So as I mentioned I’m graduating in a mere few weeks and it’s getting pretty crazy. I’ve just been finishing all my assignments, especially my senior thesis which was one hell of a long haul! But now that I’ve finally completed it I can safely say I gave it my all, and in the end that’s all you can really do. If you would have told me it would have come out the way that it did I would have never believed it, and I’m really happy that I created something that I can really be proud of.  Anyway…needless to say that is why I’ve been slightly MIA. And I mean I don’t know if that matters to any of you out in cyberspace, but I do hope those who read along enjoy what you read! lol So with that said here it goes…

 

“The Hardest Thing”

It’s the hardest thing

Emotion

The deepest feelings one ever feels

It’s the hardest thing

Devotion

To honor a life long commitment to someone you adore

It’s the hardest thing

Creation

To ignite your soul and awaken your spirit

It’s the hardest thing

Motivation

To step out of a rut that’s gone on far too long

It’s the hardest thing

Adaptation

Adding new challenges to a routine life

It’s the hardest thing

Destination

Achieving your true potential and chasing your dreams

It’s the hardest thing

Life…to get past all the world’s obstacles

It’s the simplest thing

Life… as long as you live it for you

Often times I feel like we lose focus, and we worry too much about what other people may think of us or whether or not we’re good enough and we lose opportunities when we have them. And that essentially becomes the root of life’s obstacles. When in reality life is just life, there are amazing days, and there are shitty days. There are moments where you wish you could freeze time, and then there are moments were you feel like you’re drowning. But life is only as complicated as we make it. It can be really simple, as long as you live it for you. That’s not to say, you should become arrogant or insensitive to other people’s feelings and dreams. But when the world seeps into your life and gets into your head and begins to distort your heart and your perception of yourself that’s when you know you need to take a step back and make some changes. That’s when you know you need to put yourself first. Because at the end of the day if you can’t trust yourself how can you trust anyone else?

“Leave you with that thought bitches!” haha sorry inside joke between me and my friends, seemed fitting 😀

#HappyTuesday

-<3-

I guess trusting your gut is always the best option

Denial is a 3 letter word…

R-U-N

That stomach never settles

You think its nerves

But its so much more

Your body’s telling you something

RUN

At a time when you want to take chances

at a time when you’re tired of over thinking

No one knows you better

and if the situation calls for it

RUN

Sooner than Later

Safer than Sorry

And once you listen to that voice inside you heart

you’ll be ok

All can be forgiven

and that running will just be a fragment of your imagination

Run Girl Run

Sooner than Later

Safer than Sorry

-<3-

So we’ve all heard this story about a guy and a girl

It’s the oldest story in the world

The guy was well-known for being a ladies man

harboring a wandering eye

And the girl, well she was just looking for love

She tries and she tries

and it’s just miss after miss

And then one day the two meet

You knew it was coming

At first she plays hard to get

But he keeps at it, persistence is his specialty

she becomes his latest challenge

Every love story starts this way doesn’t it?

And cliché as it is

The girl always falls for it

The universe tricks her into thinking she can change him

That she will somehow be the one girl who makes the guy truly understand

what it means to be in love

That she is worth it

Worth it enough to stop him from being a complete ass

and shape the hell up

And maybe for a little while she does

But then again we all know how that story ends, don’t we?

Its sad to say but people rarely ever change

“You are who you are

and it’s probably who you’ve always been”

– (One tree hill)

I have this reoccurring image of a girl being interviewed

She’s young and vibrant and she sits across a recording camera

and the interviewer asks her

“So what did you do this summer?”

and she simply says

“What did I do this summer?…This Summer…I fell in love”

with a big smile on her face

and then suddenly it dulls a bit and fades

And she adds

“I mean we’re no longer together, I got my heart broken…but that’s ok, I kind of expected it anyway”

She’s not bitter

She’s learned so much

And in a way she’s learning more about who she is

and just how much she can handle

and how much she’s truly worth

I imagine that’s what love truly does

Well that was an mindful huh? Kind of heavy for a blog post (but whatever)… This comes from watching wayyyy too many soap operas and tv dramas…. but Heyy it was a hell of a lot of fun writing it 😉 If writing wasn’t fun for me, I wouldn’t even care to do it. In fact  I imagine this is how artists write their songs…sometimes you have to write about the hurtful stuff  in order to eliminate the bitterness that accompanies it.  Sometimes you have to have a humorous approach, and know that it’s ok to laugh at yourself. That’s the only way to get through life…um what do you think Cry Me a River was written for? Duh? I guess it all really does circle back to Justin Timberlake for me HAHA… Writing is like a free form of therapy, that you’re in charge of, and for me, I consider that a pretty awesome reward.

Happy Weekend

-<3-

Break my heart

I saw it coming

Stone of art

Red water flowing

A broken vase

A wilted flower

Take a breath

Before witching hour

-<3-

      In life the eyes capture moving images and commit them to memory…in fear of losing a precious moment…in a way, if you look at it carefully enough… blinking is the shutter of the brain that is your camera..think about it for a second, it’ll make sense one day…

*marinate in that thought next time you wanna run before you walk…In life it’s never bad to have too many pictures*

As you may have noticed some of the images I use are taken by

Robert DeSantos Jr.

And yes, he totally knows I creep his photos like nobody’s biz when I need something haha. My brother is a pretty kick-ass photographer and I think it takes someone with a hell of an imagination and a visual way of thinking to really be able to capture those moving images. After all, the camera doesn’t just take the nice picture, the photographer does have a little something to do with it, its more than just the click of a button 😉

*Ode to the bro*

 

Click his name and like his Facebook page!

-<3-

Because sometimes there’s nothing left to say

sometimes chances are lost

tired minds

tired souls

tired of  waiting and holding onto hope

Silence has been the answer for quite some time

Empty gestures are a thing of the past

No bitterness

Just realization

that maybe this is all how it’s supposed to be

Can’t tell a lie

It’s sad you see

But it’s ok

Life has a better plan for me

I don’t know

I often wonder if  I was better off oblivious

-<3-

“Make a moment your moment”

Things we don’t talk about

Hidden truths

Doubts and gray areas

The mind spirals into confusion

Breathe in

Deep and slow

Take a moment

Understand there’s hope

Stop and smell the roses

Walk before you run

Inspiration lurks behind

every face and every turn

-<3-