So a lot of the times my family will read something I’ve written and they’ll ask me “where did you come up with that?” And honestly often times I can’t really give an answer, it’s difficult to pin point why you write something at a given moment. As a writer (and I use that term veryyyy loosely…because I know I have a long way to go) you tend to have a lot of thoughts floating around in your head and some just stick around longer than others. Something usually just triggers a thought. For instance this next poem was inspired by a few lines of a song that I fell in love with a long time ago. There was this show on tv a while back called Instant Star (only the really cool people will know what I’m talking about) lol and I was kind of obsessed with it.  The girl on it has an incredible voice, she’s seriously under-appreciated she deserves to be like up there with the likes of Christina and Mariah.  I’m just sayin’. 😉 Anyhow her name is

Alexz Johnson and she’s amazing.

The song is called “Where Does it Hurt,” and

the lyrics are:

Where does it hurt.
When you open your heart there’s always so much to lose.
So far to fall and no where to go when it’s true.

Read the rest of her lyrics HERE

For the longest time I had thought she was singing so “Fight to Fall” and I thought that was beautiful so I kind of just rolled with it. Regardless the song is beautiful on its own even though I had a lyrical mess up for a few years lol. Hey that happens!

“Fight to Fall”

Put your heart on the line

There’s always so much to lose

Still, fight to fall

Fall… like you don’t have a choice

Even though he’s the only choice you’d choose

Fall…like it’s your job

like it’s the air you breathe

or the scent of your favorite flower

Fall…like it’s your favorite food

like it’s a rare opportunity

You don’t need gravity

to fall faster

It’s already happening

With one look

When your eyes meet by accident

But it’s the possibility of a beautiful disaster

that’s so frightening

-<3-

Black…

White…

Lack of color

Right…

Wrong…

Ashamed of feeling

Isn’t it all the same though

No one really knows what they’re doing anyway

You try and you fail

You stumble and fall

But somehow the getting back up isn’t as hard as you thought

once the red seeps in

Somewhere along the way

Between all the vacant shapes

and faceless names

That color creeps in

washing over you

Bright and Red

Full of life and confusion

the color of true blood

leading to a heart

A heart beating for you

in that bright bright red

A lover’s red

Can you see it?

can you feel it?

To want that

 Black, White,  and Red Love

is to know there’s more for you out there

The kind of thing worth seeing

worth feeling

The kind of love you can’t get enough of

the kind that makes you weak in the knees

A whisper love…not too soft…not too loud

but just enough to make you see Red

Black and White is the norm

The typical side of it all

The red is the essence

the love meets the lust

the laughs in the tears

 the smiles in the frowns

the good in the bad

the spontaneity in the routine

the push meets the pull in a lover’s eyes

The red can take you far away

to a land where love is free

Free to explore all of it’s possibilities

The shelter from the storm surrounding you

Hold on tightly

They say love is blind

But even so, if it’s true love

You will see that Red

Isn’t it unfortunate

How we’re conditioned to speak in code

To say your  fine when you’re not

Hiding what you want to say

hiding your truth

When all’s that adds up to is wasted time

Time that could have been better spent seeing Red

You’re like an old vinyl record playing through the air

To want that Black, White and RED Love

You’ll have to wait patiently

-<3-

Thank you to Taylor Swift’s inspiration…

Listen to her song RED

Dear Self,

                                    It’s nice to meet you…

   Can I let myself be…

Will that set me free?

Can I let myself cry…

Would it be alright?

Can I let myself know…

What I’ve tried to avoid?

Can I offer up a reason…

or will it be too late to explain the unexplainable?

Don’t be afraid to hope…

Hope is where the heart is

-<3-

“New Arrival”

Tiny Fingers

Tiny Toes

Watched you blossom

Watched you grow

Little Baby

You’ve brightened up their day

and placed a smile on her face

The glow is clear

It won’t wash away

Never will

Not even comes “May”

You shall be here one day soon

A few short weeks

What a surprise,

what a treat!

Can’t wait to meet you

Little Baby

Don’t you see

Boy or Girl

They are happy as can be

Blessed Baby

Sweetie Pie

Your family is waiting

so don’t be shy

Cousins to play with

Abby awaits you too

Grandparents so thrilled

Happiness will always surround you

Little Baby

Come say hi

We all can’t wait to meet you

Don’t even ask why

Liam or Sophia

Boy or Girl

Little Baby

Either way you’re a

Little Miracle

-<3-

Have you ever felt completely disconnected from the world around you?

Like the whole world is in on some big secret that you’re unaware of…

and you’re walking around aimlessly

watching them as they laugh at you.

And you wonder

Will I ever make it?

Will it ever get easier?

Or you know what…screw it,

maybe I’m just  a little different?

  -<3-

She shy’s away from the spotlight

the light too bright for hazel eyes

Fluorescent bulbs weaken her heart

too telling, too evasive

In her wonder, in her awe, in her heavy heart

She questions opportunity

She questions sincerity

Caring too much of what others may think

Sometimes…many times, she hides

And she likes it that way

It’s comforting

Sunglasses block out those rays

Not being noticed is her safety net

As she drowns in her thoughts

Sometimes they’re all she has

Existence is just a fragment of knowledge

Invisibility cloak bought and polished

She thinks …Loss is less likely that way

But gaining happiness isn’t achieved that way either

She may run…

she may run fast

Loneliness

a girl with a half empty glass

Run… will she take a risk?

Before it’s too late?

Stay…will she figure herself out?

Love…will it ever happen…will it ever last?

Love… Before he moves on

Hazel eyes shut tight

Far away from home

as she slowly distances herself

The spotlight blinds, oh how it blinds

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-<3-

In God’s Hands

Holding Back

Look Away

Sick with worry

Mistrust in fate

It’s difficult to trust the things you do not know

But take a leap

make the jump

If you trip

you may fall

Just know that he will help you

through it all

He is the holder

of your happiness

He will watch over you, regardless

His love is unconditional

Never wavering

And one day you will meet him and thank him

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-<3-

Start with “Hello”

Premature Love…

It’s all in my head

A moment in time

is all it takes

To have what you’ve always missed

A look

A laugh

A touch

A dream

A wish

It’s something new, something different

Keep your eyes on me

Forgive me if I lose focus

I’ve never had to deal with this

Nothing I expected

Nothing I envisioned

But somehow you’ve heightened my expectations

I still wonder

I still doubt

Checking in fantasies

and screaming out loud

But now it’s back to reality

a place I’ve always known

So let’s keep it simple

and start with “Hello”

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-<3-

Enough is enough

No more negativity

It’s just useless emotion

When it’s not directed toward creativity

Honor your life

Breathe in every scent

Hear every song

Feel the love of those around you

See the things you’ve ignored

living your life with closed eyes

Everyday is a gift

every moment a prize

Sometimes life is too short

Time flies by often

It’s easy to forget

But try to remember

3 words, 8 letters

Are always with you

Because I Love You…

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Would You?

Would you give it time?

Would you speak your mind?

Would you give it life?

Would you heal the space between those lies?

Would you bend or break?

Would you cry or yell?

Would you imagine a better hell?

Afraid to say

the words you cannot hide

uneasy feelings

its written all over your face

those thoughts that bind

Those lost unspoken words

in the distance between you and I.

-<3-

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