BLOGMAS -Day 18- “A Husband for Christmas” [Part 4] Short Story

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A husband for christmas short story_Christmas 2017

Read Part 1 HERE, Part 2 HERE, and Part 3 HERE

Noel and Kris sit together on her hospital bed as Kris tells her the stories that accompany the many photos in her scrapbook.

“So, I just came up to you and kissed you?” she says laughing.

“Yea pretty much, you said you thought I was cute and wanted to know what it’d be like,” he says laughing.

“Oh my gosh! Wow. Did you like it? Or were you totally weirded out?”

“Are you kidding me? I thought it was sexy as hell.”

Noel covers her face and starts laughing.

Kris laughs and shakes his head, “she’s still my girl,” he thinks.

Noel notices, “so are we one of those affectionate couples that make people sick or…” she says trailing off kind of hoping that was exactly the case. 

“Um…I guess…” Kris says puzzled.

“Hmm, what does that mean?” Noel says laughing and looking over with wide eyes.

“We’re very affectionate normally, like in our own home we’re basically all over each other,” (he says laughing).

“Oh?” Noel smiles as she raises her eyebrows.

“But with PDA, we’re a little more reserved.”

“Ah, I guess I can understand that…”

Kris smiles at her.

“But wait one second, I have a question.”

“Ask away,” he says smiling as she slides her hand onto his, intertwining their fingers.

He looks down and smiles.

“If I’m so reserved, why was I able to rock that red little lacey number without a problem.”

“It’s not that it’s problematic for you, it’s just that you tend to blush easily,” he says laughing.

“Ah, so in other words, I just like when it’s a secret between you and me?” Noel says her head lifting up from his shoulders as her brown eyes sparkle up at him.

“Yea that sounds about right,” Kris says smirking at her, their lips close. 

Noel looks up at Kris, pressing her lips against his, cupping his neck with her hand as she pulls him closer to her.

Kris kisses her back for a beat and then pulls away.

“Is everything ok?” she asks confused.

“Yea, of course.” he says hopping off of the bed as Noel’s brow furrows. “I just remembered I promised I’d call our best friends to update them about you,” he says with a nervous little laugh. 

“Oh, okay,” she says feeling suddenly uncomfortable for kissing him. 

“I’ll be right back,” Kris says kissing her left hand right near her sparkling rings, quickly before exiting the room.

Noel looks up at the ceiling in frustration and confusion as she reaches for her purse. 

Kris rushes off to the side taking out his phone, he dials a familiar number.

“Hello?” a young brunette answers quickly in a panic as she sits impatiently in an airport, simultaneously tapping a young man on the shoulder sitting beside her.

“Hey Rebecca,” Kris says sullenly.

“Kris! Oh thank god! We’ve been trying to get through to you since we got your message! Griffin and I have been stuck at the airport for a day, and our phones have been all messed up! How’s Noel? I’ve been worried sick.”

“She’s ok, she’s doing much better. The doctor says her recovery is going nicely”

“Oh thank god!” Rebecca says grabbing her chest in relief.

Griffin looks on anxiously, taking Rebecca’s hand.

“She’s okay” she mouths to him, as Griffin sighs in relief. 

“So everything went well with the surgery?”

“Yes, it was less evasive than they thought would was great and she is feeling good, she’s just having some trouble remembering things.”

“What do you mean, she doesn’t remember anything?”

Griffins eyes go wide.

“She doesn’t remember anything. Not me, not the fact that I’m her husband, not Holly, or her parent’s death…nothing.”

“Oh my gosh, Kris that’s terrible. I’m sorry, that’s heart breaking.”

“You would think so, but she’s been so great, she wants to know everything, she’s completely optimistic, but I-“

“You’re going through a lot right now, it’s hard, I know,” she says her voice softening as she hears the tears building up in his throat.

“Yea,” Kris says shoving his hand in his pocket as he leans against the hallway wall, mentally, emotionally and physically exhausted.

“Hey Kris, do you wanna talk to Griffin?”

“If you don’t mind…” he says with a small chuckle.

Griffin takes the phone, “Hey buddy,” he says gesturing to Rebecca that he’s going to step to the side, she nods as he places a kiss on her cheek.

“Hey man…”

“I’m so sorry dude, I can’t believe all this,” Griffin says hearing his friend’s voice crack.

“I don’t know what to do man, I love her so much, you know how much I love my wife.”

“I know man.”

“But I was in no way prepared for something like this. I know she’s trying and I know it could be worse, she could not want anything to do with me. I mean to her I’m a complete stranger… but she’s being completely amazing, she’s still kissing me and holding my hand,”

“Well that’s a good thing right?”

“Yea, but I know she doesn’t remember me. And I just feel like maybe she’s just doing those things to make it easier on me.”

“Well I mean like you just said, she doesn’t know you right? So if she really didn’t want to do something she wouldn’t. I mean so the way I see it, is she’s embracing the fact that your her husband and she’s doing her best to get back to the life she knows she used to love.” 

“I love her so much, I do. But I am petrified that I’m going to do or say something that’s going to freak her out. And then I’ll lose her for good.”

“What do the doctors say? Do they think she’s forcing herself to remember too much too quick?”

“I don’t think so, I mean everything has been quite a blur since last night.”

“I can imagine, man, but look I think you just need to talk to her, ok, tell her your concerns. Even if she is trying to do it for you, even that says something right. She cares.” 

Meanwhile back in her hospital room, Noel sits going through her cellphone. She looks at pictures of her old life, as her eyes begin to fill with tears.

She dials the number for Holly.

“Hey you!” Holly answers excitedly as she shuffles through her keys trying to open her door.

“Hey,” Noel answers her sadness evident.

“Oh no, what’s wrong, love?” Holly says walking into her apartment and flipping the light on.

“I don’t know. I just feel like somethings going on with Kris and he won’t tell me. And I just feel like he doesn’t want anything to do with me.”

“Oh sweetheart, you are going insane, I think,” she says laughing

“Why are you laughing?” Noel says in between sobs.

“Kris Thornwood is obsessed with his wife, anyone you ask would say the same. The minute you kissed him at that party he was a goner. Ok? There is no way anything that your saying is true.”

“Yea Kris Thornwood may be obsessed with his wife, but I am NOT his wife. At least that’s what I feel like he’s thinking.”

Kris starts to come down the hall, and he over hears Noel’s voice, and ducks back to the side, listening in.

“Stop it! Yes you are his wife.”

“No, I’m not. I can’t remember anything. And that sucks. Ok I get it, he’s struggling with the fact that I’m not the woman he fell in love with. But I’m trying here, and I just feel like maybe I’m just not who he wants me to be. I wish he would just talk to me, I mean I can’t get better without him.”

Kris walks in his eyes full of tears.

Noel turns and notices, tears streaming down her face.

“Holly…I’m gonna have to call you back,” she says hanging up. “I’m so sorry,” Noel says looking at him.

“No. I um…I’m so sorry,” he says walking over to her. 

“I just didn’t know what else to do…” she says shrugging, her tears falling more freely.

“Stop crying, stop.” he says cupping her face and wiping her tears away with his thumbs. “You are exactly the woman I fell in love with, you are the woman I love with all my heart. Memory or not. I do, I love you so much. I need you to know that.”

Noel smiles in between sad and happy tears.

“I’m so sorry that I’ve been so distant. I just, I’m scared.”

“Scared…of what?” Noel says confused.

“When the doctor called me to tell me you were in an accident, I’m pretty sure I stopped breathing. It was the single most terrifying moment of my life. You are my everything and when I thought I was going to lose you, I kind of lost it. So when I heard you were going to be ok, it was like every prayer I ever made was answered. And I was so happy, but when you said you didn’t remember anything, I started to worry that what if I pushed you too hard, too quick and you ended up hating me or even worse what if I put your health at risk.”

“But Kris, look at me, I’m fine.”

“I just worry. My greatest fear in life, is losing you.”

Noel softens, as she looks at him with kind eyes. 

“Come here,” she says holding out her arms. 

Kris looks away hesitantly.

“Come here,” she says pulling his hands toward her as she pulls him into a hug. “I may not remember anything right now. But I can already tell how in love we are. And I want that back. I know my heart knows you, I just need some time for my mind to get there again. I like hearing about our life and seeing pictures, I like being with you, I love kissing you.” she says smiling up at him, as he looks at her with a smirk. “I know that I can fall in love with you, in no time. I don’t want you to apologize for touching me, or to second guess talking to me. I’m your wife. I need you to talk to me. Because I am committed to my recovery and I’m even more committed to you and getting our life back.”

“God I love you,” he says pulling her into a kiss. 

 

TO BE CONTINUED…

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-<3-

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

BLOGMAS -Day 17- My Perfect Winter Day

As we get closer to Christmas, I’m noticing it’s been harder to get these posts up everyday in a timely manner. Hence the last few have been posted later at night just in the nick of time. 

But we have one week left, and I am determined to make it to December 25!

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So here we go…

I’ve been super stressed…everything is all happening at once and it’s taking over my festive mood. Did I mention I HATE Christmas shopping! I hate crowds, I hate having to sweat in these stores because the heat is blasting, and I hate how everything is so freaking expensive no matter where you go. Ordering online is just as bad!

I feel like this tends to happen every year. I try to start early but a million other things pop up and I can’t or i just don’t have any luck. And it becomes this massive scanner hunt to find gifts. I stress myself out and I end up being miserable.

But this year feels a little bit more difficult. I have a lot going on from all angles of my life and although most of them are good things, when you throw a holiday in the mist of everything, it’s a recipe for some serious anxiety for me. And I’m someone who loves to be festive, who loves to dress according to theme, who loves to watch Christmas movies and decorate while listening to Christmas songs and sipping on hot chocolate. And yet I haven’t done much of anything. Between all the hustle and bustle, it saddens me that life swirls by us and we never actually get to enjoy the season or the moments we’re in.

I just wish things could be different…

So in a perfect world…here is what my perfect winter day would look like…

 

Wake up early without the sound of an alarm

Make a delicious Christmas flavored tea

Make a festive breakfast

Work on a blog post… of course 🙂

Take a nice long shower and throw on some comfy clothes and slipper booties 

Tidy up

Create a festive atmosphere-play some Christmas music, plug in the Christmas tree, light a candle

Invite some friends over to watch some Christmas movies

Drink festive drinks/wine

Bake some sweet treats

Order in for dinner (easy peasy)

Play a game or two

And just chat with some good company

 

That would be perfect!

What’s your perfect day look like?

-<3-

 

BLOGMAS -Day 15- “A Husband for Christmas” [Part 3] Short Story

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A husband for christmas short story_Christmas 2017

Read Part 1 HERE & Part 2 HERE

Noel’s brown eyes flutter open as they adjust to the hospital lighting and her ears adjust to the humming of the machines.

She smiles seeing a sleeping Kris in the nearby arm chair- hair tussled, still in his suit from the night before, his jacket crunched up as a pillow, his white button down sleeves all rolled up, showing off his toned forearms. Noel stares at him, “I still can’t believe I have a husband,” she thinks to herself.

Suddenly Kris begins to stir, Noel smiles at him as he looks around confused. His eyes lock on hers and he smiles sleepily.

“Good morning sunshine,” she says with a small giggle.

He smirks and gets up walking over to her.

“Good morning,” he smirks kissing her cheek, “I’m sorry I fell asleep-“

“Please stop, you’re exhausted, your allowed to sleep,” she says smiling up at him.

“How are you feeling?” he asks taking her hand, as he pulls a small stool over to sit on beside her. 

“Pretty good,” she smiles. 

“Yea?”

“Yea, all things considered, I think I was pretty lucky.”

“Yea, absolutely, I don’t know what I would have done if-“

“Hey…I’m ok, really.” she says smiling at him as she squeezes his hand.

“I should have came and picked you up, maybe this wouldn’t have happened,” he says looking down at their hands and he touches her rings on her finger.

Noel looks on and her heart begins to break.

“Hey, this was not your fault. You didn’t do anything wrong. Shit happens, let’s just focus on the fact that I’m ok.”

“Yes of course, your right. I’m sorry,” he says looking up at her with a smirk, he pulls her hand up to his lips and kisses it softly.

Noel smiles at him.

“Hey…I can tell your exhausted why don’t you go home, and get some rest,” Noel says stroking his face.

Kris smirks at the familiar gesture.

“Are you crazy, do you honestly think I’m going to leave you?”

“I’m fine.”

“Are you trying to get rid of me?” he asks skeptically.

“No, not at all, I’m just worried about you. You couldn’t have gotten a good night sleep in that terrible chair.”

“You shouldn’t be worrying about me, just worry about your recovery, I’m fine.”

“I’m your wife, so you worry about me, and I get to worry about you, isn’t that how this whole marriage thing works?” she says narrowing her eyes at him and pursing her lips.

Kris lets out a laugh, “I suppose so,” he says leaning up and kissing her lips softly.

Noel smiles against his lips.

“Sorry,” he says pulling away, “Your just too cute, I had to.”

“Stop apologizing,” she says looking at him with a laugh.

Just then Dr. King walks in.

“Good Morning, how are we doing? Any pain, in your lower back or in your head?”

“No, I actually feel really good,” Noel says confidently.

“That’s great to here!”

Noel and Kris exchange smiles.

“I have to say, I’ve witnessed plenty of husbands sit vigil at their wives bedsides, but you sir are a trooper. These chairs are the worst.”

Kris laughs.

“I just told him the same thing, he needs to go home and get some rest,” Noel says giving Kris the eye.

Kris returns her sassy glare, “And I told you, I’m not leaving you.”

Dr. King smiles as she notices their flirtatious banter, as she make some notes in Noel’s chart after checking out her readings on the machine. 

“Come on, Holly will be up here in less than an hour, go home, get some rest, maybe a change of clothes…” 

Just then Holly walks in.

“Hi, good morning!”

“Hi,” Noel says smiling.

“Oh my god, you look great, your color is coming back,” Holly says walking over and hugging her sister.

“Thank you, I feel good,” Noel says smiling.

“Hey,” she says hugging Kris too, “So I checked on the house liked you asked, everything was fine, and I brought you a change of clothes, so you’d be more comfortable…maybe you can take a shower here? I saw a community shower outside at the end of the hall.”

Kris laughs as he looks over at Noel who’s smiling brightly as she giggles.

“See look at that we really have that sister thing going on, concussion and all.”

Holly smiles, “Go on, go! I’ve got her,” she says handing a reluctant Kris his bag.

“Ugh fine. I’ll be quick,” he says looking over at Noel, he leans over and kisses her forehead.

“Bye.” Noel says smiling.

Kris winks at her, as he walks out, he pats Holly on the shoulder.

Holly smiles at Noel.

“I’ll be back to check in on you, a little later. It seems your recovery is coming along nicely.”

“Thank you Doctor.”

Dr. King smiles and exits the room.

“So…you and Kris seem to be doing well?” Holly says her eyebrows raising.

“Yea, I think we are. He’s really sweet.”

Holly smiles knowingly.

“And super sexy.”

“There it is,” she says laughing. “So how was last night?”

“It was good, he stayed here all night, we may or may not have kissed a few times.”

“Ooo that’s good, how was that?”

“It’s weird, I feel like there’s this familiar feeling when I’m around him, like kissing him and holding his hand, it feels pretty natural. But I can’t remember anything. It’s pretty frustrating.”

“I know. But I mean I think it’s only a matter of time, before you start remembering things. Your heart knows him, your mind just needs to catch up to it. The more time you spend with him, the more you’ll remember and things will just fall into place.”

“I hope your right.” Noel says smiling.

“I usually am, another sister fact for you,” Holly and Noel share a laugh.

Noel and Holly spend time talking and Holly tells her stories of them at kids and they flip through some photo albums Holly brought.

Kris walks in a few minutes later, all showed and dressed in more comfortable clothes.

“Hey,” Noel says smiling, “Holly was just telling me some stories and showing me some pictures.

“That’s great,” Kris says smiling.

Holly smiles and stands up walking over to her bags.

“I saved the best for last,” she says handing Noel an album.

Noel looks at it and her smile widens.

“I found it on your coffee table, I figured maybe it’d be of some help.”

Kris looks over at the book. 

“Oh my gosh,” Noel says flipping through the pages, “is this a scrapbook of our life together?”

Kris nods, “Yea I made you that book as a wedding present, we just added a few wedding photos the other night.”

“I love it, we looks like we have an amazing life.”

“We do,” Kris says smiling.

Holly watches with a smile, “I’m gonna take off,”

“Holly your welcomed to stay, I’ll order us some lunch.” Kris says.

“No no, you guys need to catch up. Call me if you need anything ok,” she says hugging Kris, and then Noel.

“Thanks Holly, for everything,” Kris says.

“Yes, thank you so much, I really love looking at all these old pictures and hearing about some of our memories.”

“Anytime. Bye guys, I’ll see you tomorrow,” she says with a wave before she exits.

Noel continues flipping through her scrapbook, a smile on her lips.

Kris watches with hopeful eyes.

Noel notices his glare, “Here, come sit with me,” she says patting her bed.

“No that’s ok, you need your bed.”

“There’s room for the both of us, come on, you can keep me warm, I’m freezing,” she says smiling. 

Kris smirks and sits beside her putting his arm around her, as she snuggles up to him.

“So…how’d we meet?”

“Oh…that’s a good one.” Kris says laughing.

“Yea?”

“Yea.” 

Kris smiles at her as he begins to tell her how their love story began.

 

TO BE CONTINUED…

 

*I do not take credit for the images used in my edit.*

-<3-

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

BLOGMAS -Day 14- “A Husband for Christmas” [Part 2] Short Story

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A husband for christmas short story_Christmas 2017

Read Part 1 HERE

Kris stumbles back, his hand falling from Noel’s face.

Noel searches his face for an explanation.

“I’m sorry. I just-I’m very confused. Where am I? Am I supposed to know you?”

Kris feels his heart start to beat faster, the room begins spinning.

“Yes. I um…I’m your husband.”

Noel’s eyes widen.

“My…my husband?”

Kris closes his eyes tightly, inhaling deeply, giving himself a beat to steady his spinning sight.

Opening his eyes again his vision clears a bit and focuses on Noel’s confused expression. Kris exhales before answering.

“Yes. I’m Kris. Thornwood. And I’m your husband.”

Noel looks around the room, nervously.

“See…” he says pointing to her hospital bracelet that reads Noel Thornwood.

Noel looks and the shock is still unwavering.

“You don’t… remember marrying me?” he asks his heart breaking.

“No…I’m sorry…I don’t even know what’s going on. But I do know that my head is pounding,” she says bringing her hands to her temple.

“You were in an accident. The doctors said you suffered some head injuries and internal bleeding.”

“Oh my god,” Noel says still hazy.

Dr. King walks in, “Hello, Welcome back Mrs. Thornwood, how are we feeling?” she says walking over to the bed where Noel lies in confusion and frustration.

“She’s having trouble remembering some things,” Kris says trying to remain calm.

“Oh well that’s to be expected, you do have a concussion,” Dr. King says looking at Noel.

“She’s having trouble remembering me,” Kris says looking over at the doctor with sad eyes.

Dr. King freezes and looks at Kris.

“Is that true?” She asks looking at Noel again, as she takes out a small flash light, and shines it into Noel’s eyes, waving her index finger in front of her, and Noel’s eyes follow.

“Yes. I don’t remember him, or being married, or even the accident that put me here. I can’t even tell you what I did yesterday,” she says nervously.

“Ok. Well that can happen sometimes with concussions, and due to the accident, you have a mild one, but memory loss can still be a side effect. When you were first brought in, we didn’t know what we were dealing with or how severe your injuries were. We were worried you’d have to have surgery but thankfully after a few tests, there was no bleeding or swelling in the brain. But you suffered blunt trauma, and in turn had abdominal internal bleeding due to the impact of the other car, you must have been thrown around a bit. We had to go in and stop the bleeding before it got worse. The bleeding was from your spleen, but we were able to repair it.”

“Oh my goodness,” Noel says confused and worried.

“She’s going to be okay though, right doctor?” Kris asks worry evident in his voice and on his face.

“Yes, she’s going to be just fine.” Dr. King says smiling.

“But what about my memory?” Noel says her nerves building up.

“You just suffered a traumatic experience, it’s normal for you to be a little foggy right now. There’s no reason to be alarmed.”

“So I should get my memory back soon?”

“Just give yourself some time, you need to rest,” she says looking over at Kris.

“Doctor King, she was complaining about a headache. Is there anything you can give her?”

“Of course, I will have the nurse come in and give you some Tylenol.”

“Thank you Doctor,” Kris says.

“I’ll give you two a minute,” she says exiting the room.

Kris looks over at Noel, he instinctively reaches for her hand.

Noel flinches slightly.

Kris pulls his hand away.

“I’m sorry, it’s out of habit I guess. I didn’t mean to make you feel uncomfortable.”

“No, that’s ok.” Noel says looking away sheepishly.

Kris looks around not knowing what to do, or how to act.

Just then the nurse comes in.

“Hello, My name is Fiona and I will be your nurse tonight, I have some Tylenol to help you out with that headache, ok?”

Noel nods.

“I’m just going to step out for a minute,” Kris says rushing out of the room. Noel notices and immediately feels bad.

Jack springs up quickly, “Hey how is she?”

“She doesn’t remember me.”

“What?” Jack says taken back.

Kris starts to hyperventilate, as he leans against the wall, gasping for air.

“She doesn’t…remember me.” he says tears streaming down his face.

Jack catches his friend, before he falls, as they slide to the floor.

The hospital doors open and a young brunette woman rushes in.

She spots them, and she runs over.

“Kris!”

Kris looks and springs up pulling her into a hug, “Holly. Thank god your here. I’m so sorry I had to text you like that. I just didn’t have any details and I was just trying to get to her as fast as I could.”

“No stop it, don’t worry. I’m glad you told me. Of course I’m here. Where is she? Is she ok?”

Kris pulls away and looks at her, “She’s ok, but she doesn’t remember anything.”

“What do you mean… she doesn’t remember the accident?”

“She doesn’t remember me.”

“Oh my god…Oh…my god,” she says pulling him into another hug, holding him tightly.

“She’s in there, if you wanna go see her, maybe she’ll remember you,” he says wiping at the tears as they fall.

“Ok. I’ll give it a shot,” she says looking at him with sympathetic, caring eyes. “Hey…we’re gonna get her through this though…she loves you so much, you know that.”

Kris nods, as Holly lets his hand go and walks into the hospital room.

“Knock, knock…” She says walking in.

Noel looks at her puzzled.

“Hi,” she says with a smile.

“Hello,” Noel says confused.

“I’m guessing my face doesn’t ring a bell either, huh?” she says with a slight smile.

“No, I’m so sorry.”

She smiles and takes out her cell phone and shows her a picture of the two of them as babies.

“I’m Holly, I’m your sister.”

“I have a sister?” Noel asks.

Holly nods.

“Any other siblings I should know about?” Noel says with a small laugh.

“Nope, just you and me.”

“What about our mom and dad?” Noel asks looking at Holly with expectation.

“We lost them a few years back. It was unexpected.”

“Oh that’s terrible,” Noel says sadly.

“Yea, it’s been pretty hard, but you met Kris and he kind of pulled you out of your rut and brought you back to life.”

“Kris as in my…”

“Husband? Yes.”

“I’m really married?” Noel asks with a smile in her voice.

“Oh yea,” Holly says smiling.

“Do you have any pictures of my wedding?”

“But of course… I was your maid of honor after all?” she says smiling and scrolling through her phone. “Here you go,” she says showing her a picture of she and Kris kissing.

“Wow. I look so happy,” Noel says smiling.

“Yea. Well you really love him.” Holly says smiling.

Noel looks at her.

“And just so you know, he loves you too…so much.”

Noel looks back at the picture, wishing she could just remember something.

Just outside, Jack sits on the floor trying to calm Kris down.

The nurse comes over to them, “Mr. Thornwood…”

Kris looks up, and stands up quickly.

“These are all your wife’s belongings,” she says handing him a clear bag.

“Thank you,” he says taking it.

Kris turns to Jack. “I’m just gonna take a minute. I’ll be right back.”

Jack nods. “I’ll be here, let me know if you need anything.”

“Thanks,” he says patting Jack on the back as a thank you.

Kris walks into the men’s room, setting the bag on the sink counter. He beings to sift through it. First he pulls out her red pumps, emerald green dress, and then her lacey red lingerie. Kris stops and stares at it, smiling, he whispers, “I knew she was wearing it,” remembering their conversation from earlier.

“Please tell me your wearing that sexy red lingerie I bought you?”
Noel gasps, Kris laughs.
“You better be alone right now,” she says.
“Baby I think I can actually hear you blushing,” he says with a chuckle.
“Shut up,” she says laughing.

Kris’ eyes begin to tear up again, he fights them back as he continues looking through the bag. Pulling out her purse, cellphone, and then her engagement ring and wedding band.

Kris stares at them,  holding them in his palm, they sparkle reflecting the light.

An image of Noel’s tearful yet smiling face pops into his mind as he remembers getting down on one knee.

“Baby… come back to me, ” he whispers.

Just then Kris hears a knock on the door.

He places the rings in his pocket, and grabs everything else, before opening the door.

“Hey,” Holly says smiling.

“Hey, any luck?” Kris asks stepping out.

“Nope, but she’s asking for you.”

Kris smiles faintly as he walks away toward Noel’s room.

“Hey,” he says walking in cautiously.

“Hi,” Noel says with a small smile noticing Kris’ tear stained cheeks.

“What’s that?” she says pointing to the bag in his hand.

“This is just all the stuff you came in with, the nurse just gave me it.”

“Oh…what’s in it?”

Kris walks over and hands the bag to his wife.

She begins to pull each item out.

“Well, that’s pretty sexy,” she says laughing as she pulls out the lacey red bra.

Kris laughs. “Yes, it is.”

“Where was I going exactly?” she says smiling.

“You were meeting me at my holiday party for work.”

“Wearing this?” she asks her eyebrows raising.

“It’s kind of a thing, I by you lingerie before every Christmas. And you wear it every year under some insanely hot dress at my holiday party. And then well…we…”

Noel smirks, crossing her arms, as she waits for him to finish.

“We?” she says smiling.

“We kind of have our own little celebration later that night, I rent a hotel room, we order room service, it’s like our own little sexy holiday tradition. I know it probably sounds silly…” he says looking away.

“No. It sounds fun.”

Kris looks up at her, their eyes locking, he smiles.

“I’m sorry we didn’t get to that, this year.”

“Hey the year’s not over yet,” he says.

Noel smiles, as her cheeks blush a pretty shade of pink. 

“So how long have we been married?” Noel asks.

“We actually just got married a month ago.”

“Oh…wow…so we’re newly weds.”

“Yup…” he says pulling out her rings from his pocket and handing them to her.

“Wow, they’re gorgeous,” she says admiring them.

“You don’t have to wear them yet, if you don’t want to,” he says nervously.

“Don’t be silly, I would love to wear them,” she says smiling as she hands them back to him.

He looks at her confused.

Noel holds her hand out, waiting.

“Aren’t you going to put them on me?”

“Oh of course,” her says smiling as he slides the rings onto her red manicured finger.

Kris leans in and cupping her face, he places a kiss on her lips.

Although caught off guard, Noel doesn’t flinch this time. 

Kris places his forehead against hers, looking into her eyes, he sighs, “I’m sorry, I just, I couldn’t help myself,” he says.

Noel smiles.

“I really do wish I could remember, I don’t want to hurt you.”

“Hey, I got you to fall in love with me once, I can do it again.”

Noel looks up at him, and pulls him in by his jacket, kissing him again. 

Kris wraps his arms around her waist pulling her closer to him, as he kisses her. Noel falls into it as she circles her hands around his neck.

Dr. King walks in.

“Oh I’m sorry.” 

Kris pulls away, as Noel blushes. 

“Are we getting our memory back already?” she says smiling and walking over.

“Not just yet,” Noel says looking away with a laugh.

“Oh…”

“Hey if you woke up to this gorgeous guy saying he was your husband, would you question that?” Noel asks.

Kris looks at her, smirking.

Dr. King, smiles, “Well you have a good point and a sense of humor, that’s fantastic.” 

Noel smiles. 

“I just wanted to check on you and do some blood work and routine stuff. Check your reflexes, things like that.”

“Ok,” Noel says smiling.

“Dr. King how long do you have to keep her here?”

“Once I get all the results back from the follow up tests, and I’m able to give her the all clear, you’ll be able to take her home…I’m thinking in a day or two.”

“Really?” Kris says smiling, “that’s fantastic.” 

Noel smiles rubbing his back, he turns smiling as she reaches for his hand.

He takes it, looking down at their hands, he smirks liking the way her rings sparkle on her finger…right where they belong. 

 

TO BE CONTINUED…

 

*I do not take credit for any images used in my edit.*
-<3-

 

 

 

 

 

 

BLOGMAS -Day 8- A Christmas Story

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I’ve been showing A Christmas Story in my Film Club class and I thought it’d be a fun little idea to try and make a poem out of some of the classic’s most pivotal moments. 

 

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Christmas season

Lights are gleaming

Stories on the screen unfold

Family to have and hold

Every Christmas

Watch with new eyes

Laughing at their jokes

Pink Bunny suit

Mean Santa too

Young boy’s tongue stuck to a frozen pole

In response to a “I triple dog dare you!”

Bundled up in the snow mounds

Randy screaming- “I can’t put my arms down!”

Flats tires 

Christmas jingles 

“Oh Fudge!”

Bullies coming to mingle

“Fra-gee-lay…

It must be Italian”

Fluorescent leg wearing fishnet stockings

Red Ryder BB Gun

Ralphie is just dying for one

Parents, Santa, Teachers say with a pout…

“You’ll shoot your eye out!”

Broken glasses

Icicle lies

Still a Merry Christmas to Ralphie’s surprise. 

 

-<3-

 

 

BLOGMAS -Day 7- Single in Season

 

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Week One Down!

 

Christmas. 

Such a magical, special, beautiful time.dajf0[1]

Twinkling lights.

Happy tunes.

Nostalgic movies.

Tasty treats.

Decorations galore.

Glitter and glee everywhere.

Right?

A time full of love and laughter.

Family and friendship.

And for some- that extra special love that just makes this time of year burst with happiness and cheer.

Whether it’s a Boyfriend, Fiancé, or Husband, it’s just somehow perceived as “better” with that person.

Right? 

But what do you do… if your single?

Because how is it that around the holidays being single, just feels even more prominent?

Mistletoe kisses.

In front of the tree pictures.

Family gatherings have everyone paired off.

And there you are, alone.

Ugh, of course. 

Here we go again.

And I’m supposed to be cheerful and happy?

I’m going to be really real here…

I’m not going to act like it doesn’t bother me. 

It definitely does.

I love romance, I love the idea that two people can fall so much in love with each other that they realize they have the only one they want to be with, forever.

I have always felt that way.

In my heart of hearts, I love, love. 

And being around so many people who have that, when I currently do not, definitely weighs on a girl. 

And you start to question…will I ever get my chance? My guy? My moment? My love?

I’m sure many of you ladies can relate.

And I will admit there are moments within the holiday season where I will feel my heart ache, and I will wish I had that special guy sitting next to me holding my hand, or look over to see him chatting with my guy cousins (who are probably ranking on him, because that’s what they do). Or baking cookies and wishing I could ask his opinion, or someone to just do all the holiday greatness with- like shopping for gifts, seeing the Christmas lights, or visiting Rockefeller center, or helping me conquer my current fear of ice skating. Or simply just sitting on the couch watching Home Alone in Christmas PJ’s.

Now that I think about it, I’m quite sappy. Haha. But hey I don’t care. You can’t regret what you want, if it’s really something truthful in your heart. And that is the image I have in my heart when I think about being in love during the holidays.

But then I look around and I realize having a relationship would only add to my already happy holidays. My family is crazy. And every year feels the same. Stressful and rushed. 

But I love my family. I love my holidays. 

I love visiting family, going to church, baking goodies, exchanging gifts, sipping hot chocolate, eating my heart out.

I love dressing in silly t-shirts or ugly sweaters and other crazy accessories [See: antlers & Christmas light necklace], chatting with my cousins, playing with the kiddies, and still finding A Christmas Story Christmas Day Marathon to be the greatest thing ever.

I love our bootleg chimney with our old school stockings.

I love my best friend Christmas day I have every year with my best friend Roe!

I love the holidays.

And as much as I may have my moments of sadness at times, I don’t think I would want to ever take the memories I have away, even though I’m single.

Sometimes you have to look at what you do have, and focus on that, rather than focus on what you don’t have. 

Happy Holidays, my singles, we got this! 😉

-<3-

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Everything’s Coming Up Pumpkin

Who’s excited for Fall??? I know I am! It is my favorite time of year. With the first day of Fall coming up tomorrow, I decided to survey some of the many things that have been sprinkled with pumpkin flavor. These are the items I feel- I’d be most likely to actually try, because let’s be serious some things just should not be pumpkin flavored- ie: gum, cough drops, Listerine. But these following products all look delicious and I would certainly try them!

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Do you like pumpkin spice, if so what’s your favorite pumpkin flavored sweet?

 

*I do not take credit for any images used.*

-<3-

Video Update

There are often so many areas of life we feel we need to be good at all the time. And often times we struggle trying to make that happen. It’s impossible. You can do anything but not everything. You can be anything, but you can’t be everything, to everyone, all the time. If you try to, you will break.

As the summer comes to an end, the self-bashing comes for not doing half of the things I wanted to. Summer is kind of like New Year’s Eve in that way, don’t you think? We make so many promises to ourselves and then life happens.

I’ve been really thinking about my relationship with video and film making. And because of this, I’ve learned a few things. I wanted to get really real with myself about this topic.
To back track just a bit, I have a Bachelor of Arts degree. I studied Mass Communications with a concentration in Film and Broadcasting. The dream-the goal- to write for television. And yet when I look at all the video projects I’ve actually finished…the total number is not many. Many unfinished scripts/ideas for scripts collecting dust too!

Back in college, I had to do a few projects- one was a music video which I did for The Civil War’s Poison & Wine and the other was a concept video which was about throwing away stereotypes- it was very abstract and I titled it “Tearing Down The Label Makers.” It’s crazy because I feel like the message holds even more relevance today. Then I worked on my thesis which as you may know was a documentary about a day/or days in the life of my Grandmother who had been struggling with Alzheimer’s disease. I did two versions of that for two separate classes- one was the full version, and one was an abridged trailer version entitled Vai Com Deus.

“Poison & Wine” Video Shoot-

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“Tearing Down The Label Makers” Video Shoot-

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Neither the music video nor the concept video have been uploaded to YouTube, although considering these two were my very first video projects I am still very proud of how they came out and the messages behind them. I’m seriously considering sharing them. Providing the actors give their permission for me to do so, actually I’m pretty sure I had them all sign release forms!

During my college years I also attempted to shoot a script I wrote called Dumb Luck. A lot of time and production went into that but, it never got finished and the footage has been difficult to revive since my college computer died on me and I’ve gotten a new one. I am hoping to revive that and get that up, it’s super raw,  and you can definitely tell I was just starting out but the story is juicy. We only got to shoot the montage sequence. But a few years ago I shared the script, if you’d like to read that…click HERE.

“Dumb Luck” Prop Pictures

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“Vai Com Deus” process-

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Since I graduated I’ve done a few little side projects that are actually finished- I shot a yoga video for my cousin, a poetry video for MLW- to name a few and a couple of vlogs. The vlogs are less planned and less cinematic of course.

Yoga Video Shoot (Behind the Scenes) (this is not available to watch,  even though she was happy with the result-the video was for a school assignment and my cousin didn’t want it uploaded.)

“Secret” Society Video Shoot/Vlogs (Behind the Scenes)

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Then there are more video attempts- there are bits of footage shot for a zombie horror short that my brother and I had been working on. We even got as far as building a timeline of the clips in editing, but then…life. Life came in, things got busy, I got distracted and something else needed my attention.

“Inhumane” process- (Behind the Scenes)

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Its 4 years now since I graduated and it seems that every time I get close to the idea of shooting something- I may do well for a brief time but then cue the rut.

The other day I was going through some old paperwork and things, trying to organize my room and I came across some old scripts and video treatments/storyboards. Both were horror related. One was the zombie short titled Inhumane, the other titled Head Over Heels (which I think would be a bad ass Halloween upload). And when I see these scripts and how the planning process was beginning it makes me want to get back into video. But then I hit a wall and the reality sinks in. There’s just no realistic way. For the past-I want to say 2 years- I have been well involved/invested in the engagements, weddings, bridal/baby showers of many people that are very close to me. And I have had to really dedicate my time and my funds to them. When I think about doing something short/simple- I think how I don’t have the actors, or the equipment, to do so.

I know I’ve mentioned this before, my brother is a photographer and he has a lot of equipment that I’ve used in the past. But I’m very weird about using it, mostly because he’s very particular about it, lol. And I get nervous I’ll do something wrong! And so because of that I am very weird about asking him for help. I feel like it’s a burden, especially now that he is newly married and he and his wife are expecting their first child. Even though he has been hounding me to get back into shooting Inhumane, I know he simply doesn’t have the time, we don’t have the people, and quite honestly there are just so many other things I’d love to shoot instead. #HeadOverHeels #MysteriousAttractionTeaser

I also don’t have the best sound equipment or the best editing software either so it’s kind of like a million things weighing against me. I think about how people would perceive the work I put out. “Didn’t she go to school for film and video? This sucks!” That’s how I feel they would judge it. Along with all the other worries, I fear I may not be good enough at it.

I know this may seem like I’m complaining and I’m not. I don’t want pity. I understand that life is fast paced and ever changing. I love being asked to be part of special moments in people’s lives. People who mean the world to me. But sometimes when everything seems to happen all at once it can be very overwhelming. And we all know that I can get overwhelmed pretty easily and my anxiety definitely tends to spike a lot more when too much change is happening.

I just think that in life you often have to prioritize and these things in my life have been coming one after the other and they need special attention. I’m the type of person who really wants to show up for you on your special day/during your special time. My relationships with my family and friends are everything to me. And so I give 150% every time. (Or at least I really try too!)

With my bank accountant taking some serious hits over the past few years, lol-so has my time management skills. I can multi task…sure…just ask my computer- I can have 8 different tabs open at once and hit all of them. But I can’t say with absolute confidence that I can multi task well all the time. I just end up overwhelming myself and needing to narrow things down. Focus on one thing at a time. Rightfully so…no? I mean how much wedding/baby events/day to day responsibilities can one girl take at once? Ya know? It’s a lot. But thankfully, thank god it’s mostly beautiful, happy stuff, all deserving of celebration. I will always be grateful for that.

Needless to say I know there are ways around this funk I’ve created for myself. I know that fear of inadequacy, lack of funds and time are a huge part of why video has taken a back seat. But I want to try and make some solutions to these problems.

Dear Michelle,

ACTORS ask people I know/ research sites that can help find actors willing to participate for low funds or pizza! Haha. Asking people you know, can be difficult, it doesn’t always work out. My film and video professor used to always tell us to have a plan B because people aren’t always reliable and it can break your heart when a project falls through the cracks. This I know first hand. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve asked family or friends to be apart of shorts and they cancelled on me because of work or life in general got in the way. It happens, I get it. But creatively, it’s heart breaking. Another thing to consider when filming is to keep the shorts abstract- quick cuts- simple images-

Avant Garde it- experimental film, experimental cinema- a mode of filmmaking that rigorously re-evaluates cinematic conventions and explores non-narrative forms and alternatives to traditional narratives or methods of working.

TIME make time- plain and simple. Plan it out, and stick to a schedule.

SPACE/LOCATION keep it local, go where you know- use people’s homes, lol.

FUNDS keep things simple/super low budget- use house hold items.

EQUIPMENT use equipment you have, or ask to borrow equipment in advance.

EDITING SOFTWARE use what you have and make it work.

FEAR“Never let the fear of striking out, keep you from playing the game.” -A Cinderella Story. Your never going to not be fearful of new challenges. You just have to decide how bad you want it, and be brave enough to just do it, to hell with what people think! 

When you’re just starting out, or easing back into something Don’t Expect Perfection! If things are a little janky, it’s ok, it’s better to shoot footage than not try at all. And Vlogs do count. I’ve noticed I like vlogging when I have some cool things to do, I just have to get better at the editing turn around. Mini Vlogmas is still only partially edited. :/ As is the Gender Reveal Party Vlog for my brother and sister in law and a Family Trip Vlog to Great Wolf Lodge we took last Summer. I also shot a bunch of footage of a Polar Express Trip and my best friend’s engagement night. Really got to get back to editing!!!!

*Current Update– Since I last scheduled this post (which was a while ago back in the Summer when I was what I like to call bulk blogging) I have edited my butt off and have finished editing Vlogmas, The Gender Reveal, The Great Wolf Lodge Trip and The Engagement. I however am torn as to whether or not I should post them on YouTube/link them on this blog. I know have alluded to the fact that I would post them, I’ve mentioned it in many blog posts [including the Vlogmas announcement], however I am not the only person in them and I don’t know if others would appreciate their images being out on the internet. I know- why announce Vlogmas, take forever to edit them, and then never post them. The truth is I did do a small Vlogmas, and I did edit them, but I don’t feel 100% comfortable sharing videos of my family. I may just keep them as home movies for me, and my friends and family. But I am excited that I got so many of them done. That’s a win for me!

When things start to settle down on the wedding/baby front, I will start to save up for some new equipment. In the mean time, I just have to do it. Pick up the camera I do have and shoot something. Stop worrying about how crappy it might turn out and just dive in. I know I’ll feel better once I do. And the excitement and natural high of doing something I love will come back. I just need to do and stop second guessing, stop making excuses and just use the time I do have for myself wisely.

The reason for this long winded post is because I needed it. Sometimes you need to reflect on all the ways you let life pass you by in order to make you realize that you need to try a little harder to make your dreams come true. Be a bulldozer – and plow through the writer’s block, through the lack of inspiration, through the Summer Blues, through the funk that I’ve been in, and just go for it!

So here’s hoping to change my mind set! Wish me luck. No Scratch that- Wish me determination!

 

*All images and videos are my own.*

-<3-

 

Taylor Swift- “Look What You Made Me Do” Video Premiere

Taylor Swift made tongues start talking once again, after premiering her Music Video for her latest single Look What You Made Me Do at the 2017 Video Music Awards this past Sunday.

Although Swift was not there to present it, (definitely a strategic move on her part #LetTheMusicDoTheTalking) her presence was largely felt in the strong images on the screen.

The video opens up in a cemetery with a zombified Taylor clawing her way out of her grave which reads “Here Lies Taylor Swift’s Reputation.” And the dark levels of imagery do not stop there, as Zombie Taylor proceeds to shovel dirt on top of her more “nice girl” self, lying there peaceful, arms crossed.

There’s a massive car crash scene, a scene where Taylor swings on a swing literally inside of a gold cage, robs a bank, lifts motorcycles with her bare hands, builds a squad of robots, and then dominates a dance routine in a sexy black number. Seriously though, my fav look of hers from the video. When I heard this song, this is the look I pictured her in.

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Needless to say, Taylor GOES ALL IN for this video. She calls out EVERYONE! Even herself.

At the 2:21 mark in the video, where Taylor begins singing the Bridge-

I don’t trust nobody and nobody trusts me
I’ll be the actress starring in your bad dreams

and then hitting us with the infamous line-

“I’m sorry, the old Taylor can’t come to the phone right now.”
“Why?”
“Oh, ’cause she’s dead!” (ohh!)

the hair on my arms stood up as I got the chills as we see current Taylor standing on a pyramid of past versions of herself- the fallen Taylors if you will, all clawing to stay alive as they battle it out for the top spot- eventually losing their grip.

As if that visual wasn’t enough to convince us that Taylor has completely transformed into a “Give No Fucks” kinda girl, we then get a real treat at the end of the video as we see all the different versions of Taylor cat fighting, so to speak. We see sweet country singer Taylor calling everybody ya’ll and trying to keep the peace, we see circus ring leader Taylor bully her and call her fake, biker Taylor call her out for “playing the victim,” “snake lover Taylor” hissing, and many others who some may say call out the disses made about her by other famous celebs. It’s as if a tell all and a satire had a baby and this was the result. It is dynamite and ballsy as all hell. Hats off girl, speak your truth. #WEWILLLISTEN  

And yes there are tons of countless little references and hidden/not so hidden Easter eggs that point directly to the many people who have contributed to the down fall of the old, nice girl Taylor Swift. I won’t go into speculations, because let’s face it the internet is already going into overdrive with theories. Watch that video a ton of times and you won’t be able to unseen them! But girl damn. I am so intrigued by the route she is taking. I feel like she is pretty much a genius strategist. I don’t think she has really spoken out about anything publically regarding her new material and quite frankly I don’t see her doing so for this record. She’s lost all faith in the media to tell her story and do it justice.

In one of her latest social media posts, Taylor announced that her new album Reputation will be sold in partnership with Target. And with the album, fans will be able to purchase two collector magazines, which give them an insight into her creative process. Kind of like the personal voicemails she released on 1989 regarding how she wrote some of her lyrics, but more visual. The caption of the cover art for the magazine reading… There will be no further explanation. There will just be reputation.

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All of her posts have been quiet formal, very commercial. Almost a disconnect there. I think she is done with sharing her personal life, because somehow the media always spins it and she ends up adding fuel to the fire that others have taken and burned her with. I look forward to seeing more of THIS Taylor’s journey. It may be scaring the living daylights out of me, but I am in it and ready to see what you got for us TS.

Until we meet her next move.

xo

 

-<3-