Mysterious Attraction Ch. 6 Part 3

Previously on Mysterious Attraction


And this week…

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cexieLexie wakes up the next morning to find Carter cooking in the Kitchen

Lexie: Hey you

Carter: Hey sleepy head, I was hoping to bring you breakfast in bed, (walks over to her and hands her a cup of coffee)

312913_1255639634297_fullLexie: thank you, (kisses him)

Carter: Did you sleep well?tumblr_llxyiaV2Gp1qi1okwo1_500

Lexie: Like a baby. (smiles) I’ll tell ya not having to wake up and head to that dreadful office is a seriously amazing feeling.

Carter: I know what you mean…but there is one more thing to consider…what about your team?

Lexie: Well I mean they really work for the business, so I’m sure my father will take care of all that.

Carter: Well I just thought you’d wanna give them a farewell of some kind ya know? I mean they have been working for you mostly and ok maybe I don’t care much for Joe, (they both laugh) but Brice is a pretty good guy. I just think  deserves an explanation.

312913_1255639617404_fullLexie: Ugh I hate it when you’re right. But Brice has been great, you know I always thought he wasn’t really cut out for this business either. He’s got good instincts and a really good heart. I’d hate to see something bad happen to him.

Carter: Well maybe you can offer him a new job, once you  get your fashion empire rolling.

Lexie: (laughs) Yea well I don’t think that Brice is willing to be out of a job for the next couple years.

Carter: Oh come on. It’s not gonna take you years to pull this off. You’re much too determined to lie in wait. Make it happen.

Lexie: You’re right. Luck doesn’t mean a thing in this world. It’s all about believing you can do it.

Carter: That’s my girl, Cheers (smiles and clinks his coffee cup to hers)ryan-gosling-320

Lexie: Will you come with me…to talk to Brice?

Carter: Of course, I’d like to see him myself. He always had my back, now it’s time I have his. But- breakfast first.

Lexie: Yes, of course…this looks amazing, (smiles and sits down to eat)


Meanwhile at the office Reeves calls a major meeting, both Joe and Brice are in attendance along with the rest of the “employees”


Reeves: Many of you are probably wondering why I’ve called this meeting and well I think you’ve come to the realization that Lexie isn’t in today. And neither is Carter.

Joe: Reeves, is she ok?d32b6a169f75d21786e3c49b057131e5

Reeves: She’s perfect. Lexie has decided to remove herself from the business.  And I could  not be more proud of her. She has found a happy life and I support that. She’s my only child and having her involved in this hasn’t been easy. I never wanted this life for her. With that being said, many of you may have heard things concerning Lexie and Carter. And I think well that’s up to the two of them to decide whether or not they wish to enlighten all of you. All you need to know for now is that Lexie is no longer apart of the business and neither is Carter. I also understand that this may not be what you want for yourselves either. And I ask you to think long and hard and if you choose to leave… Understand that, there will be no hard feelings. This isn’t the kind of life I’d wish on anyone. That’ll be all for today, please let me know if you come to any decisions.

The employees disperse and go off in their own little groups. Sipping on coffee and breakfast foods. Brice leans quietly against the back wall with a cup of coffee in his hands.

-Jensen-jensen-ackles-30582603-800-450Joe: Hey

Brice nods his way

Joe: Don’t tell me you’re considering skipping out?

Brice: Would that be such a bad thing?

Joe: Hell yes. Think about it. The whole reason you’re in this job is because you couldn’t get a job anywhere else. I mean you don’t have a college degree right? Not many jobs look at you if you don’t have that piece of paper.

Brice looks at him

Joe: Just think about it…this is as good as it gets for us.tumblr_me6nebgABc1rb0pjco1_500

Joe slaps him on the shoulder and starts to walk away

Brice: But didn’t you go to college…(Joe turns back towards him) so what’s your excuse?

Joe makes a face

Both men notice Lexie

Brice: Let it go man…you made your choice a long time ago, and now she’s made hers. Stop chasing something that isn’t there.

Joe walks away annoyed

Lexie stands in the door way with Carter342284_1262508441218_500_282

Lexie walks over to her dad

Lexie: Hey dad.

Reeves: Hey Princess. What are you doing here?

Lexie: Just tying up some loose ends. Do you mind if I have a word with everyone?

Reeves: Absolutely, go right ahead.

Lexie looks at Carter

Ryan-Gosling-in-Gangster-Squad-1Lexie: Dad, (takes Carter’s hand) You remember Carter.

Reeves: Yes,(shakes his hand) you take care of my little girl.

Carter: All do respect sir, but she doesn’t need me to. But I’ll certainly always be there to support her.

Lexie smiles at him

Reeves: (smiles) Good man. (he nods)020209_sbrown_ghsneakpeek_240x320

Lexie: Ok well… play nice. I’ll be right back.

Lexie: Um hi everyone. Can I just have your attention for a minute?

The crowd turns to her

Lexie: I know my father’s filled you in already. But I just felt like I owed you all more than having my father tell you I was leaving. I want to thank you all for putting up with me. (laughs) I realize that I haven’t been the easiest boss to work for. And I’ve also realized that the ruthless side of me was someone who was hiding behind grief. Not many of you know this but my mother was killed in a crossfire in our now abandoned warehouse. She was killed by Skully and his men. And because of losing her I found a way to shut off all that pain by seeking revenge. And the way I saw to do that was by joining forces with my father. My father’s a brilliant man, and deep down he has a good soul, but the ideas between right and wrong have long been forgotten. I love my father. But I can’t fight this battle anymore. It’s not the life I want for myself, and I know it’s not the life  my mother would want for me. It’s also not the life I want for any of you. Now you make your own decisions. But as my father said he wouldn’t wish this life on anyone. So I urge you, if you have even the slightest doubt about making this your life, get out now, before it’s too late. Thank you for your assistance and your hard work. You all have so much more to offer the world. I just hope you realize that. Best of luck.

Joe walks up to Lexie

Handsome-actor_Jensen-AcklesJoe: So uh, you and Mr. Perfect here, are a public thing now? What’s his wife think?

Carter: Don’t go there. You don’t know a damn thing about our relationship.

Joe: Yours and Lexie’s? or Yours and your wives?[] brooke davis, curly hair 159802

Lexie: Enough ok Joe. When are you ever going to get it? You lost. Now grow up and get over it. (takes Carter’s hand and walks away)

Reeves smiles at Lexie’s boldness

He walks slowly over to Joe

Reeves: You know green isn’t a good color on you Joe.

Joe: Oh come on Reeves. You can’t honestly support that relationship.

Reeves: My daughter’s happy…and I support that.

Joe laughs

gh2Reeves: (leans in and whispers) My daughter’s completely capable of handling you. This I know for sure. But what you need to know is she’s much kinder then me. So if you have any intention of ruining her happiness, I will ruin you.

Joe looks at him dumbfounded

Reeves: Got it? (smiles, pats him on the back and walks away)

Lexie and Carter walk over to Brice

Lexie: Hey Brice

Brice: Ms. Lexie. Good to see you.

Lexie: You can just call me Lexie. (smiles)

Brice: Right, (laughs) Hey Carter

Carter: How ya doin’ man? (shakes his hand)

Lexie: Carter and I were talking and, if you’re interested…I’m looking to start my own fashion company. I know it’s not exactly a 342284_1262508441218_500_282guy’s dream, (laughs) But I mean we’re gonna need some movers and stock employees. So maybe you’d like to still work for me? I promise I won’t be a tyrant.

Brice: You were never a tyrant. (laughs)

Carter: (laughs) Good man.

Lexie playfully hits Carter’s arm

Brice: It sounds like a great offer, but I just don’t know if I’m cut out for anything else…

Lexie: Yes you are…you really are…please just…think about it?

Brice nods

tumblr_me6nebgABc1rb0pjco1_500Brice: Hey…I’m happy for you two…you seem happy

Lexie and Carter exchange smiles

Lexie: We are. Thank you… Maybe it’s time you find your happiness?

Lexie and Carter walk away hand in hand

Brice watches in wonder of his future

***Carter and Lexie walk outside and Lexie breathes a sign of relief***

Carter: Feel better?

Lexie: You were absolutely right. That was something I needed to do. I feel like the dark cloud over us is finally passing.

Carter: Good. Seeing you happy, makes me happy.

Lexie: (smiles) I just hope that Brice takes the offer. Or even if he doesn’t I just hope he gets out somehow. He deserves better. They all do.

Carter: Well you did the best you could. You know, ultimately the decision is up to them.

Lexie: I know. But it felt good to be able to impart some kind of wisdom upon them. I know I’m not the best  source for advice, but I have learned a lot in my life.

Carter: You did the right thing. I’m proud of you.

Lexie: Thanks for sticking by me.

Carter: Always. (grabs both her hands in his)

Lexie smiles

Carter: Listen… about your mom…I’m so sorry…I had no idea…why didn’t you tell me-

Lexie: I wanted to, I was going to…I just…It’s difficult to talk about.

Carter nods

Carter’s phone starts ringing

Carter sighs

Lexie: It’s ok, you should take it, it’s probably your lawyer.

ryan-gosling-gangster-squad-set-10Carter: Ok, but I wanna talk more about this later ok? Can we do that, please?

Lexie: Of course. (kisses him on the cheek)

Carter: (smiles at her and answers his phone) Hello?…What do you mean? … How is that possible?… Can she do that?

Carter sighs heavily

Lexie looks concerned

Carter: Yea… Ok, yea I’ll see you in an hour… Ok thanks, Bye.Brooke-Davis-7x16-Screencap-brooke-davis-12935170-1280-720 (hangs up)

Lexie: What happened?

Carter: The dark cloud may be passing by, but before it fully does it’s gonna rain all over us.

Lexie: What does that mean?

Carter: (sighs) Kelly’s refusing to sign the divorce papers.

STAY TUNED! Chapter 7 coming your way Next Friday!

(hopefully not at 11:30 like this week’s post, haha)

Happy Weekend!

And I just gotta throw a quick BIRTHDAY SHOUT OUT to the one and only…


33 and still sexy!!!!! LOVE HIM! ❤


Inspiration <3

Within the last couple of days I recently came across some really amazing videos…that just resonated with me. So I just thought I’d share. My facebook page has literally been plagued with these videos in hopes that others will see all they have to offer…sometimes just hearing someone speak about the issues you feel so many of us face is enough to make you feel a little lighter that day…so I hope this makes your day lighter…


This first one is a very motivational speech by actress/activist Sophia Bush. I’ve been a Sophia Bush fan since her early days on One Tree Hill. And I’ve noticed just how much she cares about those around her. The idea that she had a huge part in the “0 is not a size” campaign that her character Brooke Davis features in her clothing line, made me really happy to call myself her fan. In this speech Sophia talks about inner beauty in which she says; “We get gorgeous when we get conscious, we get confident when we get concerned, life is about consumption.” I can’t say much else other then the fact that I really love when women realize just how strong they are, and just how much we can do for ourselves and the world. Body image has always been an issue that falls mostly upon the female audience and the media does little to help us realize that your outer self isn’t as important as your inner self. But every so often there’s a ray of light. A small glimmer in that one person who uses media and social networking sites to go beyond their everyday routine in order to spread awareness and pride amongst young women. What a great role model!

*You can catch Sophia Bush playing badass Detective Erin Lindsay on Chicago PD on Wednesdays @10 on NBC…

I’ll be watching tonight!

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This next video was posted on Z100’s facebook, and in between the celebrity news this shined through. This girl has shown so many sides to what girls, women (and boys & men) go through… and it’s a true eye opener…it is brilliant and inspirational. I just want to touch upon a few key parts … “you don’t need any miracle cream to keep your passion smooth…or diet pills to slim your kindness down, and when you start to drown in these pity expectations you better re-examine the miracle of your existence because you are worth so much more then your waist line.”  She’s definitely someone to look out for, she’s got a great mind, and that’s what we as girls and women need to focus on. The fact that our minds are creative, they are full of ideas and talent, and using them to the best of our abilities is more rewarding then any gratification a compliment from a man can give us.

*Visit her youtube channel HERE

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This last video, is about the latest media phenomenon… the #selfie. I am guilty of taking selfies, as I am sure most of us are. Sometimes, if you’re having a good hair day or you like your outfit, you wanna capture it. But then again I’ve taken the bummy selfie too, ya know the days your in sweats, wearing your glasses, drinking tea, and curled up watching a movie. The selfie isn’t a bad thing. And this video proves just how amazing the act of taking a selfie can be. I won’t give anything away, but the way this video indulges in the selfie, is such a creative and beautiful concept.  “When [the other girls] said they were insecure about things, those were the things that made them different. The things that make them different, make them unique and that made them beautiful.”

*So ladies (and gents) take them selfies with no shame! 😀 (and props to Dove for making just a great documentary)



Happy Wednesday!


“Secret” Society Comes to Life

As you may know, (if you follow this blog) I recently posted a my first VLOG…(you can watch that HERE) and in it I stated how I wanted to get back into shooting videos and editing. Since I graduated I have really just been more focused on the writing portion of my interests. But this year I wanted to reacquaint myself with the act of telling a story through moving images rather then just through words. So as a way to combine my two passions of writing and video, I decided to take a few of my poems that have already been featured on this blog and transform them into Poetry Videos. So I hope you watch and I hope you enjoy!

*Please welcome MichelleLeighWrites first video of my Poetry “in motion” Series…*

( thanks for the name Lauren! 😉 )

Starring the Lovely Lauren

Photo By: Robert DeSantos Jr.

Photo By: Robert DeSantos Jr.

First Read “Secret” Society HERE

Then Watch “Secret” Society HERE

or Watch Below

Comment on YouTube or tell me here in the comments what you think!

Thanks for watching!


Just a few photos from the video shoot! 😀


Having fun “on set” (p.s. thanks to Rob Jr. for the assistance!)


Lauren deep in character…


Lauren had quite the few outfit changes…I call this the “art teacher” look


Lauren rockin’ her “Freedom” T-shirt…*peace sign* is a must 🙂




Directing... Gotta work them angles ;)

Directing… Gotta work them angles 😉

Lauren's Artwork, I'm keeping it! #memories

Lauren’s Artwork, I’m keeping it! #memories

If you take anything away from this poetry video…

let it be this…

it’s ok to BE Yourself.

Happy Monday!

(**And stick around I’m hoping to shoot another video soon!**)


Mysterious Attraction Ch. 6 Part 2

Previously on Mysterious Attraction…



And this week…

Husband vs Wife

While Lexie hashes it out with Reeves… Carter comes home to find Kelly has dinner cooking, and the table set for two.

Kelly enters the room in a slinky dress

Kelly: Hey, you’re home. (smiling brightly)gh-02-14-12-1

Carter: Yea…hey. (looks around confused)

Kelly comes over to him and kisses him

Carter: (pushing her away) Kelly…I can’t do this.

Kelly: Do what?

Carter: I can’t pretend anymore.

Kelly: Is it because of Lexie?

Carter: Why would you say that?

9fb3dc4add631c5c5a0ee75b3afb5976Kelly: I’m not stupid Carter, I saw the panic in your eyes when I showed up today. I saw how you looked at her.

Carter: Kelly I-

Kelly: And I heard you… I heard you tell her that you have to be with her.

Carter: Kelly….I’m sorry.

Kelly: You’re sorry?

Carter looks down

Kelly: How long?

Carter: Kelly?

Kelly: How long?

Carter: On and off for a year and a half.

Kelly: Oh my god. (doubling back, tearing up, gasping as she grabs her chest)lante-baby2

Carter: I didn’t want you to find out this way…

Kelly: Well…a year and a half…it seems like you didn’t want me to find out at all!

Carter: I didn’t want to have this conversation. I didn’t want to hurt you.

Kelly: That’s a bunch of bullshit, and you know it! I guess it was all a matter of time….before you retaliated. Silly me, I thought we actually moved past everything that happened between us.

Carter: Moved past what? Your betrayal? (glares at her) Come on Kell- you and I- we never should have gotten married. Only I was too stupid and blinded that I didn’t see it.

Kelly: See what?

Carter: (screams) That you never loved me!

Kelly: That’s not true! How can you say that!

Carter: It is true, it is. Deep down you know that it is.

Kelly: (crying) How could you possibly say that? After everything we’ve had together…after-

Carter: 5 MONTHS Kell…5 MONTHS of marriage and you couldn’t hack it.

Kelly: I understand I made a huge mistake. But it was just that…a mistake. I regretted it from the minute that it happened. And I’ve spent the last 3 years of my life trying to make it up to you…but you won’t let me in! And now I know why. You’ve been screwing your boss. I guess that’s how you pave a way for yourself, huh? She’s a classy board that Lexie….although I gotta say she lacks originality.

Carter: Don’t you dare. Leave her out of this.

Kelly: Oh I’m sorry are you offended by my insults of your mistress.

Carter: That’s funny…because she’s felt more like my wife then you ever have…

Kelly’s face drops and her face turns cold

6a00d83451b72b69e20115701228e4970b-320wiKelly: (dumbfounded and crying) I can’t believe you right now…who are you?

Carter: I’m the man who’s tired of being used as your punching bag…Besides your problem’s with me so like I said… leave her out of it.

Kelly: So what now…your just gonna leave me for her. What do you really think is gonna happen? I mean what do you really think you and New York City’s greatest mob princess are gonna get married and live happily ever. Carter, please if you were gonna cheat aim a little higher…

Carter: Oh you mean like you…when you nailed the first bartender you got your hands on.

Kelly glares at him

Carter: (paces the room) You have NO room to judge. You strayed first. This distance between us, you created it. So don’t you dare put that on me.

Kelly: You’re not exactly innocent here, Carter?

Carter: Who are you kidding here Kell- I fought for you. I fought like hell to put us back together. And against my better judgement against the feeling in my gutt, against my heart screaming to run…I stayed. And now I can’t figure out why. And in the grand scheme of things I can’t figure out why you wanted me to.

Kelly: Well I asked you to stay because I love you. And I thought you stayed because you love me. I thought we meant something to each other.

Carter: We did. And in a way I guess we still do. I do still love you Kell,  but-

Kelly: But what…why can’t we just put all this behind us and start over?

Carter: Because it’s not the same.

Kelly: But it can be…(reaches for him)

Carter: (moves away) No it can’t.

Kelly: Why not?

Carter: Because I’m in love with Lexie.

Kelly stops and looks up at him

Carter: I meant what I said to her…I have to be with her. Which means that we-

Kelly: Are you saying that you want a divorce?

Carter: I don’t see any other option at this point.

Kelly: I can’t believe this is happening, (hugs herself and sinks to the floor).

Carter: (kneeling down beside her) Kelly, I don’t want to hurt you. This wasn’t my intention. I didn’t seek Lexie out hoping to get back at you…meeting her was an accident and the attraction between us…it just…it just happened.

Kelly: I can’t hear this, (covers her ears).

Carter: I’m sorry, but I just…I think it was a sign that we’re better off apart. You weren’t the one for me, and I’m not the one for you.

Kelly: Speak for yourself.

Carter: Kelly…don’t do this ok? This is hard enough…

Kelly: But I love you…

Carter: No. I think you love the idea of me.

Kelly: No. I love you.

Carter: Well I’m sorry…but I just don’t feel it anymore.

Kelly: You don’t love me?

Carter: Like I said before we’ll always be linked in some way. But it’s not the same. So much has changed. I’ll always love you…but I’m just not…I’m just not-

Kelly: Just not what?

Carter: I’m just not in love with you anymore.

Kelly shuts her eyes tightly and buries her head in her knees as she sobs, sitting on the floor.

Kelly: (looking up at Carter) But you are in love with Lexie?

Carter: I am.

Kelly stands and walks away from Carter

Carter follows

Kelly:(turning back toward Carter)  And does she love you?

Carter: Yea, she does.

Kelly: She’s gonna break your heart.

Carter:(shaking his head) No she’s not.

Kelly: Yes she will. People like her…they only look out for themselves.

Carter: Well, then you don’t know Lexie.

Kelly: She’s gonna break your heart.

Carter: Well I don’t think so. But if by some chance she does, it’s a chance I’m willing to take.

Kelly: Why?

Carter: The risk is part of the reward. And I take my biggest risks when it comes to love. You should know that.

Kelly: I do (shakes her head in disbelief of Carter’s kind character) ….God if she thinks she’s getting you without a fight. She’s got another thing coming.

Carter: I don’t think you wanna go up against Lexie. She doesn’t like to lose.

julie_marie_berman_general_hospital_may_5_2010_UJojpy1.sizedKelly: (smirking) Neither do I.

Carter: Kell- this isn’t a game, ok?

Kelly: Who’s laughing…

Carter: Kelly…

Kelly: In order for you to be granted a divorce, both parties have to want it, and well I don’t. I won’t sign the paperwork. I just won’t. (crosses her arms)

Carter: Kelly don’t go there. I don’t want this to get ugly. But it will, if it has to.

Kelly: (in a burst of anger) Well then you shouldn’t have cheated!

Carter: Neither should have you.

Kelly: (crying) Carter- please, please…I don’t want this. Please just give me one more chance.

Carter: Kelly it wouldn’t matter. We just- we don’t work anymore. It would just be like pouring salt in an old wound. It’d be more painful then anything. We’d be setting ourselves up for failure and I won’t do that to you or myself. I won’t give you false hope.

Kelly: But I don’t know what my life looks like without you.

Carter: Maybe that’s part of the problem. Instead of loving me, you leaned on me. Maybe it’s time you learn to depend on yourself.

Kelly: You’re the only man I ever loved.

Carter: Well maybe that just wasn’t enough…Look it’s getting late and I have someplace to be-

Kelly: Oh…I wonder where (laughs sarcastically)

Carter: I’ll have my lawyer draw up the papers…you’ll have them by tomorrow morning.

Kelly: (weeping) Carter?

imagesCarter: Goodbye Kelly…I’m sorry… but trust me this is how it has to be. I have faith that one day you’ll be able to thank me.

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Kelly sinks to her couch, speechless, and crying.



Lexie sits in her living room in front of her fireplace. She looks at her phone. No messages. She gets up and starts to pace the room.

Lexie’s Thoughts:OTH_060

Ok deep breaths Lexie. He’s going to come back to you. He loves you. But she is still his wife and they have a lot to discuss. Oh god-What if she convinces him to stay with her again? What if you lose him? What if-

Ryan-Gosling-in-Gangster-Squad-1Carter: Hey-

Lexie’s snapped back into reality

Lexie: Hi, (smiles)

Carter: You ok?

Lexie: Yea.

Carter walks toward her and wraps his arms around her waist

Lexie: So how’d it go?

Carter: Hold that thought for a second, (kisses her).

Lexie smiles

Carter: It wasn’t the easiest thing I’ve ever done- but she’ll eventually learn why I did it. It was the best thing for the both of us.

Lexie nods

Carter: I called my lawyer he’s drawing up the papers as we speak, and we’ll both be faxed them by tomorrow morning.

Lexie: Wow. So this is really happening?

Carter: Yea it is…why? are you getting cold feet on me?

Lexie: Nope…Nice and toasty…I got my fuzzy slippers on (she smiles as they both laugh)

Carter: So…(he takes her hand and leads her over to the couch, sitting down and pulling her onto his lap) how was your talk with your dad?

Lexie: Surprisingly…it went really well. I think we really hit the root of everything and got a lot out in the air. It was good. I said things that I really needed to say and things he really needed to hear. And I think  maybe just maybe he realizes I’m a grown woman who can make her own decisions.

Carter: Whoa. That’s progress…so what’d he think of you and me? Should I be watching my back for the rest of time?

Lexie: No. I’ll protect you. (Carter smiles at her) Besides I pretty much explained to him that as a grown woman making her own decisions…falling in love with you has been at the top of my list.

Carter: (smiles) Best decision you ever made.

Lexie: No argument here, (smiles and kisses him).

Stick with Mysterious Attraction…a lot more to come!

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*I do not take any credit for any of the images used, all belong to their rightful owners!*


Old i-Pod Jams…


So today I go to take a shower and I usually put my i-Pod on to listen to…and while Justin Timberlake’s
“Lovestoned” begins playing….it abruptly stops before the soap even suds. Low Battery..ain’t it a bitch.

Justin barely got past… “She grabs the yellow bottle, she likes the way it hit her lips…”

Anyway needless to say it was a song-less shower for me…

So naturally I finish up and go to into my room to get dressed

I put my i-Pod on my deck to charge and then I get a music light-bulb


Damn girl…where have you been?

And all of a sudden I want to listen to her music, but all I have on my new i-Pod is stuff from her current album the one with “Well, Well, Well” on it…and let’s just say I was more of a “Stepping Stone” girl.

So I break into the old dingy, probably dusty, silver i-Pod nano… My first introduction into the apple world…the small leap from a disc-men or walk-men, and the giant leap from my *NSYNC and Britney Spears 2 second song hit clips, I can’t tell you how many times, I used to play that shit just to hear the chorus to “This I promise you”…

Anyway as I put my old i-Pod on, my room was filled with Duffy’s voice and a whole bunch of memories as I scrolled through the artist list. I think it’s safe to say that i-Pod consists of a ton of One Tree Hill/ The OC featured music, and a whole lotta rock bands that I probably can’t stomach listening to  much anymore. With the exception of their old stuff, I mean honestly you don’t even wanna know how I just freaked out dancing to Fall Out Boy’s “This Ain’t a Scene It’s an Arm’s Race,” and then there’s “Sugar We’re Going Down” and yes I was Singin’. I think that with age comes the great expectation of wisdom. And as I sat here listening to my old i-Pod jams, I was reminded of something, quite hysterical actually…

That awkward moment when you realize you used to be a really big My Chemical Romance fan  and wore a lot of black eyeliner, and bought every shirt with a skull on it…wait was I goth that one point in my life? haha #letyourfreakflagflyyy

Although I have to say dipping into my past music vibes is also freakin’ awesome!
It always manages to help me rediscover some awesome since forgotten songs…

The one thing I can say about my musical taste is that it is quite a cluster fudge of genres…

We have the usual suspects of course…*NSYNC, Justin Timberlake, Britney Spears…90′s GA-LORE!!!!

Bands that I once claim to love (thank you OTH/The OC/High school) like Fall Out Boy, Augustana, Jack’s Mannequin, Snow Patrol, Coldplay)… and The Fray whom still today I await their new album and consider them my favorite band.

A random slew of American Idol contestant music (thank you lime wire) 😉

And last but not least we take it back a little to the days of Motown where my parents influences really hit home, as The Jackson 5, Al Green, Marvin Gaye, and The Temptations sway their way in…

My current shuffle favs…

“Too Close”- Next

“Best day of my life”- Dido

“You Oughta Know”- Alanis Morrisette (wasn’t this the original breakup song? ;))

“That’s the way it is”- Celine Dion (special place in the heart for Celine, guys, special place)

“Let’s get it on”- Gavin Degraw (Marvin Gaye cover) *the original is floatin’ around on there, I’m sure of it*

“Heartless”- Kris Allen (Kanye West cover) *the original is NOT floatin’ around on there, I’m not so sure of it* haha

“One More Chance”- Jackson 5

“Finally”- Cece Peniston

“Waterfalls”- TLC (Yessssss!!!!)

“I could fall in love with you”- Selena (HELLLL YESSSS!!!)

“I need some action”- Lady Saw

Ok so maybe I had quite a decent reggae collection too 😉

So I tried to find a pic from my goth phase...but I guess it wasn't documented too well, but I did find this pic...I spot a skull and a touch of black eyeliner ;)

So I tried to find a pic from my “goth phase”…but I guess it wasn’t documented too well, but I did find this pic…I spot a skull and a touch of black eyeliner 😉


Music Flashback with old i-Pod Jams

Mysterious Attraction- Chapter 6


There seems to have been a small glitch during posting, and the ending got cut off.  Full Chapter up now!

Sorry about that! 😀

Previously on Mysterious Attraction


And this week…

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Reeves sits at his desk, his back to the door, he’s on the phone

Reeves: Yea well, make sure there’s no trace back to us, ok?…No I don’t care what you have to do, just get it done, and do it well.

Lexie stares in annoyance at his conversation

Reeves turns in his chair to find Lexie standing there, leaning against his door wayReeves_Lexie

Lexie: Daily grind huh, dad? Ordering hits on people?

Reeves: (ignores her comment) It’s good to see you, princess.

Lexie: Don’t. You no longer have the right to call me that.

Reeves: I’m sorry. I was just trying to protect you.

Lexie: I do understand that. But your ways of protecting me are irrational, disgusting and suffocating. And I did not deserve that. Not from my father. I shouldn’t had to have feared for my life for no good reason.

Reeves: Lexie, I really truly am sorry. I would never intentionally hurt you. You know that right?

Lexie: I do. But it hurts either way dad. I just- I wish you would think for 5 seconds before you order your men to pull some stupid over-extravagant scheme.

Reeves: I know, I’m sorry you’re right, you’re absolutely right. I just wanted to get through to you. I wanted you to see the danger in all this.

Lexie: Yea well, mission accomplished.

Reeves: So I take it, I was right… Carter is Skully’s son?

Lexie: From what my people were able to dig up, yes.

Reeves: That son of a bitch! I’ll kill him! (paces the office in fury)

Lexie: (stops him) No. You won’t.

Reeves: What? Lexie…that bastard was using you…using you to get to me. No one uses my daughter!

Lexie: Dad. Dad! It wasn’t like that.

Reeves: Like hell it wasn’t! (screams with a venom hissed voice)

Lexie: It wasn’t! He didn’t know.

Reeves: And you’re seriously buying that? Lexie…come on…you know as well as I do that Skully’s next hit was only a matter of time. He’s been laying low for far too long! This is it! This is his retaliation!

Lexie: No. It isn’t … dad…Carter loves me.

Reeves: Lexie…of course he says that…your beautiful, and rich! It’s easy to lie about your feelings to  a beautiful girl! But what he doesn’t realize is that’s the last lie, he’ll ever tell. (about to leave his office in a rush)

Lexie: Dad stop! If you walk out that door…I swear to you…I won’t be around to watch as they haul you off to prison, but I will make sure that they do.

Reeves: (slowly turns around) Why are you protecting him? Is he threatening you? Blackmailing you?

Lexie: N0.

Reeves: Because if he is, you can tell me, we’ll fix it, whatever it is.

Lexie: No. I’m protecting him, because I love him. And because I know him. And because he didn’t know anything about Skully being his father. He had no clue.

Reeves: And you believe him?

Lexie: I believe him.

Reeves: I didn’t raise you to be naive, Lexie.

Lexie: No. But you did raise me to trust my gut. And my gut is telling me to follow my heart. And my heart is with him. So I am asking you, to back off. Let this go, and let me handle this.

Reeves: You know just because Carter doesn’t know, doesn’t mean Skully doesn’t.

Lexie: I really don’t think he does. I mean Carter’s mom is his biological mom, she must have been involved with Skully and didn’t want him to know about Carter. So she brought in another man to raise her son.

Reeves: Well just in case-

Lexie: Carter and I have it covered, we’ll look into things.

Reeves: Ok. But you promise me, promise me right now…that if you suspect anything…anything about anyone, if even the slightest detail doesn’t add up, promise that you’ll come to me, immediately.

Lexie: I will.

Reeves: Immediately Lexie. Don’t try and play the hero, don’t try to figure it out on your own. Just come to me, no questions asked, I will fix it.

Lexie: (hugs Reeves) I promise dad. But you don’t have to worry he loves me.

Reeves: For his sake, I truly hope he does.

Lexie: (sighs) Well…I should go.

Reeves: Lex?

Lexie: Yea?

Reeves: He still married?

Lexie: Not for long.

Reeves: And you’re ok…with breaking up a marriage?

Lexie: Really, dad?

Reeves: I’m just wondering. I mean I know you. You have a good heart, and this kinda thing can eat you up. The guilt…I can only imagine how much it’s killing you.

Lexie: It was.

Reeves: And what changed?

Lexie: Carter told me some things. Turned out his marriage wasn’t as perfect as he had claimed it to be.

Reeves: Meaning?

Lexie: Meaning…that Kelly…his wife…cheated a long time ago…their marriage hasn’t been the same since.

Reeves: So…you’re his way of getting back at her?

Lexie: No. (rolls her eyes, in frustration and offence)

Reeves: Lexie?

Lexie: Come on. I’m happy ok? I’m finally happy. And he’s the one making that possible. So please…just be happy for me? Don’t try and control this?

Reeves: Ok…but only because I trust you…I trust your heart and your gutt. But like I said-

Lexie: I know- I will call you if anything.

Reeves: (smiles) Ok…It was good to see you, I’m so glad you stopped by. I was beginning to think you’d never forgive me.

Lexie: Dad…let me make something clear. I understand you wanting to protect me, but that doesn’t mean I forgive you for it. This isn’t the first time you’ve done this. Your known for going too far. And with that being said the reason I’m really here is to tell you…that…I want out.

Reeves: (sighs in relief) It’s about time.

Lexie gives him a look of confusion

Reeves: I never wanted this life for you.

Lexie: I don’t understand, I thought you were grooming me to take over.

Reeves: No. I only let you into this business because I thought it was what you wanted. In some crazy way I thought it was what you needed to get past your grief. But I was wrong. The more responsibility you took on, the more it worried me. I’ve been waiting for the day you’d ask for an out. But I knew you had to come to that decision on your own.

Lexie: (laughs) Letting me come to a decision on my own…that’s a radical concept for you…well I’m glad you can at least grasp the concept. But to be honest it was Carter who geared me in the right direction.

Reeves: Well isn’t that convenient. He could be just trying to get you to step out, and weaken our man power.

Lexie: Dad.

Reeves: Or he could just be a good man.

Lexie: Thank you. And he is. So whataya say…you think there’s a career out there for me?

Reeves: Absolutely. Why do you think I made you head of the clothing store front. I knew fashion has always been something you were passionate about. My only hope was that you’d get more of a rush out of that side of the business, then this part of it.

Lexie: Yea well I guess at times we’re more alike than I realize. We thrive on danger and the adrenaline rush. But unlike you that rush isn’t something I’m comfortable living with. Because at the end of the day, it’s still dangerous and deadly.

Reeves: I couldn’t agree more. But I’ve made my bed, I’ve made my choices, and my enemies and now in order to protect my family, this is my life. And I need you to know I don’t enjoy it. But I’ll do what I have to, to protect you.

Lexie: Dad? I want you to know that none of this makes me love you less, I just don’t agree with any of it, and I can’t support it anymore. But I also don’t blame you for my choices. It was my choice to ask you to be apart of this war with Skully. It’s just when we lost mom…I didn’t want to feel that pain. I needed a way to cope…and I thought this was it. I wasn’t thinking clearly, and I don’t think I ever realized what all of this actually meant. I don’t want this.

Reeves: I don’t want this for you. I respected your drive to seek revenge, because I felt the same way. And I thought it would be hypocritical of me to exclude you, in this fight. Because you had hurt just as much as I did. But I never thought it would be permanent. This isn’t your life. So you do what’s best for you and I will support you 100%.

Lexie: Thank You.

Reeves: Lex, I want happiness for you…and I want you to know that anything that I have ever put you through or pressured you into involving this business, I am truly sorry for. For a long time I couldn’t even see straight. After losing your mother, I vowed to myself that I’d never let anything happen to you. So I guess keeping you apart of the business was my crazy way of keeping you safe. It was my way of keeping an eye on you. I have a lot of enemies and I worry about you. I am overjoyed that you want a better life for yourself. But I think that you may want to relocate all together.

Lexie: You really think that’s necessary?

Reeves: I do. Go, go somewhere you’ve never been, go start a fashion empire. I can fund everything. Which reminds me…(reaches into his inner suit jacket pocket) I think this belongs to you (hands her a wad of cash) I’m sorry my plan was unnecessarily out of line.

Lexie: (takes the money) Thank you. I appreciate this and the apology. But I think I’m going to stick around. I don’t think anyone is stupid enough to come after Reeves’ daughter. This is my home. Carter and I will figure out a safe way to live here.

Reeves: I hope so.

Lexie: Besides, even though you drive me crazy, and I usually end up screaming at you for your crazy antics. You’re my dad, and I love you. And I wouldn’t be happy living thousands of miles away from you.

Reeves: Love you princess, (he hugs her tightly)

Lexie: (smiles) Ok well I really better go now, Carter and I have a lot of things to discuss.

Reeves: Alright. Just be careful Lex, please.

Lexie: Don’t worry dad, (smiles and leaves, closing the door behind her)

baby lexieReeves: (Sighs…waiting a beat, he stands there and ponders, hands on hips, soon he takes out his cellphone) Hey yea, listen- do me a favor, pull up any information on Carter…I’m talking about everything you can find…I want to know every single detail of his life ….including everything there is to know about his parents. And one more thing Lexie is not to know a thing about this… ok? Ok thank you.

Reeves hangs up his phone and sighs, a picture of Lexie as a little girl sits on a nearby shelf. Reeves sighs

Reeves: (he whispers) Please forgive me, Princess.

STAY TUNED!…Chapter 6 continues next week…

Carter and Kelly finally have have the conversation you’ve been waiting for…

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(*I do not take any credit for the actual images themselves, they all belong to their rightful owners*)

Happy Weekend!


Demi Lovato; Style Steal <3

demi-lovato-nylon-1So you may have realized by now that I am a huge Demi Lovato fan. I think she’s such an inspiration. She is talented, beautiful and seems like a really down to earth, fun and kind person. But she also does all that in STYLE. I have always been infatuated with Demi’s fashion sense; one minute she can rock heels and go all girly glam, but the next she can go punk and be a total kick ass rocker. I admire her versatility. So I decided in honor of Demi’s Fashion Sense, I’d bring back the Bethany Joy Lenz Blog inspired “Wardrobe Wednesday” and infuse it with the “Steal Her Style” trend. I always thought Demi and I had some similarities in a weird way, so I dug through my closet and found some items that I thought could help create some of her fun fashion looks! Let’s get into it!



Outfit #1: “Casual Chic; I have someplace cool to be”

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Outfit #2: “Night Out on the Town”

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Outfit #3: “Rockstar’s Live Performance”

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Outfit #4: “Starbucks Run; Coffee Date”

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Outfit #5: “The Concert Tee”

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So in a nut shell I would describe this Demi Style experience as funky!

To dress like Demi I think there are a few key things you need to have in your wardrobe

*A leather Jacket and a blazer (Demi wears these A LOT)

*Some type of combat boot

*A black heel

*Black Jeans

*Black Black Black Black Black (lol)

*Some fun accessories

Demi is a style risk taker (um did you see the BLUE hair!)

She is a trendsetter.

And because of my little Demi fashion experiment, I learned that I found some fun new outfits to wear myself…

and they were all sitting there in my dresser and closet just waiting to be put together!

Demi Inspired Makeup & Hair:

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To achieve Demi’s Makeup look I

*used a lot of golden/bronze tones for my eyeshadow

*filled in my brows with a brow gel kit (Demi’s eyebrows are always flawless)

*used black eyeliner on top of my eyelid and winged it out slightly

*near my water line, used eyeliner and then black eyeshadow on a thin eyeliner brush and created a smokier eye popping look.

*used blush and bronze to create that Demi flawless tanned skin look

*kept it simple with nude lips… first used a nude beige creme lipstick with a golden lipstick to follow and a third golden lip gloss for shine

I know from the picture it doesn’t look like much, but it’s one of my favorite makeup looks I’ve ever done myself, I will definitely be using it in the future!

For Demi Inspired “Messy” Curls

*Curled hair using a wand curling iron

*Hair Spray before and after curling

*Loosen curls by brushing through with fingers

I don’t know about you guys but I always was so annoyed at how Demi could have her hair look so perfectly messy, like she always had these long beautiful messy curls and it would just look so effortless. I would always have such trouble curling my hair, until I got the curling wand! It is a hair life saver! It definitely takes some getting used to, but once you get the hang of using it, you will be super happy!

And as per usual I like to listen to music while I get ready… my two fav “Demi” Tracks right now include

“Neon Lights” & “Really Don’t Care”


So that’s all for this “Style Steal” featuring Demi Lovato and

Happy Wardrobe Wednesday folks!

Thanks for reading!

(Stay Tuned for Mysterious Attraction; Chapter 6…Up FRIDAY!)


Mysterious Attraction- Ch. 5 Part 3

Previously on Mysterious Attraction


And this week…


Lexie settles into her office, and starts on some paperwork

A knock is heard at her door

Lexie: Come in.

Carter: Hey.

Lexie: Hi, (smiles getting up and walking toward him)

Carter: I noticed you rushed to get ready, you didn’t have time for your coffee…

Lexie: Ohhh you are a lifesaver…thank you, (takes the cup)

Carter: You’re welcome…besides I know you can’t function much without it so…I didn’t wanna subject the office to angry Lexie.

Lexie: Oh please angry Lexie is all they know at this point (laughs) But I am sure, they will thank you for putting me in such a good mood.

Carter: Yea well a little caffeine will do that.

Lexie: (laughs) I wasn’t talking about the coffee.

Carter: I know, I just wanted to hear you say it, (shrugs and smiles).

Lexie: Well…will you settle for me telling you how happy you make me?

Carter: That’s a start…(smiles..pulls her into a kiss)

Lexie: (pulls away and smiles) We have work to do.

Carter: I  am sure it can wait a few minutes… (tries to kiss her again)

Lexie: Carter…before this relationship goes any further….I need you to talk to Kelly. The more I fall for you, the worse I feel about this whole situation.

Carter: Trust me, I know the feeling. But I have to be with you.

Lexie: Hey I won’t argue, (laughs). But I just think that we should remain professional, until you sort things out.

Carter: Ok. I understand, and I respect that.

Lexie: Thank You.

Carter: Well look at us…we’re so grown up.

Lexie laughs.

Carter: So I’ll see you later?

Lexie: (nods with a smile) Absolutely.

Carter winks and opens the door to leave

Kelly stands there with a potted plant in her hands

Carter: Kelly?

Lexie’s face drops

Kelly: Carter.

Carter looks back at Lexie quickly, Lexie smiles nervously

Carter: What are you doing here?

Kelly: Well I just wanted to stop by to see Lexie…

Carter: Oh…I thought we said we’d do that someday soon.

Kelly: Yea but you said that last week, and you haven’t been home much lately so I figured I’d just drop by, myself.

Carter: Oh…

Carter looks at Lexie

Lexie: Umm, of course, please come in.  Would you like some coffee, or tea…water?

Kelly: No. I’m fine, thank you.

Lexie: So uh, what can I do for you?

Kelly: Oh nothing, I think you’ve done enough.

Lexie: I don’t understand what you mean?

Carter and Lexie exchange nervous glances

Kelly: You saved my life.

Lexie: Oh, (sighs with relief and laughs) I wish I could take all the credit but it was actually probably my fault that you were there in the first place…

Kelly: I don’t understand?

Lexie: It’s no secret that my family isn’t exactly known for their kindness. We have a lot of enemies, and because of some crazy misunderstanding, you were taken and I am so sorry for that…I’m sure Carter can fill you in…

Kelly: I’m sure he could, but he still hasn’t…which makes me worry he never will.

Lexie: Oh I think he will, won’t you Carter?

Carter: Yes, of course.

Kelly: You just…you haven’t been home much lately…

Lexie: I’m afraid that’s my fault, I um, I’ve been making everyone work overtime. I can be quite a workaholic… and I guess it doesn’t always dawn on me that not every employee of mine, feels the same.

Kelly: Oh don’t take all the blame, Carter doesn’t do anything he doesn’t want to (glances at her husband).

Carter coughs nervously

Lexie: Is there anything else I can do for you?

Kelly: Yea…you can take this (hands her the plant). I know it’s not much, I mean you save my life and I buy you a plant, it’s not exactly an even trade but-

Lexie: It’s beautiful. Unnecessary.  But beautiful, thank you.

Kelly: Well I just wanted to show my gratitude. I may not know why everything happened, and Carter does a lot to avoid me asking any questions about his work, but I do know that if it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t be here, so thank you.

Lexie: It was my pleasure.

Kelly smiles slightly and before she leaves she stops and looks at Carter

Kelly: Will you be home for dinner?

Carter: Of course.

Kelly: Ok good I’ll make your favorite, we can talk.

Carter: Sounds good, (forces a smile).

Kelly: Ok, I’ll see you later then, (leans over and kisses him).

Carter awkwardly kisses back and Lexie looks away

Kelly: Bye. Bye Lexie. Thanks again.

Lexie: No problem, (fakes a smile and a wave).

-Kelly exits-

Carter shuts the door behind her

Lexie and Carter both exhale in relief

Lexie: That was horrible…I literally thought I was going to stop breathing…

Carter: I’m so sorry, and I’m sorry I kissed her in front of you like that…I didn’t think that she’d show up here…

Lexie: It’s ok, she’s still your wife… it’s not your fault…do you think she heard anything…

Carter: I don’t think so.

Lexie: Really? I mean because some of the things she said-

Carter: Look, it’s gonna be ok, I’m gonna go home and I’m gonna tell her everything, and tomorrow, it’s gonna be a new beginning for us.

Lexie: I don’t think it’s going to be that easy Carter.

Carter: I know, but it’s all worth the fight.

Lexie: Is it?

Carter: Don’t Lexie. (starts pacing the room angrily)

Lexie: Look just hear me out ok?

Carter: No…you hear me out…hear me, when I say that we are happening. I don’t care what I have to do, who I have to hurt, it’s going to happen for us.

Lexie: So this is your ruthless side.

Carter: When it comes to love, I’ll be as ruthless as I can without completely losing who I am.

Lexie: I don’t want to be ruthless anymore. It’s not a life.

Carter: Neither is pretending to be in love with someone, when you aren’t.

Lexie: Did I ruin you? When we first met, you were so good.

Carter: Like you said, I thought I was, but I guess I’m not.

Lexie: No, I didn’t mean that. You are still good. I just think, I’ve corrupted you. I’ve made you think that our love can outweigh the love you had with Kelly and I think I may be wrong.

Carter: I don’t do anything I don’t want to, Lexie.

Lexie: Carter, if you do this. If you tell her. You may regret it. And I don’t want you to live a life with regret, trust me, it’s not fun.

Carter: So what are you saying, are you letting me go again? Because I have news for you, the pain of regret you feel for keeping us apart, isn’t going to even compare to any other regret you’ve ever felt before. We belong together.

Lexie: I realize that. But we can’t always get what we want. Sometimes it’s best to do the right thing. But I want you to be ok. I want you to be happy. And how can you ever be happy knowing you hurt the first woman you ever loved. I just think that what you have with Kelly is more than what we can ever have.

Carter: We won’t know until we try. Why are you so afraid that this relationship is gonna fail?

Lexie: Because it’s all I’ve ever known… every relationship in my entire life has failed. My own parents didn’t even stick around. I mean yea my father’s around still, but he and I lost whatever meaningful relationship we had, a long time ago.

Carter: Lexie, I’m not your parents, I’m not Joe, I’m not any other guy that walked out of your life, just because he could. I’m me, come on, you know me. You know my heart. And you know that it’s with you.

Lexie: Carter-I wanna be with you but-

Carter: Then be with me…stop trying to save me from myself, ok? I know what I’m doing.

Lexie: You’re gonna break her heart.

Carter: I know that, and trust me I’m not happy about how this has all played out, I don’t want to hurt her. But she and I both know, we aren’t working.

Lexie: You guys have had trouble in the past? You never told me that? I thought she was perfect…

Carter: No one is perfect. Don’t get me wrong, Kelly’s an amazing woman, and she once was an amazing wife. But something must have been missing, because after a few months of marriage, it didn’t take long for her to second guess me.

Lexie: What?

Carter: Kelly cheated on me 5 months after our wedding.

Lexie: (shocked) Oh my god… Carter I had no idea…

Carter: It was a long time ago.  And we got through it. But nothings ever been the same between us after that.

Lexie: How long ago was this?

Carter: About 3 years ago.

Lexie: Oh…

Carter: I want you to understand something…our relationship has nothing to do with that.

Lexie: How could it not? I mean your wife cheated, and then you did too. It’s tit for tat.

Carter: No. It wasn’t like that. I never had any intention of straying out of my marriage. Even after her infidelity, I fought like hell to make it work, because I grew up valuing marriage. I thought divorce wasn’t an option. And she begged for me to stay, so I stayed. But after countless apologies, screaming matches, and therapy you either learn to forgive and forget or get to a place of no return. And the night I saw you for the first time. Was the first time in my life, that I wished I had just let her go.

Lexie: You didn’t even know me.

Carter: No. But that didn’t matter, because I wanted to. And you weren’t some kind of payback, I swear. I just saw something in myself that I hadn’t in a long time. I felt alive, just watching you….  And that’s why I hated myself for it, because all the pain Kelly put me through had caused me to become numb and you changed all that with one small glance across a crowded room and then you smiled and I was a goner.

Lexie: You got all of that from one look and a smile?

Carter: It was a hell of a smile.

Lexie looks away confused

Carter: Lexie, look at me.

Lexie looks up

Carter: What happened between Kelly and I may have led me to you, but you are what made me stay. And you didn’t even have to ask.

Lexie: I get it. It’s like you said, the things that happened in our pasts shape who we are…but what I don’t understand is why you were so against our affair then? I mean you came up to me, you started the attraction-

Carter: It wasn’t about you. I was struggling with the idea that I was just as heartless as she had been. That as someone who went through being cheated on, that I could allow myself to impose that kind of pain on someone else, even if it was Kelly. That’s what scared me, it made me see myself as ruthless. It wasn’t about you, it wasn’t about your bossiness… to tell you the truth I kind of liked that part, (laughs). I just… the more you reminded me that I was married, the guiltier I felt, and the angrier I got at myself for feeling guilty. Because sure I had my values and I loved my wife and I thought I wanted to be committed to her and work things out, but she was the one who broke us. She got us here. And I was also angry because there I was falling in love with you, and you kept acting like it was just a fling. Which in turn made me pretend like that’s all it was. And that’s how this vicious circle we’ve created got so vicious.

Lexie: I’m sorry. I’m sorry that I made you think that we were ever just a fling. I’m sorry I ever made you think that I didn’t love you. But most importantly I’m sorry that you got your heart broken. Because it’s a really good one.

Carter: You think so?

Lexie: I know so.

Carter: Then will you please….just, be with me?

Lexie: Under one condition…

Carter: Anything…

Lexie: That  after you settle things between you and Kelly… that you and I have a complete conversation about all past, present and future experiences or mishaps, if you wanna get technical.

Carter: I think that’s a great idea. We may be a couple emotionally damaged people, but guess what those mishaps led us to each other so…maybe it was a blessing in disguise.

Lexie: Maybe. (smiles)

Carter: Ok, I have a condition of my own, if you don’t mind?

Lexie: By all means…

Carter: I want you to leave the business.

Lexie: Carter-

Carter: Lexie I can’t take this whole soap opera mob story anymore, it’s too dangerous and I can lose you in a heartbeat. And I wouldn’t be able to handle that.

Lexie: Carter…I don’t like what I do, in fact I hate it, and I hate that you’ve gotten wrapped up in it too. I hate that anyone has gotten wrapped up in this hell. But I made my choices and now I’m stuck with them.

Carter: That’s not true. Lexie you have so much to offer the world.

Lexie: Oh yea like what?

Carter: You’re a great business woman, I mean you can negotiate with the best of them. And you’re an incredibly talented designer. I mean I know this whole clothing line is just a front for all the mob business that goes on behind closed doors, but in case you haven’t noticed, people actually love your stuff. Just take the business and fashion side of this and you’ll be good to go.

Lexie: I appreciate your faith in me, I do. But people tremble in fear at the mere thought of my name…no one would ever work with me.

Carter: Lexie have you ever actually killed anyone?

Lexie: Yes.

Carter: Other then in self defense? Or because your father ordered you to?

Lexie looks away

Carter: You’re not your father. You’re not ruthless. I may have said so in the past. But that’s only because I was dealing with my own crap, and because I didn’t know you. You’re amazing. You risked your life to save my wife.

Lexie: Yea from my own father…

Carter: Yea but you didn’t know that at the time. Don’t sell yourself short. You didn’t worry about how you were going to get out of there, you just focused on saving her, and protecting me.

Lexie: Well, she’s your wife, and I saw how worried you were. And I love you, I did what any person who is  in love with someone would do, I found a way to help.

Carter: You’re selfless. And once I realized that, I knew that you and I could have something really amazing together. Despite how much you may have protested it, I knew deep down that you had to love me, I mean no one can fake that kind of love (smiles). So promise me…get out, just get out of the business and we will figure it all out together.

Lexie: (stares at him, contemplating) Ok.


Chapter 6 starts Next Week! Crazy stuff coming up!

mysterious attraction poster

(*Although I’ve made my own edits in this post, I do not take credit for the images, and don’t worry one day

when I get a new computer and better programs, they will get better! lol.*)

Happy Weekend!


“Secret” Society, “Resolutions”, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! + (My 1st VLOG)

So a year ago today, I sat down at my computer and fighting all my insecurities and fears about writing… michelleleighwrites was born. I didn’t know what to expect, and didn’t know what would come of it, or what my blog would really be. And to be honest I still am not quite sure what I want it to be. But never the less it’s been something that I’ve really grown to love. It’s served as an amazing outlet for my writing and my creativity and I only hope that it’s brought something to those who read it as well…all of you out there in cyberspace, I thank you for coming along on this journey with me.happy bday mlw

And with that said…there’s going to be some new developments on this blog…

Welcome my first VLOG! 😀

Like I said I’ve been out of the video loop for quite sometime, so I promise these videos will get better, bare with me!

And Poetry Video…Coming Soon

“Secret” Society

Starring Lauren Ali 😀


Photo By Robert DeSantos Jr.


Living Single?

There is a certain battle you face as a writer. When you have to decide if what you’ve written is ready to be shared or if  it’s better left unsaid; hidden in the quiet pages of a journal. You have to decipher if it’s too personal or just personal enough. I’ve always been a sheltered writer. Most of what you’ve seen on this blog has been hidden in carefully crafted poems or in sarcastically clad rants, or just some randomness about Justin Timberlake! But it’s been said that what makes a good writer is knowing how to be vulnerable and knowing that it’s ok to be. Writers write what they can’t say, what they’re afraid of, or what they’ve been trying to avoid. And although I keep to myself most of the time and I’m not one to share my personal business, I just felt like if I’m gonna tell a story…I might as well tell it right.

***To anyone who may be mentioned, I mean no offense whatsoever…just a girl giving her opinion…

and to all my girls, I love you!***


Deep breathe ladies….you knew this day would come, yes that’s right I’m talking about the day…

Your best friend gets a boyfriend. (and that last . is more like the punctuation and sound of MTV’s AWKWARD.)

So let’s just get the whole romantic movie watching and junk food eating out of the way and get to what’s really on your mind.



No but it really does.

As HAPPY as you are for them, (And by happy I mean ecstatic! After all this is the thing you’ve spent most of your time talking about, gossiping over) you can’t help the part of you that’s a little bit jealous…like where’s my guy?… when is it going to be my turn? I am sure we’ve all been there.

For girls, a best friend is like your first soul mate

The sister you choose for yourself

And when someone else comes into the picture

You realize the inevitable factor that your relationship with your “bestie” is about to change forever

This transformation will happen in phases

First they will swear that nothing will change, but you know better

It’s only natural that they do

Then the “I’m sorry’s” will flood in

The ignoring your texts will start to happen…

and the “Oh I’d love to but I’m going to be with…” will soon come after

And Ladies again, this is only part of a natural progression

They have someone else in their lives, which they value too

But no matter how unintentional these acts are

They are there, they do exist

And all while you’re sitting home on a Friday night wondering where the hell your best friend went

They are often off with their boyfriends enjoying their night somewhere else

It’s a difficult transition and I don’t say this to offend anyone, if you know me personally, you know I’m not mean-spirited

But there are just some things in life that we have to face

And this unfortunately is one of them

Only thing is I’ve got it from both ends of the best friend spectrum

Not only is my best friend in the world in a relationship, but my other best friend is freakin’ engaged!

ENGAGED! (I’m super happy for her, and they are adorable!) But this was a girl who used to party with the best of them, and now I barely see her,  It’s strange…

When you realize that you’re closest contact to someone who used to basically live in your house is now whatever they happen to post on instagram as you’re scrolling through

She’ll always be one of my best friends, but things change…it’s just the way it goes

It doesn’t mean that it’s bad

But it also doesn’t make it hurt any less

I don’t know about you other 22 year old girls out there, but I’m not looking for a ring on my finger at this age, all I’m looking for is a guy who cares enough to want to get to know me

I’ve never actually had a guy respectfully want to get to know me

And maybe I’m just being naive about that

But there is more to human interaction than what most guys think

It’s most likely my fault as to why I’m still single

I tend to have the words FUCK OFF written across my forehead

And when I’m out with my girls, I’m just that…out with my girls

I’m not the girl who goes out with her friends to find a guy (although maybe I should start, New Year Res??? lol)

No I’m the girl who feels that if you come up to me in a bar and try to put your arm around me, I may not be responsible for kicking you in the shin…what can I say I’m allergic to asshole

I’m sorry I just don’t see what’s so bad about the “Hi, I’m so and so, what’s your name?” approach. Why does it have to be so complicated? Why do you need a gimmick? You don’t know me… so why are you touching me? (uh oh my feminism is showing, there’s more where that came from!)

Although, my friend Lauren will tell you that I’m a major bitch to guys when they try to hit on me. Which I find hysterical because I’m usually a pretty shy person. But 21st birthday… drunk … and over the idea that heels were a suitable shoe choice for the night = Bitchy Michelle.

I guess I’m just not used to the attention

I can be pretty oblivious to flirtation…like really oblivious…

My mom always says that I can’t be bothered with guys, that I have no time for them. She likes to think that so many guys have been interested in me and that I never seemed to notice. And I’m just like yea ok mom, thanks. (She’s my mom she has to say things like that)

But then again in the same breath, she’ll tell me, you need to put yourself out there more…um, been there, done that, no thanks.

Ok ok that’s not true…

But what’s so difficult about this whole best friend getting a boyfriend situation is the fact that above all else…your best friends are just slightly out of reach

And how do you tell your best friend, that they’ve been MIA, without hurting their feelings

That bond that you shared has to now factor in someone else

It’s our 20’s… isn’t this supposed to be the time of our lives?

the time where we’re supposed to be broke, and living on a dream…or a prayer? (if you’re a Bon Jovi fan) 😉

the time where finding yourself is the main focus of your life?

the time to be selfish about how you spend your time without having to feel like your tied to someone else?

Well if it isn’t it should be

And I’m not saying that if you’re in a relationship, that it’s a bad thing

Because it isn’t…in fact if you managed to find a guy in this mess…Kudos to you…(that also deserves a “You go girl” *snap*)

Both my best friends managed to catch some really great fish in the sea (of life)

(Yea I just went there. Sorry that was lame.)

I’m pretty positive that if I had an amazing boyfriend right now I would feel way differently about all this

but for right now, this is how it feels

And as a writer, we put pen to paper (or fingers to keyboard)

and we try to make sense of what we are feeling and why we feel it

As a teenager I always felt like I was the child of the group

I was always less experienced, more sheltered

but somehow I also felt like the motherly figure; two opposite ends of the spectrum

(I warn you now, there is probably going to be A LOT of me contradicting myself in this…but yea that’s girls for ya. We laugh, we cry, sometimes both, we say things in code…Welcome to the real world)

I was always the one hosting something, or the one checking in on friends who fell on their asses, while others just laughed alongside (and I actually mean that literally!…I have clumsy friends, lol)

And for most of my life the world around me was always fast moving, but I somehow stayed still

And I felt like I never really got to experience the types of things normal teens experienced

I was never one to follow a crowd

partly because of the way I was raised

and partly because I do what I’m comfortable with

And in high school that lifestyle of drinking and partying wasn’t something I gravitated toward, and even in college I kind of just did my own thing…that is just who I am

And I would often wonder…am I missing something?

For someone who is so mature minded

Why are you scared to live?

I guess I never wanted to grow up too fast

And I didn’t-

While kids in JUNIOR high were sneaking around drinking beers

I was listening to *NSYNC and dancing around with my best friend in her basement like maniacs, (shit I still do that in my room, on occasion…shout out to my 90’s girls)

We never wanted to do something just because others were, we made our own path

But I always thought that one day it’ll be different…we’d conquer that “forbidden” world together

But things change…and so do people

And as I stayed in the same spot, my friends grew on without me

I thought that when we all got older and were in our 20’s it would be the most amazing time…and we’d get to live it all together

And to some extent I was right

Things are a lot easier now…

I don’t get that sickening feeling of ordering a drink knowing I don’t have an ID to back it up, anymore

There’s a certain ease about being 22

But I still feel like a kid

the only difference is I can drink alcohol now

This vision of going out with friends and living the single 20 something life is kind of dulling

2 years in (how sad is that?)

And that idea that it’d be me and my best friends against the world has been jaded

that vision I had is blurred

it’s still there

and it’s within reach

but it’s just missing a couple of faces

really important ones

Faces that I have had in my life for more than half my life, some for my entire life

and I know that the distance and the gap in time isn’t intentional

And if I said it out loud maybe they would understand

But as girls (really as people) we all try to find reasons for things

But sometimes change is inevitable

And sometimes it can be really good

It can force you to look within you

to stop depending on others and figure it out for yourself

And make you try new things

Think outside the box

But at times when you look around

Your going to feel like you’re drowning…and it’s going to seem like every one is in a relationship

And you’re over in the corner, hosting a singles party for 1

It’s happening in my group of friends now…friend after friend changing their relationship status’

And so as you stumble along in this happy, free, confused and lonely place (yea that was a t-swift reference, did you catch it?)

You will find that there is a light

A person out there who is a lot like you

and who just so happens to be throwing you into a boat and paddling to make it through

For me it’s my friend Stav

She and I are pretty similar

Freakishly similar actually

We always joke about how we’re twins

We think a lot alike, dress alike, and basically whenever we hangout out it’s like we just get where the other person is coming from

I think it’s safe to say she’s one of the few people, I really feel like understands where I’m coming from, at this point in my life

And she, just like me is still living the oh so single (and ready to mingle) life (Omg I did it again, you guys I just can’t help it, the corny is just too good to refuse)

Anyway, for all you still single girls out there…I challenge you to make the best of it… that’s what I vowed to do this year. I’m logging in some super fun girls night out ideas and we are gonna make some memories, and I am going to put some new faces in that vision of mine.

Girls Night Out??? Um yes please.

Girls Night Out??? Um yes please.

And ladies as cliché as it may sound…your prince is out there, he’s just not ready for you yet… (Or maybe he’s just a little lost). So keep your head up, your shoes flat and a relatively sober mind and go have a girls night (go have many girls nights) with your other single friends (I have some amazing ones) and who knows you might just find Mr. Right…or Mr. Right Now…hey we are only in our 20’s….if nothing else at least you’ll walk away with an asshole story to share with the group 😉



So ladies…that deep breathe you’ve been holding in all this time, let it out!

I can’t believe I made it through this entire thing, without one Beyonce reference…”all my single ladies, all my single ladies”…oh whoops there it is!

***Just to be clear both my best friends have been in serious relationships over a year, and I am just now writing this post, I’ve learned a lot and I just thought I’d share the wealth…also I am still friends with them, they will always be my best friends…it’s just the changes we go through in life. But being single isn’t a curse…and even though my best friends have significant others and some of my other really good friends have boyfriends, I still have the few girls that don’t and ladies, it’s our year! Let’s do this! :D***


Who knows the show living single? If you do we can be best friends…


*I do not take any credit for any images…all belong to their rightful owners!*