My 2019 Projects Update

List of Projects

(I want to finish this year)

Move -MLW Short Story Series

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This series first premiered on MLW June of 2017. And there are currently 13 Chapters posted. But I haven’t updated since January of 2018. So it’s been quite a while. LONGEST HIATUS EVER! I just recently gathered my notes on this project, and re-read all the chapters. I am working on Chapter 14 and Liam and Aria’s loves story will continue soon, I PROMISE! This is my priority project!

Start from the beginning- Read Chapter 1- HERE

Summary: Liam Whitmore is a wealthy business executive who goes through the motions of working in his corporate world day after lousy day, making deals and kicking ass at it. However he often feels uninspired, and unable to do what he really loves. Until one day he meets a younger woman named Aria Lenz, struggling to become a dancer. Her simplistic yet driven nature strikes up a spark of inspiration in him, and he makes it his mission to get to know her. Little does he know, it’ll be the hardest “transaction” he’s ever had to make. They’re worlds apart- will he finally get through to her, or will his fire fizzle?

Crazy Stalker Love– MLW Short Story Series- COMING SOON!

This was a story I thought of during the fall of 2018 and it is partially written and saved on my computer but needs some serious love. I did announce it on the blog, that this was coming. I think it will be featured on MLW after “Move” wraps. It needs to be finished and put into Chapters. 

Summary: Henley Hendrix is a badass who doesn’t let anyone tell her what to do. She has always had an intense and complicated history with her ex boyfriend Hunter Stone. Some may even go as far to say, that his love for her has always exceeded any normal standard. They have a painful past that she just can’t seem to get over, but she also can’t seem to let him go either. While selfishly hanging onto their intimacy, in the mist of her on again/off again relationship with Hunter, Henley starts seeing a new, dark, mysterious Mr. Perfect. But everything isn’t always as it seems to be. *There are a bunch of other interesting characters that get thrown along for the ride too. 

NaNoWriMo Project loosely Titled “Afire Love”

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Summary: Sadie Sullivan has always been a romantic at heart. But she always plays it safe. Err on the side of caution, is practically her motto. After all, you can’t fail, if you don’t take any risks right? But what happens when a handsome acquaintance challenges her to face her biggest fear of all…falling in love?

On my instagram, I gave daily NaNo updates, and I shared some Sneak Peeks of my book on there throughout the month of November 2018. I also gave a hint that my two characters face a similar struggle these two characters faced in General Hospital. 

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Dante & Lulu (GH) They faced quite a number of struggles so which one do you think I am referring to? 

This book needs to be finished, edited ALOT, and formatted. But I past my 50,000 NaNo word count! So that’s a plus!

Television Pilot

I have been writing scenes for this show since I was in high school, which for a time frame, has been over a decade. I have notebooks, and loose papers, and saved documents all over the place. I started to work on the pilot episode back when I said I would, but the world I’ve created in my mind has become so big, that I can literllay see seasons of stories unfolding. So to narrow down the lives of these characters to the very beginning, has just proven to be quite hard. Last Update.

I will not give away much on this. This is a big one. But I will give you a sneak peek of a mock poster I made with my #dreamcast. I totally know all these pictures are old. This is just who I imagine my characters to look like. 🙂 [Sorry the title is a secret for now! Have to keep some secrets!]

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Tori Kelly, Bruno Mars, Kris Allen, Demi Lovato, Katelyn Pippy, Joshua Jackson

Special Self Publishing Project– not going to give away the title but let’s just say I’ve been writing it for the past 6 years and probably long before that too. I will just give you a little tiny hint-  Faceless Man. 

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As you can see I have quite a few projects on my mind. They tangle up and I just don’t know where to start. And then I get another new idea and start writing that, and then I stop and get distracted and thrown off track of writing anything all together. It’s definitely overwhelming. But my goal is to finish all of these projects by the end of this year. I need to learn to finish what I start. I need to get my stories out of my mind and onto paper and into the world. It’s the only way these characters are going to leave me alone. 😉

 

Wish me luck and a bit of magic!

 

To my fellow writers out there,

how do you start what you finish/deal with balancing multiple projects?

 

*I do not take credit for any images used in my edits or otherwise.*

-<3-

 

The Big Speech

I’m a Romantic. Complete and total romantic. And when it comes to things I treasure, television is a passion for me. I love a good love story. The typical story of boy meets girl. Boy falls for girl and then boy does something stupid and boy loses girl. And how does boy get girl back? By giving the big speech. Full of raw emotional. where he just lays it all on the line, heart in hand. And hopes for the best. Sometimes the roles are reversed and it’s the girl who has to give the speech…just as effective! And sometimes the big speech isn’t always warranted by a mistake or need to apologize, but just to reaffirm their love to their partner. Either way, the big speech is always my favorite.

Here a few of my Favorite Big Emotional Speeches…

(in no particular order…and there are plenty more where they came from.)

Seth & Summer [The OC] 

“You’re undeniable.”

Dante & Lulu [General Hospital]

“I love you, your the sole owner of my heart….Forget hard, I’m trying to make it damn near impossible for you to give up on us.”

Patrick & Robin [GH]

“The fact is I’ve loved you for a long time…I don’t even know when it started…”

Lucky & Elizabeth [GH]

“Everything I am is in love with you…”

“To describe how you look would only cheapen a reality. I couldn’t breathe.”

Nathan & Haley [One Tree Hill]

“I could love you forever.”

Jess & Rory [Gilmore Girls]

“Come with me. I’m ready for this, you can count on me now.”

Ross & Rachel [FRIENDS]

“It’s always been you, Rach.”

Caleb & Hanna [Pretty Little Liars]

“You won’t admit that we’re meant to spend the rest of our lives together.”

Mark & Lexie [Grey’s Anatomy]

“I’m saying you could have a husband.” #BasicallyAProposal

“I love you….oh god that just came flying out of my face…”

Jack & Elizabeth [When Calls The Heart]

“I don’t know if it’s fair to ask you to wait for me.”

What beautiful, beautiful words. They just hit you right in the feels. I love each of these scenes. I love how they display such true love. And I love how you can feel it radiating from your television screen. And that my friends, is why I swoon over love and television relationship arcs.

*I do not take credit for any of the videos used.*

-<3-

Welcome Home. – Chapter 2

 

Read Chapter 1 HERE

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Melanie steps out on her front porch, wrapping her long knit sweater tighter around her, as she folds her arms over her chest. She looks out into the town she’s always known.

Kids running around playing tag, couples riding bikes, a family throwing around a football. The freshly fallen leaves kicking up in the commotion and the wind.

Smiling to herself, Melanie walks over to her porch swing. She sits and begins to rock gently.

Stopping after a short time her eye catches something, she stands and walks to the end of the porch, placing her hand on the railing. Her fingers run over an imprint-Oliver and Melanie 4 Ever.

She smiles as she sees his face flash in her mind.

 “What are you doing?” he asks as she carves the first few words.

“Nothing,” she says with a sly smirk and glances over at him before resuming the task at hand.

“You’re parents are going to kill you.”

“It’ll be for a good cause.”

Oliver peers over her shoulder and wraps his arms around her.

“Forever huh?”

Turning in his arms, she faces him, smiling.

“What, you have a problem with that?” Melanie says is her sassy tone.

“Not one.” He says smiling as he inches his lips toward her before planting a kiss on hers.

“I love you,” he says whispering, his eyes staring into hers.

“I love you too,” she says leaning up to kiss him.

They part ways and share a small nervous laugh.

“I was really nervous to say that.” He says looking down.

“Why?”

“I don’t know. I mean don’t get me wrong I wanted to say it, I’ve been dying to say it. It just never felt like the right time. I wanted it to be perfect. I know I’m such a dork.” He says laughing at himself.

“You’re not a dork. You’re perfect,” she kisses him with a sweet peck.

“I just -sometimes I worry I’m too much for you.”

“What? Ollie?” she says cupping his face in her hands. “That’s crazy!”

“No. I just mean that like- I know I can come on kinda strong. (he pauses trying to search for the words to explain) You mean a lot to me. I’ve never felt like this before, I don’t always know what I’m doing.”

“Everything you’re saying I’m feeling that too.”

“Really?”

“Yea, this is all new to me too. But I love you and I want to see where that takes us.”

He smiles at her brightly as he pulls her into a kiss.

“I am so happy to hear you say that. I love you,” he kisses her.

Melanie smiles up at him, her eyes beaming with love and hope.

 Melanie is brought back to reality as she hears a scuffle of feet.

“Knock, knock.”

Melanie looks up hearing the familiar voice.

Her childhood friend stands at the top of the porch steps, knocking on the wooden panel.

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“Cassie!” Melanie says smiling brightly as she rushes to her, embracing her in a hug.

Melanie’s tears cannot be held in anymore, as they spill from her eyes.

“Hey, hey what’s wrong?” Cassie says concerned for her friend.

“I’m sorry. I’ve been trying to keep it together, but I guess all of the nostalgia, it’s just…” She says wiping her eyes.

“Too much?”

“Yea. I mean sometimes I am so happy to be home to see you and my family. But then I get this anxiety. I feel like I’m drowning in everything that happened and in my regrets of how I handled it all.”

“Mm, that’s understandable. What you went through was traumatic.”

“I know but it’s been years, I feel like I should be rounding some corner.”

“You can’t be mad at what you feel. Or how long you feel it. There is no set way in how to deal with this situation. And there isn’t any right or wrong way either.”

“Really because I think if you asked anyone if my leaving was the right or wrong choice, they’d say wrong.”

“You know I love you, and I will forever be here to support you, but even I will admit, I couldn’t believe it. But at the same time, you did what was right for you. And god help Oliver, he understands.”

“Present tense?”

“Yea it is. He still understands why you did what you did.”

“So you’ve spoken to him, recently?”

“Come on Mel, that’s no secret. You know I’m with Dave, and Oliver is Dave’s best friend,” she says shrugging awkwardly. “I’m not trying to hurt you. I’m not picking sides, I don’t think there are sides.”

“I know. You’re right. I’m sorry. I’m being such a child.”

“Let’s talk a walk, yea?” Cassie says talking her by the hand and pulling her toward the steps.

“Yea, I think I could use some fresh air, to clear my head.”

“Yea it’ll do you some good.”

Cassie and Melanie set off to walk through town.

As they pass house after house, the cool breeze chilling the air, Melanie looks around taking it in.

Memories floating throughout the air.

Silence setting in. Deafening.

“Hey? If you wanna talk, I’m here.”

Melanie looks over at Cassie with a simple smile.

“I know, you always are, 5 years couldn’t shake it, thank you.”

“Coffee? for old times’ sake,” Cassie says smiling, and pointing to their favorite coffee shop- Mrs. Bean.

“Duh?” she smiles as they walk into the shop.

“I’ve got it…hazelnut latte right? (Melanie nods with a smile), why don’t you grab a table?”

“Ok I’m on it.” She says turning and walking toward a table.

She sits and takes her coat off, settling in.

Melanie looks around and smiles feeling the warmth of the heat and the smell of coffee beans and baked treats.

The bell above the store door chimes and in walks Dave, Melanie looks up and smiles faintly as the lines of their vision meet. Immediately, Melanie’s stomach drops when Oliver soon follows behind him.

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Dave stops short and Oliver looks at him questioningly, until he sees Melanie sitting there before him, he too stops dead in his tracks.

Cassie turns around with the coffees in her hands to find a sight to behold. Her jaw drops and instinctively she wants to jump in, but gives it a beat.

Oliver’s eyes lock on Melanie, unsure of what to do, he stands there, hands in his pockets. Wanting to say so much. Melanie bites her lower lip and looks down, her hands clasping at each other- trying to feel grounded, to be present, to feel some sense of control. Anxiety creeping in, taking over.

Cassie comes over.

“Hey guys, babe.” She says kissing Dave on the cheek. “Why don’t you and I take a walk, give these two some time to catch up?”

Dave looks between the two star crossed lovers, a glimmer of intensity in Oliver’s eyes and a fear like no other in Melanie’s.

Cassie exchanges a look with Melanie as she hands her the latte, a look of reassurance.

Melanie takes a sharp breath in.

“I guess we’ll see you guys later. Good to see you Mel. We’ll have to catch up.”

Melanie nods, “You too, and absolutely- I’d like that,” she says smiling faintly.

Oliver stares on. Unable to take his eyes off her.

“See ya bro,” Dave says patting Oliver on the shoulder as he takes Cassie’s hand and walks them out of the coffee shop, the bell chiming startles Melanie.

“May I?” Oliver says gesturing to the chair across from her.

Melanie nods yes.

“So…what’s it been Mel…5 years since we’ve actually had a full conversation?” he says his voice holding a light joking tone, his smile sweet, his eyes flickering with a familiar spark.

“Sounds about right, give or take a few.” Melanie says looking down at her coffee, avoiding his eyes.

“It’s good to see you Mel, You look amazing.”

“Thank you. You too. I like the beard.” She says trying to smile.

“Thanks, I figured winter’s coming. Why not, right? So how are things, how’s New York?”

“It’s good. Busy. Very fast paced. I’m grateful for the distraction.”

“I hear that,” he says knowingly. “So Cassie mentioned you’re working with a new publishing company?”

“Yea.”

“How’s that going? You write that book of yours yet?” he says smiling.

“Not quite. I’m more in charge of seeking out new writers these days and getting their work published.”

“What? Why? You’ve always wanted to get your own book published, what happened?”

“What do you think happened?” she says looking up at him.

Melanie looks away, her eyes welling up.

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“Melanie…hey, I’m sorry- I…I was just trying to…”

“I can’t do this. I’m sorry,” she says getting up grabbing her coat, she rushes out.

Oliver starts to get up to follow, and then stops himself. Sitting back down, he runs a hand through his hair in frustration with the distance that has wedged itself between the two of them. He stares looking after her.

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Melanie splashes cold water on her face and looks at her reflection in the mirror.

“Who are you?”

She says looking at herself.

Sinking to the floor, her tears fall freely.

To be continued…

-<3-

Welcome Home.

Hey guys, it’s that time again…I’ve been toying around with this first bit of a new short story series for a while. I like how it’s shaping up. This new story series will probably send us into the new year, and long after. #AlwaysRambling.  I hope you will join in and read along!

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Meet Melanie…

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Melanie stares at her reflection in an airport bathroom. Her crystal blue eyes stare back at her.

She fluffs her hair and reaches into her purse for her lip gloss, as she applies some of her favorite very berry with just a hint of pink, and is instantly hit with a feeling of déjà vu. 

Time freezes and she thinks of him. As she often does.

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There she stands in front of her vanity applying her lipstick as she feels him watching her from the doorway of their bedroom.

Turning with a smile, she says, “What are you looking at?”

He smirks, “Everything,” he says casually leaning against the wooden door molding.

“Yea? And…do you like what you see?” she says showing off her outfit.

He smiles and walks over to her, taking her hand he spins her around, as his eyes glance over her full ensemble.

“You. Look. Sexy as hell,” he smiles pulling her to him and kissing her.

She smiles against his lips as she cups his face, her diamond ring sparkling as it sits on her left hand.

Melanie is brought back to reality as a stranger sets off the hand dryer nearby.

She shakes off the memory as she looks at her now empty ring finger.

She looks at herself in the mirror once more.

You can do this, she thinks to herself.

Melanie wipes a tear from her eye, as her cell phone begins to ring.

Grabbing her plaid suitcase and purse, she strolls into the airport lobby, answering her phone.

“Hey mom.”

“Sweetheart! Did you land yet?”

“Yes. Just now actually, I am just about to head out and grab a cab.”

“Oh honey I’m so sorry we couldn’t meet you, there’s just so much prep to do, we have the whole family coming early tomorrow morning.”

“Mom it’s really ok. I understand. It’s no big deal. I will see you soon.”

“Ok honey! Oh I am so excited to see you!”

“Me too. Love you, see you in a bit,” Melanie says with a smile.

“Love you, bye.”

Melanie hangs up and heads toward the exit. Stepping toward the end of the curb, she raises her hand to hail a cab. The fall chill nipping at her nose.

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“Thank you,” Melanie says to her cab driver as he unloads her suitcase for her.

She looks up at her childhood home, and instantly her heart is full.

She smiles at the festive decorations of hay stacks, pumpkins, scarecrows and twinkling lanterns that line the pathway to the door which is dressed in a sunflower wreath. Orange, yellow, red and green flood her eyes as she blinks to feel more grounded.

It’s been a while.

She reaches for the door knob, the cold gold feeling strange yet familiar at the same time. And turning it, she peers in. Her nostrils instantly flooded with her mom’s famous sweet potato pie and cranberry stuffing.

“Hello?”  She says wheeling her suitcase in as her low heeled booties click and clack over the hard cherry wood floor.

She hears some clinking and banging in the kitchen and then is met by her mother’s streaks and open arms.

“Melanie!!!! Oh my word. You look fantastic,” she says hugging her daughter tightly.

“Hey Mom,” she says smiling.

“Is that my Mel belle that just walked in?” her dad says walking in the front door in his work clothes and rushing to hug her too.

Melanie smiles as she hugs her parents.

“It’s good to be home,” she says finally feeling an inner peace.

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“Mom can I help you with anything?” she asks as she settles in on a chair at the island across from where her mother works on mixing up some cornbread batter.

“You could get started on the sticky buns?” she says with a smile.

Melanie smiles back with wide eyes.

“Sure,” she says standing and heading to the fridge.

“You remember how to make them?” her mom says peering over the edges of her red rimmed eyeglasses. 

“You put them in the oven, let them rise, add some honey and brown sugar and then get to starting on the glaze.”

“And…” her mom says with a questioning smile.  

“Add a little extra cinnamon for a lot of extra love, How could I ever forget?” she says as her mom smiles at her.

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Melanie sits in front of the fireplace. Her eyes glazing over as she watches the flames flicker away.

An image flashes in her mind of him. Them. On that very same couch. He leans over.

“So…are we actually alone in this big old house?”

“I think so,” she says looking over at him her eyes smiling with a sparkle.

He smirks, and leans over to her, kissing her. As he leans into her, the kisses intensify as he switches them to a laying down position, him above her gazing down into her eyes.

“Promise me something?” he says tucking her hair behind her ear.

“Anything,” She says gazing back her hands wrapped around his waist.

“Promise you’ll never leave me.”

“Never,” she says reaching up and cupping his neck, pulling him into a kiss.

“Good, because I don’t think I can handle that.”

She smiles, her heart bursting as they kiss into the night, their clothes disguarded piece by piece.

Melanie looks around her living room, it’s emptier now.

She shifts uncomfortably in her seat.

She sighs, her heart heavy.

You can do this, she thinks.

Her eyes begin to well up.

“Honey?”

Melanie looks up to find her mother looking at her with concern.

“Melanie, what’s wrong? Or do I even have to ask?”

Melanie smiles simply as she brushes a single tear off her cheek with her cream colored oversized sweater sleeve.

“If we’re going to do this…I’m going to need a little liquid courage.”

“I have some Thanksgiving Day punch, shall we sneak a little in tonight?”

“Yes please,” she says smiling faintly.

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“So…have you seen him?” Melanie asks looking over the brim of her glass as she throws back a giant gulp of Thanksgiving Day punch.

“I have,” her mother says carefully, calmly.

“How is he?” Melanie inquires  caught between wanting to know and not wanting to know but having to ask anyway no matter what the truth may be.

“He seems good.”

“Good. I’m glad. I want him to be good.”

“He asked about you.”

Melanie sighs looking away.  

“Did you tell him I was coming home for the holidays?”

“Did you want me to?”

“No. I mean I don’t know. Town like ours, I’m sure I’m bound to run into him anyway so…”

“He knows. He guessed.”

“Ah,” she says her eyebrows raising.

“He always had a way of knowing you better than anybody…”

“Except you.” She says smiling at her mom.

“Well yes, mother knows best.” She smiles.

“I know I see him every few years. You’d think it’d get easier. But it hasn’t, it just gets harder. I don’t know what to say, or what to do. He deserves so much better than I could ever give him.”

“Honey, I don’t think there is any resentment there. Not anymore. Time does heal.”

“Not all wounds.”

“Maybe not yours. But he seems very much ok. Moved on even.”

Melanie ponders, her eyes watering, and her mind racing as she looks back at the fire, the flames crackling and glistening in the night. She takes another sip of her punch as she stares off into space.

Her mother watching on with a sad heart.

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Who’s this mystery man, that lurks through Melanie’s thoughts?

To be continued…

-<3-

The Little Moments Count

As a self-proclaimed fangirl for television relationships. There is a certain frustration that we undergo. A frustration like no other. My fellow teen drama fangirls will feel me on this one… That moment when you feel like your “Ship” is sinking.

Ship:

Short for romantic relationship, popularized in fanfiction circles. To endorse a romantic relationship.

And in those dreadful moments of agony and pain and having to watch our favorite two characters be apart, we in turn look for those little moments. We live for those small glances, or the slightest touch of hands, or arm grazes. Moments when actions speak louder than words, and a simple glance or touch tells everything, tells the audience and these two characters that there’s still something there. Still a spark fizzing. As fangirls we love that crap.

In the spirit of love and loss and heartbreak, and my obsession with TV couples, let’s look at some of these beautifully places little moments between some of my favorite couples.

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Couple: Dr. Robin Scorpio & Dr. Patrick Drake [General Hospital]

Ship Name: Scrubs (but my best friend and I call them Ratrick!)

Back story: In these compilation scenes Robin and Patrick are working at the hospital and Robin has just told Patrick she’s pregnant. The two broke up recently due to the fact that Robin wants to have a child and Patrick does not ever want to have a child. They are madly in love but want different things. Robin had a plan to go at it alone and find a sperm donor and have her own child, and raise it as a single mother. That was her plan. But plans change, and during an emotional night she and Patrick fall into old habits and Robin ends up pregnant. However, knowing his outlook of settling down and family life, Robin doesn’t want to tell Patrick the baby is his and lets him think she went along with her original plan. So in this scene he finds out she’s pregnant and he can’t help put stare at her in a new light.

Scene: Robin catches Patrick staring at her

Robin: “What now?”

Patrick: “I don’t know.”

 

 

Why I love it: This scene is so loaded and they barely speak. Just the idea that Patrick knows she’s pregnant and thinks it’s not his, but yet can’t put his finger on why he feels this pull to stare, it means he’s still invested. He even says “I just wonder what would be going through my head, if that child was mine.” In later episodes you get the feeling that he may have in fact had a feeling that maybe just maybe it actually was.

Couple Update: This scene was years ago like circa 2007/08 ish. And since then they have had a baby, gotten married, gone through infidelity, been nearly divorced, Robin “died”, then she came back, then she left again and then they really got divorced and then when both actors were leaving the show, they reunited them, they got remarried and exited as a family. So end result, the scrubs ship is still intact.

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Couple: Detective Dante Falconeri & Lesley Lu Spencer “Lulu” [General Hospital]

Ship Name: Lante

Back story: In this scene Dante catches a glimpse of Lulu in a wedding dress, and you can tell it takes his breath away. The two have just recently broken up do to the fact that Dante continuously keeps crucial details from Lulu. Unfortunately the secret he was keeping wasn’t his to tell and involved Lulu’s brother and a case Dante was working on. His job often puts a weight on his relationship with Lulu and leaves her feeling like she isn’t a priority. She can’t trust him. But in this scene you realize they still do love each other. And even though they out right say the words, the simple fact that Lulu was trying on the wedding gown and the look on Dante’s face when he saw her was enough proof.

Scene: Dante “sees” Lulu in a wedding dress.

Dante: “It’s nice, it’s really nice, maybe it’s just cause it was in front of you.”

 

 

Why I love it: I love this scene so much because this is a girl who has had trust issues her whole life, but has fallen so in love and has felt the urge to venture into the idea of marriage with a man who even though they are broken up she still loves and feels pulled to looking at what she would seem like as a bride. The break up causes her anti-marriage talk when Dante stops by. But his thoughts of marriage challenge her sinicism as they both admit they still love each other. And later Lulu is scene looking at the dress again. There’s hope there.

Couple Update: Dante actually proposes a few days later, and Lulu is shocked and confused. She tells him she needs to think about it and when she decides she wants to say yes, Dante ends up getting shot, catapulting us into a long drawn out journey. Lulu wrestles with the fact of being a cop’s wife and the on and on that is Lante continues. Finally they get engaged, they get married, she thinks she’s pregnant, finds out she can’t have kids, have a baby boy through a surrogate (that’s a crazy story all on its own), Dante cheats, they divorce and now they are actually back together and thinking about a second child. *The original Lulu left the show and has been recast. My heart still hearts. End result ship is still intact.

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Couple: Joey Potter and Pacey Witter [Dawson’s Creek]

Ship Name: Ship names weren’t a thing yet.

Back story: In this scene Pacey has developed an intense crush on Joey, they went from bitter banter, to really good friends. And here Pacey is laying the guilt trip on Joey about not coming to the opening night of the play he’s starring in. She’s been helping him rehearse and learn his lines and she can’t come because she’s got a date with a college guy. Pacey is clearly jealous, and it is a beautiful thing to watch. With his funny, witty, rapid fire dialogue. That “the first thing he’s going to do when he walks through that door is pay you some lame ass compliment about how incredible you look tonight” quote slays me. She’s slightly clueless, but soon enough she’ll catch the hint.

Scene: Jealous Pacey

Pacey: “You do suck for not being there don’t cha.”

Why I love it: I love how he’s so non-chalant and his typical witty, firecracker self but it’s obvious that there’s more and in this time we have seen him develop feelings for her and the audience knows that this is jealousy. Not just a friend needed his friend to support him. I just love love love Pacey. He cracks me up.

Couple Update: Soon after this seen Pacey finally kisses Joey which leads her to question her whole life existence and puts her in a position of choosing between Dawson and Pacey. The love triangle of all love triangles. End result she ends up picking Pacey and setting sail with him on his boat for a whole summer, the couples goes strong for quite some seasons and then they break up shortly after they become intimate. Joey heads off to college and soon ends up exploring a relationship with Dawson after all these years. Pacey and Joey soon find their way back to each other and it seems like things may start up again when they are older, but they don’t quite end up there, until Jen’s death leads them to evaluate their mistakes and as the gang reunites years and years later, Pacey and Joey have a serious conversation about Joey’s need to keep running from her real feelings. In the end of the series shows Joey and Pacey together in her New York apartment as they watch Dawson’s newest TV show’s finale together. End result ship intact and friendships mended.

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Couple: Ross Geller & Rachel Green

Ship Name: Ship names weren’t a thing yet and even so it gets tough when there’s two R’s!

Back story: In this scene Ross had just become a father (co-parenting with his ex-wife carol and her lesbian lover Susan…crazy…I know, haha) And he and the gang are looking at all these pictures of the baby, as Rachel leans over Ross’ shoulder, pressing against him, Ross can’t help but lean in and drift into Rachel land. And you know he was smelling her hair! It’s the cutest damn thing ever.

Scene: The Ross Look @2:09

Rachel: “Oh god is he just the sweetest thing, you must just want to kiss him all over.”

Ross: “That would be nice.”

Why I love it: The way Ross looks at Rachel for all of seasons 1 & 2 is how every girl dreams of being looked at. And she is mostly clueless. It’s a puppy dog, “I’ve been in love with you for 10 years notice me already” look that just completely melts your heart. And you instinctively start rooting for Ross to get the girl.

Couple Update: Ross and Rachel have more ups and downs than any other couple in the universe. They were rarely ever on the same page at the same time. Rachel for years is in the dark about Ross’ feelings and when she finally finds out, Ross has finally moved on. And it’s Rachel’s turn to pine over “this really great guy she can’t have.” When a drunken Rachel leaves a message on his machine about needing closure, Rachel is forced to confront her feelings and in turn Ross is faced with a choice. Rachel and Ross date on and off for years, they we were on a break storyline sends us into a difficult time as Ross sleeps with another woman during a breakup. Rachel finds out and the two have difficulties remaining friends. Throw in another marriage for Ross, another divorce for Ross and then a quicker drunken Vegas wedding for Ross and Rachel and an annulment too. Eventually Monica and Chandler’s wedding approaches and we find out Rachel is pregnant, through the longest game of Baby Daddy Who Dunnit, we finally find out it’s Ross’ months of baby moments and sweet insinuations go by, but again nothing concrete happens until Ross is faced with losing Rachel for good when she gets a job offer to work in Paris. Cue the airport scene. End result- ship still intact.

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Couple: Nathan Scott & Haley James Scott [One Tree Hill]

Ship Name: Naley

Back story: In this scene Lucas and Lindsay (the soon to be married couple) orchestrate their bachelor and bachelorette parties on the same night at the same place, in order to their estranged maid of honor and best man in the same room to talk. At this point Nathan and Haley are fighting because the psycho Nanny Carrie kissed Nathan and let it happen along with some flirtations. Haley found Carrie in the shower with Nathan (who thought she was Haley) and she freaked out kicking Nathan out, she has asked for a divorce at this point.

Scene: My best friend and I call this the “Super Star” Glare, because of the song that’s playing, haha. @2:16

Haley: “Your hearts were in the right place, you picked the right person to spend the rest of your life with, Luke.”

Lucas: “So did you.”

Why I love it: This eye exchange lasts only about 3 seconds, and yet it is one of my favorite Naley moments. There’s a love there that runs deep, and they are in such a bad place that things could go either way. And yet in that moment Haley is forced to find Nathan’s eyes staring at her. There’s a sadness as you see Nathan look away, ashamed. He knows he has been wrong, and he knows it’s going to have to be up to him to prove himself and fight for Haley. Because at this point her distance is cold and he’s losing her.

Couple Update: Shortly after this scene, Nathan and Haley reunite and start to mend their relationship and after that their relationship does remain pretty solid, they get through Haley’s depression when she loses her mother and they even have another baby, a girl named Lydia after her mom. End result- ship still intact.

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Couple: Hanna Marin & Caleb Rivers [Pretty Little Liars]

Ship Name: Haleb

Back story: This is the scene that sparked the idea for this blog post. Hanna and Caleb were one of Pretty Little Liars stable high school couples. But as we know teen dramas like to break people up when they time jump 5 years. Something about making things seem “realistic,” enough already give the people what they want. We know high school sweethearts don’t always stay together, but let us just pretend they do, would ya? Anyway within this scene, Caleb and Hanna are of course working on some big plan to expose the latest big bad A. And this is the first time Hanna and Caleb have been face to face since Hanna broke off her engagement to what was his name again-Jordan? No one cares. And Caleb broke up with Spencer (yea he dated Hanna’s best friend, classy right?) Cue the ultimate fan girl frustration-when the guy in your ship acts beyond stupid and all you want to do is strangle him. So moving on, in season 6 Haleb had an intense moment where Hanna confessed to still loving Caleb and he was so moved by her confession that he kissed her. So when this scene between them happened I kind of died. Hanna had been hiding the fact that she broke off her engagement, because she knew Caleb and Spencer were having problems since she and Caleb kissed, she felt bad and she didn’t want to hurt Spencer. You believe that HANNA didn’t want to hurt SPENCER. Um Spencer I’m sorry do you know what girl code is? At all. Do you have any idea what that is? You don’t under any circumstance ever date your best friend’s ex. Caleb and Hanna were the real deal, first love, true love, still in love and Spencer knew that and yet she has the balls to call Hanna out and get angry at her. “I asked you, you told me you were ok with it.” Bitch you shouldn’t have even asked, I don’t care. Spencer hunny, you were so wrong. Caleb isn’t yours, he never was, and never will be. And Caleb, homeboy shame on you. Can you tell I’m all #TeamHanna. Anyway, rant over- in this scene Hanna and Caleb are both single and Hanna gestures toward some papers Caleb has been studying and he instinctively checks her left ring finger noticing it’s very very naked. Hanna is forced to then offer the fact that she and Jordan broke up.

Scene: The Naked Ring Finger

Hanna: “I wasn’t talking about him, we’re still friends right?”

Caleb: “Always.”

Why I love it: I love Caleb’s face when he sees Hanna’s naked finger, he stops talking as if the wind has gotten knocked out of him, and then trying to quickly recover, by talking “A” business. While, Hanna mauls over whether or not to let Caleb know the truth, offering up an emotional speech about how having someone in your life and then having to cut them out completely is like losing a part of you. When she admits she’s talking about Caleb, the glance the exchange was 3 seconds away from becoming a kiss. Damn you, Marlene King you’re killing us here! Honestly Hanna is the Alpha is this game their playing, she’s always putting people before herself, always taking care of people and their feelings, and she’s the one showcases her feelings first, even when it’s awkward and difficult. Caleb you need to step up your game if you want to be deserving of Hanna; the PLL Queen. 😀

Couple Update: Remains to be seen. But I have high hopes, those glares and stares aren’t for nothing. Caleb feels it too, I can tell. Hanna, get it girl. #BYESPENCER

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The Soap Opera Culture

A Soap Opera can be defined as “a television drama series dealing typically with daily events in the lives of the same group of characters.”

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To be more specific it’s a world where anything can happen. Where real life situations occur but are over exaggerated to the nth degree. Where people can die and come back 5 years later alive and kicking. Where kidnapping and car accidents are the norm. Where people have facial reconstruction surgery coupled with amnesia and boom you have a soap opera story.

Soap Operas get so much flack for their storytelling. And I will be honest being someone who has watched soap operas and who still likes to keep up on the happenings via YouTube, I have gotten completely frustrated with certain storylines. But then there are moments when the show can shine, and you can relate to the drama unfolding, or just find it really intriguing and entertaining.

When I was younger I used to watch All My Children with my mom. Although I don’t remember the storylines much, I do remember being interested. Then when I got a little older I developed my own personal favorite; Passions. Oh boy that one was a crazy one! It 050620_mills_hmed_3p.grid-6x2[1]had an old lady witch named  named Tabitha who had a demon baby and woman named Sheridan who was caught between loving two brothers. She was in love with and engaged to one brother named Luis then got into some boat accident went lost at sea and then was found and nursed to health by the second brother Antonio. Of course with no memory of being in love already, the woman falls in love with Antonio. So when she comes back to town with this new love interest, her old flame is both shocked and thrilled, Scan002__December_02__2002[1]causing a major love triangle. The triangle becomes a square when Luis’ current love interest Beth fakes a pregnancy to keep him around, after he finds out Sheridan is alive, he’s adamant about wanting to be with her. Well, I’m sure you can guess the rest…drama! Pretty sure she even wore a bag of flower on her stomach for months to continue the pregnancy charade. And she even kidnapped Sheridan and kid her in a sound proof basement. Can you say psycho?  There was also Theresa who was playing aimages2RZS6BTS surrogate for her ex Ethan’s baby with his new wife Gwen and ended up cheating with him and getting pregnant a second time, making her carry twins. Like what? Is that even possible. See this is my point in Soaps anything goes. Damn I can’t even believe how much I actually remember, I think I watched that soap while I was in middle school! haha.

In the Soap World you kind of have to suspend reality. They ask you to forget the nature of real life and play in their world. Soap actors are vast, each cast is pretty huge. They kind of have to be, considering the show is aired for an hour Mondays through Fridays. And usually the scenes you watch on TV are done in one take. Soap actors are some of the hardest working actors if you ask me. And sometimes there are some really amazing gems within the cast that you can just see moving on to prime time television or feature films. Soap actors are just getting better and better. Although I guess that does depend on which soap opera you watch.

My favorites used to include One Life to Live and General Hospital. Now that One Life to Live is no longer on the air, General Hospital is the only one I really keep up with, but it isn’t as consistent as I used to. Because well life kind of prevents me from being able to watch it, and most of my favorites have left. 😦 But every once in a while I’ll see something pop up on their Facebook page about a couple I used to like or a big reveal in the making and I’ll do a little catching up. It’s safe to say that if you stop watching for a few months, you can tap back in and the same storyline will still be front and center. It’s kind of hysterical. I’ll think to myself wait, hasn’t this chick been wearing that same outfit for like a year. I’m over exaggerating but seriously soap opera time rolls at snail’s pace. I’ve also dabbled in watching some amazingly cute couples on Guiding Light when it was on, As the World Turns when it was on, and Days of Our Lives.

One of the downfalls to being a soap fan, is when your favorite actor decides it’s time to leave the show. And when that said character is part of one of your favorite couples, the betrayal can feel real! I am still nursing the fact that the original Lulu Spencer left General Hospital, and this happened like a long while ago. I’m still not over it. Lulu was recast and now it leaves people having to pretend like it’s not a totally different person. You know

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The new Lulu

what I’m saying when they do the little introduction… “The role of Lulu Spencer will now be played by Emme Rylan.” GAH! It’s painful. I don’t not like her, I just was so in love with the old Lulu, she was the only one who really took over that role. Sure she was played by several younger actresses in the past, but once they age a child, (you know when they show up from boarding school 5 years later and they are all smoking hot and grown up) the actor usually remains the same.

 The old Lulu played by Julie Marie Berman was the perfect match for Dominic Zamprogna who plays her husband Dante. They had really great chemistry. I still see there is a connection with the new actress, but it’s not the same. It’s difficult to see one of your favorite couples change dramatically. Sure she’s playing the same character, but she’s a different actress, kind seems like he’s cheating. Speaking of cheating, in current General Hospital time Dante cheated on Lulu and now they are getting a divorce. Totally sucks. Like really sucks. Sometimes that’s the down side to soap operas, someone always has to cheat. And it’s usually the least likely character.

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The Original Lulu

 

In 2010, it was Patrick who cheated on Robin and they went through hell and back. And of course just when things started looking up and they were starting to rebuild the actress playing Robin-Kimberly McCullough decided she was leaving, and they killed her off, throwing us fans into a tailspin of emotions. It was great storytelling and Jason Thompson who played Patrick was phenomenal in his grieving moments. That’s who I ratrick 2meant when I said sometimes there are true soap opera gems. But as usual Robin’s character wasn’t really “burnt beyond recognition” which is the usual excuse for being able to bring a character back. Because there’s usually a whole big evil scheme that went down to kidnap said person and keep them from their loved ones for years all because of some crazy agenda or blackmail. And of course when the audience knows all the pieces to the puzzles you sit and wait months for the big reveal and for the character to make their big reveal. It can be actually really exciting. Haha.

And then there is always the whole oh we may be possibly related storyline, but we fell in love before we knew it. And now its creepy and weird. [SEE: Jared and Natalie (One Life To Live)] Or the tempered with paternity tests. That’s a fun one too!

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Now in real General Hospital time, McCullough and Thompson finished their last arc on the show for the foreseeable future as Thompson too has recently left the show to take over a role on The Young and the Restless. You’ll see actors pop up all over a bunch of soaps, it’s Drakefamily[1]like the most interchangeable business. And it’s also where many actors get their start. [See: Bethany Joy Lenz (known from One Tree Hill) on Guiding Light and also hey there Jesse Lee Soffer (known for Chicago PD) –As The World Turns.] Seriously that’s pretty frustrating too when they leave your soap for another, especially if it’s not one you watch. But I can imagine like with anything in life, you can get stuck and need to shake this up every

once in a while. Thompson played Patrick for 10 years, seems he needed a change. McCullough came back to finish off the couples storyline, which was a very cheesy but happy ending. While Robin was gone for so long, Patrick’s character went through many relationships with several women, he almost married two. It was kind of a hot mess and I wasn’t a fan of it. It wasn’t that I didn’t like him with some of the women, the two he almost married were great, but not for Patrick. In my eyes Patrick and Robin are just one of those epic soap opera love stories. It’s a shame that sometimes the best of them have to be tragically ripped about for storylines. The cheating storyline, the death storyline, the divorce storyline were all really hard to watch, because when you analyze tv couples like a fangirl is supposed to and let’s face it you ship your couples hardcore, it becomes really saddening when they split. When you refer back to good old happy times and they are now moving on from each other. Watching a soap opera is like riding a roller coaster. But day time television wouldn’t be the same without them.

What soaps do you watch?

P.S. Who else misses Soapnet? I loved that channel, they used to play all my soaps at night so I could watch what I missed turning the day! #NoIdonothaveDVR

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