue eyed boy saunters his way in, like he owns the place.

“Who’s sulking?” Jared says as he makes a straight line to  Maddie and grabs her cup of coffee to take a sip.

“Do not. even. I will cut you.”

Jared looks at her and puts the cup back down slowly as he holds his hands up in surrender.

“Damn girl, okay.” he says his eyes sparkling, as a smirk plays on his lips.

“Excuse her, she’s a bit testy,” Kim says chiming in on the quarrel.

“Still Vinny?”

“Still Vinny.”

“Can we just…drop it, ok?”

Maddie and Jared exchange looks of sympathy.

“Look I get this whole thing with Vinny has been hard on you, but he’s been out living his life all week, he’s not hauled up in bed, ignoring his friends and favorite holidays,” Maddie says.

“That’s because he’s a dick face who doesn’t care about the fact that he literally ripped my heart out of my chest only a week ago.”

“He is a dick face. Such a dick face. Anger. Phase 2. Yes. FINALLY!” Jared says as Maddie laughs and Kim high fives him.

Jared and Kim look over at Maddie in shock.

“I’m sorry was that a laugh?” Jared says walking behind Maddie.

Kim looks of smiling.

“No. You’re hearing things.”

“I think that was a laugh. You heard it right?” he says looking at Kim.

“Oh, loud and clear.”

Jared starts tickling Maddie’s waist and she starts laughing uncontrollably.

He stops and looks at her.

“There she goes.”

“What are you talking about?” Maddie says turning to look at him.

“My girl’s back.”

Maddie smiles simply.

“You love Halloween, don’t let one asshole guy ruin that. Let’s head to the mall, get killer costumes and have fun!” Kim says draping an arm over her best friend’s shoulders.

“Ok. Fine. But don’t you dare try and get me to wear anything short and slutty,” Maddie says her eyes rolling over to glare at Kim.

“I would not mind that,” Jared says off in a daze of day dreams and fantasies.

Maddie slaps him in the chest.

Jared winces.

“What!” he says with a smirk.

“Deal,” Kim laughs as she throws Maddie a jacket.

Kim and Maddie start to leave their suite and turn back to Jared.

“Hey, you coming?” Maddie says.

“Yes. As long as you don’t keep hitting me.”

“I’ll try.”

“Try harder.”

The three walk out, as Maddie laughs and turns to Jared.

“Oh poor baby did I hurt you?”

“A little.”

“I’m sorry.”

Jared smirks and points to his cheek.

Maddie rolls her eyes and kisses it swiftly.

Kim notices and smiles as she starts to walk ahead.

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“Come on out!” Kim shouts from outside the dressing room as she and Jared wait to see Maddie’s new costume choice.

“No!”

“Yes, Please.”

“No. I told you I didn’t want this type of costume.”

“You said nothing slutty, it’s not slutty at all!”

“I can’t pull this off,” Maddie mumbles.

“Oh come on out, and stop being such a brat!” Jared says jokingly.

Maddie groans and opens the door as she stands there in a pair of tight leather pants, a cropped black top, a leather jacket and combat boots.

Jared’s eyes go wide and his jaw drops.

Kim smiles.

“Hell yes! You look hot!” Kim says.

“No.”

“Yes.” Jared says not meaning to speak out loud.

Maddie and Kim look at him surprised by his outburst.

“I mean (he coughs) it looks good- on you- you look great.”

Kim watches in pure happiness.

Maddie turns to look at herself in the mirror.

Jared leans over to Kim.

“Thanks for the help on that one.”

“Hey buddy that was all you and way too much fun to watch.”

Maddie turns back around.

“You guys I cannot wear this,” she says trying to pull her crop down and her pants up, to cover her stomach.

Jared’s eyes are glued.

“Maddie. You look amazing. The biker chick look works for you. Some red lips and black nails and you are gold,” Kim says.

“I don’t know,” she says looking at herself again, cloaked in insecurities.

“Go for it.” Kim says whispering and hip bumping her friend.

“Ugh. Fine. What the hell, they say looking good is the best revenge right?”

“True.”

“Are you sure it looks good though…Jared? Be honest.”

Jared snaps out of it when he hears his name.

“Yes. Yea. I honestly I have no words for how good you look.”

“Really?” Maddie smiles looking down.

“Really.”

“See it’s perfect, go change out of it, we’ll be on line.” Kim says walking off with Jared.

Jared looks back at Maddie as his eyes look her over.

Maddie looks at herself in the mirror once more before walking into the dressing room.

Kim looks at Jared and laughs.

“What?”

“How transparent can you be?” she says.

“Really? Am I that obvious? Do you think she knows?”

“No. Lucky for you, she’s just as oblivious to receiving flirtation signals as you are to providing them. Hell you’d be a match made in heaven.”

“Ya think?” Jared says his smile dopey.

“I actually do think you’d be good together. You’re a good guy, and you care about her. She deserves that.”

“I don’t think she sees me that way though.”

“Won’t know until you try. And what a better place to do so than at a party!” Kim says her says widening and her mouth dropping like she just won the lottery of obvious ideas.

“Tonight? What? No. It’s too soon. She’s still got Vinny brain and I don’t want to be a rebound.”

“Vinny wasn’t that serious of a thing, let’s be real it’s not like she was in love with the guy.”

“I don’t know. I can’t.”

“Okay. Fine. I hope you have fun watching guy after guy after guy after guy hit on her, because looking like she does in that outfit, there’s no way you’ll be able to avoid that.”

Jared looks away pondering.

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Kim walks into Maddie’s room dressed in her costume, just as she is putting her red lipstick on. 

Maddie sees her in the mirror and turns, “I love it!” she says looking at Kim who twirls around showing off her leather kitten costume.

“Thank you very much! Are you almost ready?”

“Yea, pretty much. I just thought we were waiting on Jared.”

“Ugh, nope. He had to do a beer run. He said he’d meet us there.”

“Oh ok. Cool.” Maddie looks in the mirror once more, fluffs her curly hair and smacks her lips together and out she goes following Kim into the hall.

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Kim knocks on the off campus apartment door and a fellow college friend opens the door greeting them with a smirk.

“Ladies! Hey, you look great, come on in, grab a drink!”

Kim and Maddie smile and walk in as another guy hands them each a drink.

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Maddie looks over at the clock. 9:50 PM. It hasn’t even been an hour. She stands leaning against a wall with a drink in her hand. She looks around as a sea of costumes and red cups fill the scene. Off to the side she watches as Kim chats up with some hot guy dressed as a Werewolf. Kim laughs as she flips her hair.

Jared walks into the party he fist bump the host and hands him a few cases of beer.

“Thanks brother, you’re lifesaver.”

He looks around his eyes surveying the scene, looking for one specific brunette, on specific set of green eyes… there she is, he thinks, his path promised as he walks toward Maddie.

“Well hey there little lady, I reckon, those two would have quite some hairy children.”

Maddie looks over and laughs.

“A cowboy. It suits you. I like it.”

“Thank you ma’am.” he says tipping his hat.

“Are you going to talk like that all night?”

“Maybe,” he says keeping the southern twang intact.

Maddie laughs.

“Maddie you look-freaking amazing.”

“Really?”

“Yes. Like Y-e-s with a capital Y and an exclamation point at the end for emphasis.”

Maddie blushes and laughs, pushing him away.

Jared places his hand over hers as it lays on his chest, close to his heart.

They both lock eyes- Blue and Green dancing for a beat.

“So… (looking away) what- Kim left you high and dry?” Jared says letting her go and leaning against the wall next to her.

“Not really, I told her to go mingle. I’m just-I was-“

“Waiting for me to come and save you?”

“Exactly,” she laughs smiling.

Jared looks over at her, his eyes wandering.

Maddie notices.

“What?”

Jared fumbles noticing he’s been caught.

“Nothing. You want another drink?”

“Sure,” she says handing him her cup as he walks off, Maddie smiles nervously to herself.

As Maddie watches Jared walk over to a keg and get roped into a conversations with some friends, she rushes over to Kim.

“I’m sorry can I borrow her for just one quick second?” Maddie says to Kim’s latest conquest.

The guy nods with a smile, “I’ll be just a minute,” Kim says smiling and walking off to the side with Maddie.

“I’m sorry but I really need to talk to you.”

“Oh my god, are you kidding, of course, what’s up? Are you ok?”

“I think Jared might be flirting with me.”

Kim laughs.

“I’m serious.”

“Oh sweetie, my flirtatiously challenged friend. He is flirting with you.”

“Really?”

“Yes. Welcome to the party.”

“Oh my god, so he likes me?”

“Yes. It’s really not news anymore at this point, everybody knows.”

“I didn’t know.”

“That’s because you’re oblivious.”

“I think I might like him too.”

Kim’s eyes widen.

“Now that’s new! Really?”

“I don’t know. I think. I mean I’ve never really thought of him like that before.”

“Well think about it now. Are you attracted to him? Does he do it for you?”

“Ah. Oh my god. I can’t do this.”

“Ok look. I’m not going to tell you what I think about this, because I don’t want to put anything in your head. Ride out the rest of the night. Spend some alone time with him, feel it out. If the spark is there, it’s there, you’ll feel it. If not, he’ll always be your friend.”

“Do butterflies count as sparks? Because I gotta say there are some serious butterflies going on right now.”

“You bet your ass they count.” Kim says smiling, “Now go!”

Maddie smiles and walks toward where Jared is with the guys.

Jared sees her and smiles, excusing himself he walks over to her.

“Hey sorry, I kind of got caught up in a bit of a who’s the scariest villain debate?” he says handing her a drink.

“Thanks….that’s easy Freddy Krueger, hands down,” Maddie says.

Jared looks at her and smiles.

“That’s what I said.”

Maddie smiles.

“Hey Maddie, there’s something I’d really like to talk to you about…do you wanna maybe take a walk?”

“Yea-I-Oh no Vinny…”

“What?” Jared says confused.

“Vinny just walked in,” she says her focus shifting.

Jared looks over.

“Of course,” he mumbles to himself.

“Ignore him Maddie,” he says trying to get their moment back.  

Kim rushes over.

“Holy ass face, did you see who just walked din?” she says.

“Yes Kim, thank you, we’ve all noticed,” Jared says annoyed.

Kim notices his frustration.

“You know what, just don’t even pay any mind to him. Don’t even acknowledge he’s here,” Kim says trying to repair the damage.

Maddie shakes it off.

“I can do that. So Jared, how about that walk?”

“Yea. Let’s do it, Ladies first,” he says leaving a path for her to walk first.

Jared holds his hand out behind him as Kim slaps it, he smirks following Maddie toward the front door.

As Maddie passes Vinny, Jared places his hand on the small of her back and she sighs in relief knowing he’s there, but at the same time there go those butterflies fluttering up her spine.

Vinny’s eyes follow Maddie and Jared, he jumps over blocking the exit.

“Maddie, Jesus you look hot how come I never got any of this while we were together!”

Jared’s hold on Maddie tightens as he bulks up ready to say something.

Maddie squeezes his hand to stop him.

“Oh let’s be honest here Vinny, you don’t deserve any of this, your just not man enough to handle it. So do me a favor, walk away, now. Before we have a problem.”

Vinny looks at her baffled as he slinks away.

Maddie grabs Jared’s hand, heading out the front door.

They get about a block away, before Maggie finally speaks.

“I’m sorry about that. He’s such an ass.”

“You don’t have anything to be sorry for. Like you said he’s an ass.”

“I knew I shouldn’t have worn this, I should have just stayed home like a wanted to.”

“Hey. Stop it, (he stops, turning to her he puts his hands on her shoulders) you look amazing. Don’t let him make you feel bad about anything, ever. He’s a piece of crap that wasn’t worth your time.”

“I know. You’re right. It’s just he gets in my head sometimes and I start to question myself.”

“Don’t. Your body is yours. It doesn’t belong to any guy, ever. And just because you wear something slightly different or sexier than usual on the one night of the whole year that the world is allowed to spice it up, doesn’t give him the right to comment on it and make you feel bad or make you question how amazing you look and how amazing you should feel. Cuz you’re perfect. You always have been Maddie. That guy, he’s completely insane for ever letting you go.”

Maddie blushes.

“Thank you, you didn’t have to say that,” she says her eyes nervously looking away.

“I wanted to,” he smiles as they continue to walk a bit more.

A million thoughts are running through Jared’s minds. That was one hell of a speech. Kiss her. Kiss her now, you fool. No. It’s too soon.

“Can I ask you a question?” Maddie says stopping under a weeping willow tree as the fall breeze kisses her cheek, her hair gently blowing.

“Of course,” he says turning toward her, the mere sight causing is heart rate to quicken and his palms to start sweating.

“Will you kiss me?” she says her eyes meeting his as his widen in surprise. “I feel like there’s something here, and I know that we’re friends but we may be more and I won’t know unless you kiss me. I would never want to hurt you by leading you on, so will you just-”

Jared reaches for his cowboy hat, removing it he tosses it to the side quickly as he cups her face and kisses her.

Maddie’s lips are in shock at first, but her response is quick as the spark ignites her lips kissing back softly at first but then finding a more aggressive/urgent groove with Jared’s. As Jared feels her doing so, his hands find her waist, pulling her into him. Her hands gliding up his arms and wrapping around his neck.

The kissing continues for quite a while, as Jared walks Maddie backward until she’s up against the tree bark. Fall leaves dancing in the wind, whirling around them.

Maddie finally breaks the kiss, needing some air.

They both exhale loudly as they lock eyes, they laugh.

“Did that really just happen?” Jared says his eyes twinkling.

“If, not, it was one hell of a dream,” she says smiling as she wipes the corner of her lips.

“I’ve gotten red lipstick all over you,” she laughs reaching up and rubbing her thumb across his lips, trying to get it off.

“That’s ok, I don’t mind.”

Jared looks at her, he takes her hand and places it on his heart.

“Your heart is pounding so fast,” Maddie says with a small chuckle. “You know I kinda felt that happening before too.”

“Yea, that happens a lot when I’m around you.”

Maddie smiles as she pulls him back over to her into a kiss.

Each kiss longer and deeper than the next.

Jared cups her face, he pulls away and looks her in the eyes.

“What?”

“I can’t believe this is happening,” he says continuing to kiss her.

Maddie smiles against his lips as her hands find their place over his on her face.

They continue to lose their breath as Maddie pulls him closer wrapping her arms around him, Jared’s hands fall down her body to her waist as find a place in the back pockets of her fitted black leather pants.

She laughs mid kiss and buries her face in his chest.

“What?” he says confused and pulling away to look at her.

“We’re kissing, you and me. And your hands – well I just never thought they would be- (she laughs) I guess I’m just not used it. I can’t believe we’re doing this. I mean you’ve been my best friend for years. I guess I just feel kind of strange.”

“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to push- Are we moving too fast? I’m sorry.”

“No, no. I don’t mind. (she says pulling him by the shirt toward her) Come here.”

Jared smiles and continues to kiss her again as they close the space between them.

“So Whattaya say you think you wanna be my girl?” he says looking back at her and whispering to her.

“I thought I already was.”

Jared smiles pulling her to him as he continues to kiss her.

Maddie smiles against his lips as she cups his face, she pulls away looking up at him, “You know as weird as this is, it feels really natural…really right. I could kiss you all night long.”

“Don’t expect me to object to that,” he says cupping her face and kissing her “I’ve waited a long time for you.”

Maddie looks up at him through heavy eyes and sighs sweetly, her lips already reaching for his yet again.

As the two friends become more on a night that had potential to be one of the worst Halloweens ever.  Costumes galore walk by and drinks flow as the party just a few blocks away keeps going the private party under the willow tree had just begun. Jared finally handing his heart to the girl he’s wanted all along breath after breath, kiss after kiss, touch after touch.

After what feels like forever, the two finally come up for air. Maddie’s shoulders shrug as the breeze chills her skin.

“Are you cold, maybe we should get you inside?”

“Sure.”

Maddie smiles and shrugs, walking off toward the party.

Jared smiles watching her, as he grabs his cowboy hat off the floor, his eyes scaling her curvy figure up and down, she spins around and catches him.

“What are you doing?”

“Oh excuse me, I was just admiring my girlfriend.”

“Really. Do you like what you see?”

“Is that even a question?”

Maddie rolls her eyes and smiles as she takes Jared’s hand in hers heading back into the party.

Kim takes notice of the scene in front of her- hand holding, goofy grins, and smudged red lipstick everywhere. She squeals and runs over to them as they talk to each other with lovey dovey eyes.

“You guys finally kissed…didn’t you?”

“Yes.” Maddie says smiling.

“A whole hell of a lot of yes.” he says, his grin as big as hers.

“Oh my god…finally!!!”

“I’m gonna go find a rest room, I’ll find you in a few?”

Maddie nods as Jared smirks, he leans in and kisses her, before walking off.

Maddie looks after him for a beat and then leans against the nearby wall clutching her chest.

“Oh. my. god.” Kim says in shock.

“You don’t even understand. I’m just so happy.” Maddie says looking over at Kim.

“You look happy.”

“I’m still trying to catch my breath.”

“So it wasn’t weird kissing your best and oldest guy friend?”

“No. I mean yea there’s that, but it just felt right and like the most natural progression ever. It’s almost like why haven’t we been kissing each other our whole lives. It’s nice, and it’s nice to feel safe with someone.”

“Good for you, you deserve it.”

“Thank you.” Maddie smiles.

“So there’s a spark, it’s not just convenient. It’s not just a Vinny rebound.”

“Trust me the spark nearly blew my face off ok? Vinny was the last thing on my mind while Jared was kissing me. He’s just so sexy, he has the best lips and his hands…are perfect.”

“I cannot even. This is amazing and he’s such a good guy if you only knew how long he’s had this crush on you…”

“I wish I would have known. I’m actually- I’m gonna go find him, do you mind…”

“No- go find your boyfriend.”

“Thank you,” she smiles rushing off.

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Maddie finds Jared just coming out of the bathroom, she smiles and stops him, pushing him back in.

“Hey…oh…ok, what’s happening?” he laughs as she locks the door behind them.

“Maddie…what are you doing?” he says laughing.

She pulls him into another kiss, as he deepens it lifting her in his arms slightly as his hands tighten around her waist, her hands cupping his face.

“I’m so lucky, (he says cupping her face as he glances down at her, he sighs looking up at the ceiling in a slight frustration.) But it doesn’t have to be different with us. I mean just because we know each other, I don’t want you to think that I suddenly just expect us to jump into a physical relationship. Because, I mean this is whole new territory for us. I’m ready to court you, and take you on dates, and re-meet your parents and your family as your actual boyfriend. I don’t wanna rush this with you.”

Maddie sighs and kisses him.

“You’re perfect.”

Jared kisses her.

“Go ahead, you go first, I’m gonna need a minute to- cool down,” he says embarrassed.

“Oh. OH! ok,” she says realizing with a laugh.

Just before she turns to unlock the door, Maddie turns back to Jared, she pulls him to her and kisses him softly and slowly as he responds matching the same pace. She looks up at him, “When it does happen, it’s going to be amazing!” she gives him a quick tease like peck as he leans in for more, she smirks up at him and unlocking the door she leaves the room.

Jared stands there laughing to himself.

“Yup, as expected I’m a goner,” he says looking in the mirror.

Maddie stands on the other side of the door her heart pounding in her chest as she clutches it, giving herself a minute to gather her composure, she smiles walking off to find Kim.

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The Little Moments Count

As a self-proclaimed fangirl for television relationships. There is a certain frustration that we undergo. A frustration like no other. My fellow teen drama fangirls will feel me on this one… That moment when you feel like your “Ship” is sinking.

Ship:

Short for romantic relationship, popularized in fanfiction circles. To endorse a romantic relationship.

And in those dreadful moments of agony and pain and having to watch our favorite two characters be apart, we in turn look for those little moments. We live for those small glances, or the slightest touch of hands, or arm grazes. Moments when actions speak louder than words, and a simple glance or touch tells everything, tells the audience and these two characters that there’s still something there. Still a spark fizzing. As fangirls we love that crap.

In the spirit of love and loss and heartbreak, and my obsession with TV couples, let’s look at some of these beautifully places little moments between some of my favorite couples.

1.)

Couple: Dr. Robin Scorpio & Dr. Patrick Drake [General Hospital]

Ship Name: Scrubs (but my best friend and I call them Ratrick!)

Back story: In these compilation scenes Robin and Patrick are working at the hospital and Robin has just told Patrick she’s pregnant. The two broke up recently due to the fact that Robin wants to have a child and Patrick does not ever want to have a child. They are madly in love but want different things. Robin had a plan to go at it alone and find a sperm donor and have her own child, and raise it as a single mother. That was her plan. But plans change, and during an emotional night she and Patrick fall into old habits and Robin ends up pregnant. However, knowing his outlook of settling down and family life, Robin doesn’t want to tell Patrick the baby is his and lets him think she went along with her original plan. So in this scene he finds out she’s pregnant and he can’t help put stare at her in a new light.

Scene: Robin catches Patrick staring at her

Robin: “What now?”

Patrick: “I don’t know.”

 

 

Why I love it: This scene is so loaded and they barely speak. Just the idea that Patrick knows she’s pregnant and thinks it’s not his, but yet can’t put his finger on why he feels this pull to stare, it means he’s still invested. He even says “I just wonder what would be going through my head, if that child was mine.” In later episodes you get the feeling that he may have in fact had a feeling that maybe just maybe it actually was.

Couple Update: This scene was years ago like circa 2007/08 ish. And since then they have had a baby, gotten married, gone through infidelity, been nearly divorced, Robin “died”, then she came back, then she left again and then they really got divorced and then when both actors were leaving the show, they reunited them, they got remarried and exited as a family. So end result, the scrubs ship is still intact.

2.)

Couple: Detective Dante Falconeri & Lesley Lu Spencer “Lulu” [General Hospital]

Ship Name: Lante

Back story: In this scene Dante catches a glimpse of Lulu in a wedding dress, and you can tell it takes his breath away. The two have just recently broken up do to the fact that Dante continuously keeps crucial details from Lulu. Unfortunately the secret he was keeping wasn’t his to tell and involved Lulu’s brother and a case Dante was working on. His job often puts a weight on his relationship with Lulu and leaves her feeling like she isn’t a priority. She can’t trust him. But in this scene you realize they still do love each other. And even though they out right say the words, the simple fact that Lulu was trying on the wedding gown and the look on Dante’s face when he saw her was enough proof.

Scene: Dante “sees” Lulu in a wedding dress.

Dante: “It’s nice, it’s really nice, maybe it’s just cause it was in front of you.”

 

 

Why I love it: I love this scene so much because this is a girl who has had trust issues her whole life, but has fallen so in love and has felt the urge to venture into the idea of marriage with a man who even though they are broken up she still loves and feels pulled to looking at what she would seem like as a bride. The break up causes her anti-marriage talk when Dante stops by. But his thoughts of marriage challenge her sinicism as they both admit they still love each other. And later Lulu is scene looking at the dress again. There’s hope there.

Couple Update: Dante actually proposes a few days later, and Lulu is shocked and confused. She tells him she needs to think about it and when she decides she wants to say yes, Dante ends up getting shot, catapulting us into a long drawn out journey. Lulu wrestles with the fact of being a cop’s wife and the on and on that is Lante continues. Finally they get engaged, they get married, she thinks she’s pregnant, finds out she can’t have kids, have a baby boy through a surrogate (that’s a crazy story all on its own), Dante cheats, they divorce and now they are actually back together and thinking about a second child. *The original Lulu left the show and has been recast. My heart still hearts. End result ship is still intact.

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Couple: Joey Potter and Pacey Witter [Dawson’s Creek]

Ship Name: Ship names weren’t a thing yet.

Back story: In this scene Pacey has developed an intense crush on Joey, they went from bitter banter, to really good friends. And here Pacey is laying the guilt trip on Joey about not coming to the opening night of the play he’s starring in. She’s been helping him rehearse and learn his lines and she can’t come because she’s got a date with a college guy. Pacey is clearly jealous, and it is a beautiful thing to watch. With his funny, witty, rapid fire dialogue. That “the first thing he’s going to do when he walks through that door is pay you some lame ass compliment about how incredible you look tonight” quote slays me. She’s slightly clueless, but soon enough she’ll catch the hint.

Scene: Jealous Pacey

Pacey: “You do suck for not being there don’t cha.”

Why I love it: I love how he’s so non-chalant and his typical witty, firecracker self but it’s obvious that there’s more and in this time we have seen him develop feelings for her and the audience knows that this is jealousy. Not just a friend needed his friend to support him. I just love love love Pacey. He cracks me up.

Couple Update: Soon after this seen Pacey finally kisses Joey which leads her to question her whole life existence and puts her in a position of choosing between Dawson and Pacey. The love triangle of all love triangles. End result she ends up picking Pacey and setting sail with him on his boat for a whole summer, the couples goes strong for quite some seasons and then they break up shortly after they become intimate. Joey heads off to college and soon ends up exploring a relationship with Dawson after all these years. Pacey and Joey soon find their way back to each other and it seems like things may start up again when they are older, but they don’t quite end up there, until Jen’s death leads them to evaluate their mistakes and as the gang reunites years and years later, Pacey and Joey have a serious conversation about Joey’s need to keep running from her real feelings. In the end of the series shows Joey and Pacey together in her New York apartment as they watch Dawson’s newest TV show’s finale together. End result ship intact and friendships mended.

 4.)

Couple: Ross Geller & Rachel Green

Ship Name: Ship names weren’t a thing yet and even so it gets tough when there’s two R’s!

Back story: In this scene Ross had just become a father (co-parenting with his ex-wife carol and her lesbian lover Susan…crazy…I know, haha) And he and the gang are looking at all these pictures of the baby, as Rachel leans over Ross’ shoulder, pressing against him, Ross can’t help but lean in and drift into Rachel land. And you know he was smelling her hair! It’s the cutest damn thing ever.

Scene: The Ross Look @2:09

Rachel: “Oh god is he just the sweetest thing, you must just want to kiss him all over.”

Ross: “That would be nice.”

Why I love it: The way Ross looks at Rachel for all of seasons 1 & 2 is how every girl dreams of being looked at. And she is mostly clueless. It’s a puppy dog, “I’ve been in love with you for 10 years notice me already” look that just completely melts your heart. And you instinctively start rooting for Ross to get the girl.

Couple Update: Ross and Rachel have more ups and downs than any other couple in the universe. They were rarely ever on the same page at the same time. Rachel for years is in the dark about Ross’ feelings and when she finally finds out, Ross has finally moved on. And it’s Rachel’s turn to pine over “this really great guy she can’t have.” When a drunken Rachel leaves a message on his machine about needing closure, Rachel is forced to confront her feelings and in turn Ross is faced with a choice. Rachel and Ross date on and off for years, they we were on a break storyline sends us into a difficult time as Ross sleeps with another woman during a breakup. Rachel finds out and the two have difficulties remaining friends. Throw in another marriage for Ross, another divorce for Ross and then a quicker drunken Vegas wedding for Ross and Rachel and an annulment too. Eventually Monica and Chandler’s wedding approaches and we find out Rachel is pregnant, through the longest game of Baby Daddy Who Dunnit, we finally find out it’s Ross’ months of baby moments and sweet insinuations go by, but again nothing concrete happens until Ross is faced with losing Rachel for good when she gets a job offer to work in Paris. Cue the airport scene. End result- ship still intact.

5.)

Couple: Nathan Scott & Haley James Scott [One Tree Hill]

Ship Name: Naley

Back story: In this scene Lucas and Lindsay (the soon to be married couple) orchestrate their bachelor and bachelorette parties on the same night at the same place, in order to their estranged maid of honor and best man in the same room to talk. At this point Nathan and Haley are fighting because the psycho Nanny Carrie kissed Nathan and let it happen along with some flirtations. Haley found Carrie in the shower with Nathan (who thought she was Haley) and she freaked out kicking Nathan out, she has asked for a divorce at this point.

Scene: My best friend and I call this the “Super Star” Glare, because of the song that’s playing, haha. @2:16

Haley: “Your hearts were in the right place, you picked the right person to spend the rest of your life with, Luke.”

Lucas: “So did you.”

Why I love it: This eye exchange lasts only about 3 seconds, and yet it is one of my favorite Naley moments. There’s a love there that runs deep, and they are in such a bad place that things could go either way. And yet in that moment Haley is forced to find Nathan’s eyes staring at her. There’s a sadness as you see Nathan look away, ashamed. He knows he has been wrong, and he knows it’s going to have to be up to him to prove himself and fight for Haley. Because at this point her distance is cold and he’s losing her.

Couple Update: Shortly after this scene, Nathan and Haley reunite and start to mend their relationship and after that their relationship does remain pretty solid, they get through Haley’s depression when she loses her mother and they even have another baby, a girl named Lydia after her mom. End result- ship still intact.

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Couple: Hanna Marin & Caleb Rivers [Pretty Little Liars]

Ship Name: Haleb

Back story: This is the scene that sparked the idea for this blog post. Hanna and Caleb were one of Pretty Little Liars stable high school couples. But as we know teen dramas like to break people up when they time jump 5 years. Something about making things seem “realistic,” enough already give the people what they want. We know high school sweethearts don’t always stay together, but let us just pretend they do, would ya? Anyway within this scene, Caleb and Hanna are of course working on some big plan to expose the latest big bad A. And this is the first time Hanna and Caleb have been face to face since Hanna broke off her engagement to what was his name again-Jordan? No one cares. And Caleb broke up with Spencer (yea he dated Hanna’s best friend, classy right?) Cue the ultimate fan girl frustration-when the guy in your ship acts beyond stupid and all you want to do is strangle him. So moving on, in season 6 Haleb had an intense moment where Hanna confessed to still loving Caleb and he was so moved by her confession that he kissed her. So when this scene between them happened I kind of died. Hanna had been hiding the fact that she broke off her engagement, because she knew Caleb and Spencer were having problems since she and Caleb kissed, she felt bad and she didn’t want to hurt Spencer. You believe that HANNA didn’t want to hurt SPENCER. Um Spencer I’m sorry do you know what girl code is? At all. Do you have any idea what that is? You don’t under any circumstance ever date your best friend’s ex. Caleb and Hanna were the real deal, first love, true love, still in love and Spencer knew that and yet she has the balls to call Hanna out and get angry at her. “I asked you, you told me you were ok with it.” Bitch you shouldn’t have even asked, I don’t care. Spencer hunny, you were so wrong. Caleb isn’t yours, he never was, and never will be. And Caleb, homeboy shame on you. Can you tell I’m all #TeamHanna. Anyway, rant over- in this scene Hanna and Caleb are both single and Hanna gestures toward some papers Caleb has been studying and he instinctively checks her left ring finger noticing it’s very very naked. Hanna is forced to then offer the fact that she and Jordan broke up.

Scene: The Naked Ring Finger

Hanna: “I wasn’t talking about him, we’re still friends right?”

Caleb: “Always.”

Why I love it: I love Caleb’s face when he sees Hanna’s naked finger, he stops talking as if the wind has gotten knocked out of him, and then trying to quickly recover, by talking “A” business. While, Hanna mauls over whether or not to let Caleb know the truth, offering up an emotional speech about how having someone in your life and then having to cut them out completely is like losing a part of you. When she admits she’s talking about Caleb, the glance the exchange was 3 seconds away from becoming a kiss. Damn you, Marlene King you’re killing us here! Honestly Hanna is the Alpha is this game their playing, she’s always putting people before herself, always taking care of people and their feelings, and she’s the one showcases her feelings first, even when it’s awkward and difficult. Caleb you need to step up your game if you want to be deserving of Hanna; the PLL Queen. 😀

Couple Update: Remains to be seen. But I have high hopes, those glares and stares aren’t for nothing. Caleb feels it too, I can tell. Hanna, get it girl. #BYESPENCER

*I do not take credit for any videos used.*

-<3-

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

One Tree Hill Fangirl Diaries

It’s safe to say that I’ve always been in love with television. But One Tree Hill made me fall in love with storytelling in a way that I will never forget. So as I reflect on (and freak out over) the fact that I’m FINALLY going to see BETHANY JOY LENZ in concert at the end of this month, all my One Tree Hill obsessions are totally resurfacing. So I thought I’d share some memories I’ve collected over the years that are dear to me.

My Cozy Keith Scott Body Shop Sweater-

This was bought as a birthday gift from my friend Kate. I still wear this and it still makes me so happy. I remember wearing it to school one day back when I was in high school and having two girls talking about it behind me- “Oh my god, that’s like Lucas’ Keith Scott’s Body Shop Sweater from One Tree Hill.” I turned and smiled with pride.

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Falling In Love With New Music-

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Here I am at a Tyler Hilton concert with my friend. We actually got to meet him and I remember asking him what hooptie meant and he said it was an old car and then we all got to give him a big group hug. Tyler played Chris Keller.

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“Well I’m cruising El Paseo
In my off-white coup back ’65
Or I’m cruisin down my own street
And my hooptie says to me
You better hang on to your bench seat
I’m gonna take you for a ride.”

-“When It Comes” by Tyler Hilton

The Meet & Greets-

My parents agreed to take part in my obsession and drove me and my best friends to meet what we like to call “Routh”- Marvin “Mouth” McFadden (played by Lee Norris) and Rachel Gatina (played by Danneel Harris.) I remember having a blast road tripping and then waiting in line. We were allowed to make CW t-shirts in the CW lounge they had set up in the Paramus Mall. My dad of course acted like a security guard and got the inside scoop on when the two actors would be coming, haha.

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I remember the two of them being so sweet, posing for multiple pictures and signing autographs. I told Lee how excited we were that he finally had his own credit in the show’s beginning credits, he was promoted to a series regular FINALLY.

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FUN FACT: See that guy taking a pic of us, pictures of us were on a fansite!

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Meeting Sophia Bush (Brooke Davis) in Macy’s in New York City was EPIC, but left me in tears and with a massive headache and a serious amount of embarrassment. It was kind of surreal, but the moment I went up to meet her I fell apart with no warning. My brother took me and my friends and he’s a photographer so he went up to meet Sophia first so that he would be able to take pictures of us with Sophia. Since the security wouldn’t let us pose for pictures with her,  (seriously they took my brothers camera wile he went up and everything) but my brother tried to get Sophia to look at him as I went up so I could get a picture with her and well, she totally did it but just having my brother say that I was her biggest fan and tried to get that picture for me made me super emotional and the excitement, 7 hours of waiting in line, and lack of sleep all came crashing down on me. And I was a mess, so much so that I almost forgot to meet Daphne Zuniga (Victoria Davis.) I just remember wanting to get the heck out of there, because I felt so silly. But hey what can you do. Emotions aren’t controllable. Feeling is okay.

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Sophia was the sweetest, me balling my eyes out and here she is grabbing my hand and telling me thank you.

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There was actually a news crew there videoing the meet & greet and I remember them getting in my face and asking me something and then telling me I’d be on the channel 11 news. Spoiler Alert: I wasn’t. And I’m glad I wasn’t because I was a fangirl mess. Bucket List Addition: Re-meet Sophia Bush & see if she remembers me. And maybe don’t cry this time. haha.

Random Fangirl Things-

At Macy’s they had this CW-One Tree Hill photobooth. You were basically supposed to go in an film a 30 second clip of why you should be on the show, or some kind of fan contest thing. They were always doing things like that, but clearly I never won. Anyway, the day we met Sophia was so hectic that we had to go back another day to submit our clips.

Recreating the Season 1 signature tangled web pose.

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I hosted many viewing parties usually for the season premieres and would invite all my friends. And then every week my best friend Roe and I would watch together, switching houses each week.

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These were cupcakes I made for the series finale. The viewing parties kind of stopped once we got to college, because things got hectic, but my best friend and I brought the tradition back for the last episode. #ItsTheEndOfAnEra #PointsIfYouKnowWhereThatsFrom

And last but not least, I am about to share some very embarrassing photos with you. Our obsession reached the epic standard in middle school and continued through high school when my friends and I would have these epic OTH sleepovers. We would choose scenes/or episodes to act out from the show and film them. I still have one of them and every time I watch them I am reminded of my childhood/teenhood. It was kind of freakin’ awesome and I’d like to think that’s where my writing/directing influence was sparked. I would print out scripts, track down similar outfits and create settings and scenes to match the show. I can’t tell you how many times I would re-watch scenes to take notes, because I wanted to get things just right. We even played the parts, mostly we played out the scenes with all the girls, but sometimes we reverse Shakespearean and played the roles of the guys too. Weird I know, but let’s be honest Lucas and Haley had some epic best friend moments! It was all in good fun and we would have a blast. It was an all weekend thing that would last into all hours of the night! I’d give anything to go back in time and relive a weekend like that again. #Memories 

Our favorite episode to do was 2×08 “Truth Bitter Truth”

I played Anna Taggaro (played by Daniella Alonso.) See the resemblance 😉

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I remember being so psyched when I found a similar pajama set, I even wore my hair like she did. #Authenticity #YesIStillHaveThosePJs #StillWearThem

 

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Left to Right: Peyton played by Kate, Brooke played by Michelle, Haley played by Roe, and Anna played by Me.

 

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Delivering this speech was kind of fun!

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So big thank you to One Tree Hill for giving me some of my most treasured memories. ❤

I know what you must be thinking, but if you love Bethany Joy Lenz so much, how come you’ve never met her. Well it wasn’t for a lack of trying. Back in middle school when the One Tree Hill tour was on, my best friend and I tried to get tickets and we couldn’t. And then when James Lafferty and Bethany Joy Lenz had their meet and greet, my friends and I found out too late, I was on my way home from vacation with my family from Pennsylvania. But my friend Michelle did go and she filled us in on all the awesomeness. Yea I admit, I was jealous. But now on July 28th I finally get to at least see her in concert with my best friend Roe, and that’s a start. Can’t wait!

*I do not take credit for any One Tree Hill pictures and gifs used.*

*All other photos are my own.*

-<3-

“Don’t Cry” – Something we should never say

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“Don’t Cry”

We say it all the time.

To infants.

To friends.

To ourselves.

I found myself holding back tears often. In fear of showing “too much” emotion. Yet as I grow older I realize the importance of allowing yourself to express those emotions. It is not good for you, for your health, for your relationships, to keep things all bottled up inside. It’s important to let them out.

“No cry.”

“Stop crying.”

I’ve caught myself and others saying this to my goddaughter.

It’s a reflex, I think. An attempt to soothe, to calm, to comfort.

We say it because we are uncomfortable in the moment, in the sadness. In seeing someone we care about dealing with that sadness or hurt.

We say it because we think we are helping. Because we don’t know what else to say.

We are indeed trying to help.

There are good intentions behind it.

But at the age of 3 now I have seen her try and stop herself from crying when she is sad, or hurt, and it’s a lesson she doesn’t need to learn. Not now. Not ever.

“Don’t cry.”

We say it all the time.

But is it right?

When we say these things, we are telling ourselves, telling others that it’s not ok to feel.

That feeling whatever it is we/they feel is wrong.

But it isn’t.

Crying is natural.

We have tear ducks for a reason, no?

It’s a bodily function.

Blame it on biology.

Or applaud it, for allowing us a form of expression.

It’s ok to cry.

It’s ok to feel whatever it is you feel.

Whether you are right or wrong, in that moment, you feel it.

And no one can change that.

No one can tell you how to feel.

Because feelings aren’t something you can always control. And that’s ok.

And I’ve learned that sometimes the tears are just going to come.

And you have to learn to be ok with that.

Screw it.

Let the tears flow.

Sure it’s awkward.

It creates some unnecessary anxiety in you.

“What will people think?”

“Oh my god, what’s wrong with me?”

“I’m a total mess.”

“I look ridiculous.”

“I can’t believe I let this happen.”

No, you can’t control it all the time.

No, you are not a mess.

You are human.

Life will go on.

You will recover.

You will be ok.

Life is going to take a toll on all of us at some time, whether you are a child or an adult.

Whether you are crying because you lost a loved one, because someone broke your heart, because you finally got that job you always wanted, or because well… you are PMSing and watching Pocahontas. #Trustory #ColorsoftheWind #GetsMeEverytime

These thoughts of uneasiness stem from that gut feeling in you that thinks you’re doing something wrong. #ThanksSociety That somehow crying in front of people means you will never recover, or that it’s the end of the world for your social life.

But everyone is human.

People understand.

And one day it’ll be your turn to comfort a friend in need.

When you let whatever hardship you’ve been harboring out you feel a sense of relief and release. Letting go of whatever it is that is troubling you.

It is OK to cry. In Public. In Private.

Cry- if you want to.

Cry- if you have to.

Cry- because you need to.

And never let anyone make you feel less because of it.

It takes just as much strength to be vulnerable in front of someone that it takes to remain “put together” all the time.

Strength isn’t void of feeling.

It’s allowing yourself the space and time to go through the emotions you need to feel.

Once you do, you’ll feel a little bit lighter.

Cry like it’s your party and you want to.

-<3-

*I do not take credit for any images or gifs used.*

 

 

Girls Gala; How To Plan A “Girls Night In”- Valentine’s Day Edition

There are a few major categories you need to focus on when deciding to have a party.

*WWWWW&H: Who (the guest list) What (what are you celebrating) When (the time and date) Where (party spot) Why (do we need a reason to throw a party? the answer is really no) & How ($$$- Budget and enlist a party planning partner in crime, mine is always without a doubt mi madre…THANKS MOM!)

*Decorations (this is when your theme comes into play)

*Music (make a party playlist)

*Activities (break out them board games or create some fun games of your own!)

*Food (what are you serving; appetizers? dinner? or both?) *Beverages (alcoholic, soda, water, coffee, tea?) *Dessert (cake, cookies, fruit platter?)

*Favors (something for your guest to take home)

*Attire (do you want your guests to dress in costume, or dress up glamorously or do you wanna keep things casual cool….and hey I’d never knock a pajama party!)

So once you map out your party, now it’s time to get things going. Let me walk you through my Girls Gala, I recently had this past weekend for Valentine’s Day or should I say Gal-entine’s Day.

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My Guest List always includes friends that I’ve known for quite some time. They are made up of childhood friends, high school friends, my brother’s girlfriend who has been in my life since college and a best friend who I’ve known basically my entire life. Life gets busy and it’s not like how it used to be that we’d all hang out every Friday night playing rock band or dance dance revolution or spending way too many long hours overstaying our welcome at Starbucks or various local restaurants. So when we do get together it’s really special to all of us.

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I’m a big fan of hosting parties so I usually do them in my home, it saves me a fee to rent out a place, and you just have more flexibility with what you can do. For this particular Valentine’s Day party I knew that having it on Valentine’s Day would have just been rude, considering most of my friends have boyfriends, so I opted to have my party the night before. I wanted to have something for just us girls to celebrate our friendships and the bonds we’ve formed over the past years. You don’t need to be in love to celebrate a day based on love. I love all my girls so this was my gift to them.

*Decorations

….are my favorite part! I love having a theme for my parties. I just feel like it gives you more to work with visually. So being that this was a Valentine’s Day party I color schemed a lot of pinks, reds, whites, and purples. Hearts, Cupids, and Roses, all that jazz. I also love a good bargain so most of the stuff I purchased was from the dollar store.

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*Music

I love music, I feel like the right playlist can just instantly transfer the mood of a party. For my party I opted to include a lot of the romantic  vocal stylings of Justin Timberlake (uh duh?), Bruno Mars, Ed Sheeran, and a few others. Hey I may be single but I can appreciate a good love song. 😉 But you know it’s never wrong to throw little Tay Swift in the mix, and have a little “shake it off” dance party…which we did. And I have proof.

*Activities

Ok this is an important one… (Aren’t they all?)

-The last party I hosted was my 80’s party for my birthday last year, and although we all had a good time, I felt like I didn’t have any activities to occupy our time. So this time I did a little online researching and came up with some fun valentine inspired games to play. It gets your guests to loosen up and since it was after a long work day for most it was a stress release too. Grab a glass of wine and laugh as your friend tries to act out weird things during charades. Or blindfold them and tell them to “Kiss the Stud”… isn’t Oliver cute? (Where my “How To Get Away With Murder” fans at….Oliver is my favorite!)

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-I also had a little “activity box” if you will, full of fun little games that the guest could play in between dinner and dessert. I filled it with games like fortune-teller; Who’s Your Celebrity Valentine?, Marry Kiss or Ditch, M.A.S.H (who remembers MASH?), and labeled them and left the box on the couch for my guests to open at their leisure.

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-Build your own Photo booth.

I did this at my 80’s party and it was huge hit! So I had to do one again this time around. Throw up a funky curtain and set up a prop table with funky hats, sunglasses, scarves, accessories and make some saying sticks and Viola homemade photo booth! Seeing as it was Valentine’s Day inspired I opted for conversation heart colors and wrote some funny quotes and sayings on them. You can even make a hashtag, so that when your guests post to social media you can easily find all the images in one place! I love taking pictures, I feel like you are making memories when you take pictures, and although being present in life is important it’s nice to have those images to look back on, because 20 years from now memories may alter or fade but pictures bring you back to that moment.

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*Food, *Beverages, *Desserts

It makes me crazy when people ask me if they should eat before coming. Like what? Do you not know me? I’m a foodie, and I will never host a party without FOOD??? With that being said, for my Girls Gala I opted for a healthy meal to balance out a very UN-healthy dessert spread.

-My Menu consisted of:

-Appetizers: A cinnamon dip with pita chips and a salty/sweet popcorn, pretzels, Swedish Fish mix.

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-Dinner: Sliced Grilled chicken (marinated overnight in Lemon Pepper marinade) Grilled on a George Foreman Grill. Served on sourdough bread with either a choice of an avocado spread or a roasted pepper.

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To go along with that I made a spinach salad topped with feta cheese, walnuts, olive oil & vinegar dressing, and strawberries!

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-Dessert: I made heart-shaped sugar cookies and Chocolate chip cookies with m&m’s and mini fruit kabobs. Then my friends each brought something which I didn’t expect and we ended having an entire spread! I mean it is Valentine’s Day….don’t judge us!

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-Beverages: All of my friends and I are of age so I set up a little wine tasting station, I had a few bottles of wine in my house and champagne and one of my friends brought sangria and another brought a few other bottles of wine so we had quite a good selection. I also like to have some soda on hand and water for other non-alcoholic options. And tea and coffee in case anyone wants a cup with their desserts.

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*Favors

Now this is an optional step, not everyone does it, but I usually like to let my guests leave with a little something. So I decided to do a mini candy bar. Where they could make their own candy bags as they left. I mean in all that dessert where was the chocolate? It isn’t Valentine’s Day without the chocolate! And near the candy bar I placed some handmade paper fortune cookies for my guest to open, they were filled with inspirational, feel good quotes.

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You are your own idol.

*Attire

20150215_005010_copyWhen I sent out my mass text (so fancy….But I do have a way with words…) I initially said to get dressed up. We all settled for a more casual dress up vibe. Nothing too crazy, but I have to say… were my girls working the red lips or what? I’m so proud. I opted for a pink shade lip and stuck to the color that never goes out of style…black, for my outfit. With a few fuchsia pink accents and gold jewelry. Basically I have these fuchsia pink heels that I use any excuse to wear them. And by wear them I mean they come on and off throughout the party. Hence I’m not a heels girl, I love my fuzzy socks more than anything. I’m siting here wearing a Valentine’s Day pair right now as I type!

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So there you have it, my go to party planning tips. When all is said and done and the stress of planning is over with, I can sit back knowing my friends enjoyed themselves and looking at the pictures we took I know that it was one for the books. Check out some photo booth snap shots below!

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Thank you ladies  for being your amazing selves!

So folks whether you’re single, in a relationship, kinda sort of maybe seeing someone, you are loved by someone (most likely many someones #family #friends.) And what better way to reciprocate that love than by throwing your girlfriends an awesome GNI (girls night in).

I leave you with our version of an Oscar selfie ;)

I leave you with our version of an Oscar selfie 😉

-<3-

** All images and videos are my own**

(I apologize for the crappy quality vlog camera…

but at least my photo booth pics are on point!)

Thanksgiving 2014 To Do List

We are just a day away from one of my favorite holidays. Sure, we all love Christmas, but I think at times it can definitely get over blown and you lose the true sprit of it in the first place. We stress over what to buy people, who to visit, how to squeeze in Christmas movies and music and decorating. And it all ends up being more stressful then enjoyable. That’s why I love Thanksgiving. It’s quieter, it’s happy, it’s homey. And the food is OUT OF THIS zxh-thanksgiving-111401WORLD. Any holiday that surrounds a food feast, is my kind of holiday. I usually split Thanksgiving with visiting my grandparents and then my aunt. And at my Aunt’s it’s usually a bunch of cousins and kids running all around. It’s a total blast. I just love it. To me Thanksgiving is such a beautiful time, it’s a time for you to reflect and be thankful for all you have. The family, the food, the love that surrounds you not just today but every day. I just think Thanksgiving is way less pressure than Christmas, and yet even better food. 😉 But before you crazy Christmas lovers yell at me, understand I Love Christmas too, and I intend to enjoy all it’s magic this year, but Thanksgiving comes first. And for those who don’t celebrate Thanksgiving, I’m sorry, eat some turkey anyway. 😉

Check out my Thanksgiving post from last year

Thanksgiving exists to ya know…

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This Year’s Thanksgiving “To Do” List

*Decorate*

Once Halloween was over, out went the spiders, ghosts and witches….

Normally we don’t decorate too much for Halloween or Thanksgiving in my house. We just throw a few things on our door and call it a day. But This year we’ve been trying to decorate inside a little more, because we have my god daughter here often, and she gets a kick out of all of it. So this year we filled our house with turkeys, fall leaves, pumpkins, Indians, cornucopias, and scarecrows. I even found her a Happy Thanksgiving Balloon and some Turkey Stickers!

*Here are a few personal photos…of my decorations.*

My god daughter loves her balloons!

My god daughter loves her balloons!

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This is my favorite decoration…I named her Sage “Sunflower” Meadow 😉

*Decide on what to make for Thanksgiving Dinner*

Like I mentioned before, I visit people for the holidays. So I always like to bring something to wherever I go. Last year I made an Apple Crisp that went over really well. (My brother yelled at me because I’m not making it again this year, haha.) But this year I wanted to  do something a little different. I’m going to keep it in the Pie family, but step it up a notch. After researching a few ideas I decided I would make a Peach Cobbler, Turkey Cookies, Pilgrim Hat Cookies, and Apple Pie Punch. I’m super excited and can’t wait to see the little kiddies reactions to the cookies. Fingers crossed, hope everything comes out good! ***FYI there are tons of versions of those turkey cookies and pilgrim hats I didn’t really follow any one specific recipe, I just googled a bunch.***

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My Shopping List…all checked off!

*Be Festive*

Ever since my god daughter was born I’ve started a little tradition with her where I buy her and I some kind of fun holiday headband and we take pictures wearing them. And last year I didn’t come across any cute Thanksgiving headbands, so I ended up making her a flower crown with fall flowers. She looked super cute! Anyway this year I found the CUTEST turkey headbands and some Indian headbands for the other kiddies. I can’t wait to wear them and take some fun pictures!

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Seriously how cute are those headbands I found???

*Paint Your Nails*

Usually I go all out for nail art on the holidays, last Halloween I did a funky Halloween inspired swirl design, and last Christmas I did each nail a different Christmas inspired design. But I never came up with a cute Thanksgiving design to do. Or I just simply didn’t have the time. This year for Halloween I was [Mrs.] Daryl Dixon, zombie ass kicker from The Walking Dead, so I didn’t want to break character and make my nails all beautiful. Because let’s face it girls can’t get mani/pedis in the zombie apocalypse. So this year I decided to do my nails festively for Turkey day. Here’s the designs I found on Google…I attempted the turkey and the tribal print.images2VYB4XIG

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oranges, browns, yellows… oh my!

here's my attempt...it's intricate work, so I think it's not too shabby ;)

here’s my attempt…it’s intricate work, so I think it’s not too shabby 😉

*The Fashion*

Ok so I was still deciding on an outfit up until yesterday, it took me forever to come up with something that I liked! I like to be comfortable on a daily basis and I’d say my personal style is definitely a reflection of that. I hate being constricted which is why I rarely wear dresses or skirts with tights. And besides I live in New York so it’s not exactly bright and sun shiny here, it’s actually rainy and cold and gross today. The winter is coming and it’s coming fast! BUT at the same time once I get where I’m going, it’s usually pretty warm. My aunt’s house has always got an oven on heating up delicious Thanksgiving foods and there’s a bunch of people so, you get hot. So I like to dress light and comfortable. Usually I layer, because they are easy to manipulate and take off or put on depending on temperature. I love fall colors too, the burgundys and oranges, even green is fun to tie in. Besides it’s thanksgiving, the foodiest of food feasts and I want room to eat, no tight fitting clothes for me! haha. Am I right ladies?

*Here’s my outfit choice for Tomorrow!*

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a thin long sleeved black crop top

a tribal print cream and beige colored vest/cardigan

brown snake skin thin belt

knit jeans

brown leg warmers

brown snake skin boots

a statement necklace and matching earrings

gold alex & ani bracelets

some rings

*since my outfit is kind of generic in the color department I figured the burgundy jewelry and my festive nails will pep it up and I’ll add a bold lip color to tie it all together!

*And for more inspiration…check out one of my favorite YouTube fashionistas!

*March of the Wooden Soldiers vs. The Macy’s Day Parade*

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So if you read my post from last year, then you know that watching March of the Wooden Soldiers every year has been a tradition in my family for years. But as I get older and want to contribute more to the Thanksgiving dinner I find it harder and harder to find the time to watch that or the Macy’s Day Parade. So here’s my plan for this year. My dad has the movie on dvd so I’m hoping to watch it later today. And that way on Thanksgiving I can have the Parade on in the background while I bake and prepare my fun little treats. Yay for turkey cookies!

*TV Show Thanksgiving Episodes*

Ok so for me I always feel like Thanksgiving isn’t represented well enough in movies and in decorations. It’s like every store has thrown up Christmas cheer, and you can’t escape it. Where are the Turkey songs, movies and the cheer. So I turn to tv. Because tv knows how to do Thanksgiving. What’s up Charlie Brown?

Some of my favorite shows have done Thanksgiving episodes and I am here to bring them to your attention!

The OC

Season 1 Episode 11 “The Homecoming”

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Ryan brings Marissa to Chino to steal a car for his prison ridden brother

And Caleb and Julie invite themselves over intruding on a blind date Kirsten and Sandy have set up for Jimmy (Julie’s ex) & Rachel.

* It’s a good time…Seth Cohen really just has to speak words and you’ll be laughing.

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Season 4 Episode 3  “The Cold Turkey”

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Ryan is hunting after Vulchuck

Julie is banned from the Cohen house for Thanksgiving Dinner

Summer invites some homeless people over

Kirsten actually cooks

Missing Marissa seems to be the center of this episode

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 One Tree Hill

Season 8 Episode 9 “Between Raising Hell and Amazing Grace”

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Brooke attempts to but burns her Turkey

Mia and Alex cat fight over chase

Victoria returns from prison

Julian’s mom butts in where she’s not wanted

Skills orders a farm fresh Turkey but doesn’t realize that means it’s alive

Mouth and Millie flirt again

And everyone ends up a Haley and Nathan’s for dinner and brings jello salad

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Dawson’s Creek

Season 3 Episode 8 “Guess Who’s Coming to Dinner”

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Dawson is confused by his separated parents suddenly acting all buddy buddy like everything is just fine

Jen’s mom shows up and drops a bomb on her that she has a long lost sister floating around

Pacey and Andy deal with being around each other after a painful breakup

Joey is the voice of reason for many

And everyone ends up at Grams for dinner…they call themselves the misfits

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Friends

Friends is the holy grail of Thanksgivings, they had some form of a Thanksgiving episode EVERY season….so props to them for being on point and so festive!

These are two of my favorites…

Season 5 Episode 8 “The One With All The Thanksgivings”

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Joey is thankful for thongs

The gang shares each of their worst Thanksgiving stories…

which leads to incredibly hilarious flashbacks which prove Chandler and Monica were always in the stars

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*Oh and multiple people wear turkeys on their heads so there’s that.

Season 6 Episode 9  “The One Where Ross Got High”

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But Joey seemed to like it

Phoebe has a dirty dream about Monica’s dad

Joey and Ross try to rush through dinner to leave early to join Joey’s roommate and her dancer friends in what seems to be a whole mess of desperate drunk girls

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*Check out this article on buzzfeed…ranking every Friends thanksgiving episode

And last but not least…a show who’s Thanksgiving episode defines Thanksgiving for me…it is my absolute favorite on this list…

Gilmore Girls

Season 3 Episode 9 “A Deep-Fried Korean Thanksgiving”

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deep fried turkey and lots of alcohol consumption at Sookie’s

squeeze in some time for dinner at Luke’s (hold the rolls) and pause while Rory and Jess awkward kiss

And last but not least sit back and enjoy the usual awkward suffocating dinner with Emily and Richard Gilmore

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*FOUR Thanksgivings and the girls still have room for those rolls at the end of the night.

*How jealous are you of their abilities to eat like pigs and NOT gain weight???

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P.S. A Drunk Sookie is all you need in life, really…

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So there you have it, what has been my Thanksgiving Week “To Do” List of sorts and fun activities included.

I have been in swift gear this week and am proud to say I am making checking things off this list…a fun filled bowl of happiness! 😉

So Happy Thanksgiving Folks!!!!!!!!!!

Take a look around you and be grateful for all that you have!

Enjoy and may your tummies be full of delicious foods and your heart be full of happiness.

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*I do not take any credit for any images or gifs used that aren’t specified as my own*

-<3-

My TV Nerd Dream Came True

So there are two things in life that I truly fan girl over. I fan girl over a lot of stuff but I’m talking full on next level fan girl shit. And that is for Justin Timberlake/*NSYNC, and the TV show “Friends.” During late August an announcement was made that made my fan girl radar kick into high gear. Infilarakia-central-perk[1] honor of “Friends” celebrating the 20th anniversary of the day the pilot episode premiered and made fans fall in love with Rachel, Monica, Phoebe, Joey, Chandler, and Ross, New York City would be host to a “Central Perk” Pop Up shop.  A replica of the gang’s daily coffee hangout. I NEARLY LOST MYSELF! I did. I have been saying how they needed to do something like this FOR YEARS. I remember reading awhile back that the only Central Perk that existed was somewhere in London and well let’s face it being a New York girl, London isn’t really around the corner. So when I heard this news I was ecstatic. If you doubt my dedication to the show or my love of Central Perk…I say click HERE…and all will be understood. Yup that’s right July 2013, I hosted my very on Central Perk themed party….and it was a blast.

My friends and I had been planning to go for weeks. But things kept coming up and we kept having to put it off.  The shop opened up September 17, 2014 and closed October 18, 2013. ONLY A MONTH! A MONTH! The more I read about it, the more I knew I had to make time to get there. I am a huge TV nerd, and I love behind the scenes footage, I love props and getting to learn things about what goes on behind the camera of my favorite shows. Set secrets are my weakness. I love them! So when I heard we would be able to take a picture on the famous orange couch, I was super stoked! I can’t even explain to you how much of a tv nerd dream that has been for me. And even hosting my own party to try and make it happen couldn’t lessen the joy I felt when I actually got to do it! I sat where Jennifer Anniston sat!

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 Here’s my journey…(in pictures)

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Walking toward it…noticing the massive line we were in store for…[4 blocks long just to give you an idea]

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Finally waiting in line!

My friend and I got there around 2 in the afternoon we went on Columbus day. And I don’t think any other day would have made a difference….there was going to be a line either way and I have to say we were really lucky with the weather. It wasn’t too cold, not hot, and the rain held up until we were all said and done and on our way home…then we got soaked sans my brilliant idea not to bring along an umbrella. Throughout our wait we got a few time updates as we moved along the line. From a wait of nearly 4 hours from when we got on line, we finally made it to the front of the shop at around 5. 10350506_10204538798131139_1073587806796967014_n[2] 10703663_10205227888122746_1550153432122752342_n[1] 10696251_10204538795651077_937552607732796906_n[1] What I found so interesting was how considerate the host at the door was. She briefed us on how the shop worked and where we had to go for our picture with the couch and where the gift shop line was and urged us to take pictures. She also shooed away passing people who were stopping and taking pictures through the door, stating that all of us waiting online deserve to take as many pictures as we want, that people just walking by do not just get to waltz in and steal photos. I thought that was really cool of her. 3 & 1/2 hours later and we are in! We are greeted by Pat the Dog and an array of other Friends memorabilia and specific character wardrobe. 6263_10205227862802113_4935844683677028435_n[2]

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Next we move on to a glass case showcasing props used in many different episodes, all enveloped in episode stills of the show and cast photos surrounding us.

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Next we move onto the coffee station…where we not only got our choice of FREE coffee but also got blessed with some very signature set props

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The worker’s shirts said “How you brewin’?” haha genius!

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After we got our free coffees we explored at bit more before waiting on the line to take our picture on THE famous orange couch. How cool are those signed scripts, did you know the show was almost called “Six of One” or “Friends Like Us.”

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They had a big flat screen playing friends clips and there was a definite 90’s soundtrack playing over  the sound system…pretty sure I remember singing along to “I believe I can fly.” On the wall behind us were some sketches of the signature sets. Also notice the umbrella holder from the show was there as well!

***Heading to the COUCH!***

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They had someone taking pictures for you…but you were allowed to have someone take a picture for you using one other personal device.

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Then you were given a card with a website and photo code to obtain your FREE picture.

Sitting on that couch was surreal, I did my best to take it all in. I have to admit though I was a bit skeptical of whether they were telling the truth that the couch was the real couch used on the show. But once I saw it in person and saw how dingy and dirty and flat the cushions were, I knew it was the real deal! haha. And I was cool with it! The only thing missing were our big coffee mugs; they made us put our coffee down when sitting on the couch #nospillzone. But other than that it was super awesome to live out a tv nerd fantasy of mine. I even sat in the green chair on the side [I hope that was the real chair too] and had a little fan girl moment for myself just before heading to the gift shop area.

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The gift shop area was right at the center and across from the coffee station. When we got to it, there wasn’t much left. I really wanted a mug or a bracelet but they were sold out of the mugs and they had a few bracelets left but they wanted like $40 for one bracelet. So I settled on a central Perk frame to put my picture in, a magnet and a bunch of buttons.

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You couldn’t use cash; only debit or credit cards, which was kind of annoying but I guess with all the craziness they didn’t want to be responsible for managing money too. They had like an iPad type credit card swiper. But thankfully I had read up beforehand and knew to have the money on my card and also they give you an option of being sent a receipt through email or text. Which is good.

After the gift shop, I remember turning to my friend and asking where the gold frame around the peephole was…that I remembered reading it was supposed to be there and that I hadn’t come across it and low and behold it was cleverly discussed right near the gift shop exit.

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It was encased in a peephole esque tv box playing a few Friends clips and it was see through so when you looked close you saw the frame but from the side you can see clearly. This was a replica of the original.

All in all it was an amazing experience. The 3 and a half hours weren’t as bad as I thought and once we got the first block down we moved quicker to the front. The only downside was I had to pee! We were so close that I thought I’d make it, but when we hit the block of the entrance they said we’d have to wait about another half hour (which didn’t end up being true) but I ran into the deli/café next door to use their rest room anyway. I wasn’t about to take any chances of having to rush through my once in a life time chance of seeing all of this amazing tv stuff.  When I came back I was trying to get back on my place in line and I was stopped by a security guy. I was like “I just went to the bathroom. I’ve been here the whole time.” [Mind you this guy saw my face like 10 times throughout the waiting period.] My friend was screaming over saying “she’s with me, she’s with me” and he almost didn’t let me in. I just stopped talking and looked at him with a face. Then all the girls that were waiting behind us in line that whole time were screaming out “she was here, she was here, let her in.” And he was like “Oh ok, they say you were here…I’m sorry, if you weren’t I wouldn’t be able to let you in, but they say you were, so go ahead.” And I was let in. I was like yea I was getting in here no matter what….you would have seen me flip out, there would have been tears…it would have been a scene.

But never the less I went, I saw, I conquered and I actually did manage to put my camera down here and there and actually take it all in. What a cool experience and worth the wait!

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I think Eight O’clock coffee did a damn good job. The staff was nice, the atmosphere was that of a coffee shop, and looked like Central Perk! Despite the crowds of people and the amount of things to look at, everything moved rather smoothly and it was a cozy comforting experience. The different stations made it all easier and organized and I never felt pressed for time or rushed. It was so cool to see all the set pieces and stage props and everything. I’m such a huge Friends fan, it is my absolute favorite show, and this was such an amazing thing to experience and it was free! My favorite thing! haha. Take a picture sitting on the orange couch from Friends…check. #bucketlist It did so well, they really should open up a real coffee shop here in NYC for good!

And for my fellow Friends fans who do not own the box set…BIG NEWS…

It’s coming to Netflix January 1, 2015!

Could you BE any more excited???

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Who’s YOUR Lobster?

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I’m a TV junkie and not afraid to admit it. And along with that I’m a romantic at heart and therefore I have certain couples, which I ship within every TV show. But there is one couple, who I feel is the couple of all couples. Whose love and relationship is timeless. The couple which all other couples are compared to, but could never really match. And that is the love between Ross and Rachel from F.R.I.E.N.D.S; which is also what I consider to be the greatest TV show of all time. And it all started with…

 “She’s your Lobster.”- Phoebe

 Oh Ms. Buffay, Thank You for this and all your weird wisdom.

27 Reasons Why Ross & Rachel Were Each Other’s Lobsters

 1. Ross loved Rachel since the 9th grade.

2. “It’s always been you Rach.”-Ross

Ross-and-Rachel-ross-and-rachel-32607368-500-2903. Ross planned his entire future with Rachel after only 6 weeks of actually dating her.

4. Ross got dressed and ready to take Rachel to prom when she thought her date stood her up.

5. Even after Ross “cheated,” you had to feel bad for him, because you realized just how sincerely in love he was with Rachel and how sorry he was. The scene that broke everyone’s heart into a thousand pieces. He later even lets her keep her favorite shirt of his, because he knows she likes to sleep in it.

*I have to say I understood why Rachel was so hurt and I understood them breaking up over it. But I wished the break up didn’t last as long as it did, because they were obviously still in love. But I wouldn’t consider it cheating since at that time he slept with someone else, they were actually broken up. The infamous “We were on a break” was a run on joke for the duration of the show.*

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6. Ross cancelled a really important career night to be there for Rachel when she was in pain and in need of a hospital visit, he even helps her get dressed and do her makeup.

437. Ross and Rachel flirt at the beach house and kiss later that night, even though Ross has started to see Bonnie.

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1097616_1344937093293_full8. Ross stopped dating Rachel’s sister Jill, just so that there would be a chance for he and Rachel again in the future.

9. The jealousy of each others relationships…was pretty evident…Mark, Joshua, Paolo, Julie, Bonnie, Emily.

10. Rachel went to London to stop Ross’ wedding, but when she got there decided it wasn’t the right thing to do and supported him instead.

11. Ross said “I take thee Rachel.” in his wedding vows to Emily.

i-ross-take-thee-rachel-o12. Ross & Rachel drunkenly got married in Vegas.

rr13. Ross lied about getting an annulment…he didn’t want to divorce Rachel. Ross smelt Rachel’s hair when he hugs her. Phoebe saw it as a sign and so did we.

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14. Ross tells Rachel she can live with him, when Monica and Chandler decide to move in together.

15. Ross and Rachel both considered *Bonus Night*….and then it actually happened…

[See: Rachel tells Ross she’s pregnant]

16. Ross planned his proposal for Rachel when they were dating…and reveals it years later when he and Rachel are at a family function pretending to be engaged because she is pregnant.

17. Ross guided Rachel through the mysteries of pregnancy.

18. Ross wanted Rachel to move in with him, when she was pregnant and after they had Emma in order to be closer to them.

Friends319. During her pregnancy; Ross gave Rachel a special pager code, for her to use to get in touch with him.

20. Rachel and Ross have their baby Emma.

RRE21. In response to Phoebe saying she can’t tell who Emma looks more like, Ross says; “She’s gorgeous are you kidding me, she’s all Rachel.”

rossphoebe22. Ross’ reaction to Rachel & Joey’s “relationship” was perfect.

23. Ross doesn’t take advantage of a vulnerable Rachel when her father has a heart attack and she’s looking for comfort.

24. Rachel tells Ross that with them “sex is never off the table.”

25. When Rachel is offered a job in Paris, Ross slyly tries to get her to stay.

26. Ross and Rachel fight about how hard it is going to be for Rachel to leave him.

27. Rachel gets off the plane.

 The roller coaster of why these two belong together was a hell of a lot of fun to watch, but I could have done without all the useless relationships and hookups in between them finally realizing they belonged together…but I guess that’s television for ya!

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