So just before summer ended, I finally caught Pocahontas on tv. I was super excited because I had been dying to watch it for some reason. I hadn’t seen it in years. But I’ve always loved it, and I was always fascinated by the Indian culture and the song “Colors of the Wind.”

Every Disney film, circles around a princess and her quest to endure, fall in or let go of love. And the tale of Pocahontas is no exception. It explores the differences of the American and the Native American. The commercialized building builders hunting for greed and gold vs. the people of the land that bear the significance of the wind and trees and soil beneath their feet, the people who have made the outdoors their home. It’s a simpler life, a natural life. When John Smith meets Pocahontas those two worlds collide, and a true love is born. She teaches him just how valuable natural life and land actually is, and just how meaningless gold and greed are.  I think it’s safe to say that John Smith learned quite a lot.

*Spoiler Alert… I’m about to talk about the ending so if you haven’t seen it…wait who am I kidding if you haven’t seen it you’re living under a rock and a very sheltered life 😉

The only thing that bothered me, or should I say left me feeling a bit uneasy was the end.

John Smith ends up getting injured badly, due to the rival between his world and Pocahontas’ world. And therefore he is set to leave back home, leaving a heartbroken Pocahontas behind. Mind you at first he wishes to stay, stay in her land with her. But they both know it is not an option, for his wound is too severe for the restrictions of their native lands. Then he tries to ask her to come with him, but she declines stating her place is on her land, with her people, and her family; they need her.

In a tearjerker ending John Smith sets sail home, after promising they’d always be with each other and as the boat sails off, Pocahontas rushes to the edge of the cliff overlooking to watch. As “Colors of the Wind” plays once again.

In a way I understand the end, as an adult, I completely agree with her decision. Sure she fell in love, but he was a man she just met. Her family has been with her, has been there for her, and has been her foundation for her entire life. And her land is her home.

But that ending also gives hope, that regardless of the distance between the two, they will always be connected spiritually, which when you really think about it…is a beautiful concept. And one that really puts Disney at a higher level.

So end result…

I’ve decided I just want to be Pocahontas for a day.

😀

“Heels are a male’s invention to make a woman’s butt look smaller

and to make it harder for them to run away”- She’s the Man

**Huh, Why would they want to make it smaller???? #babygotback** 😛

Heels… the last piece of an outfit, a way to nicely tie it up, to pull everything  together.

I love heels, but I wish I could say I love them enough to wear them throughout life, often times I can’t even make it through a night! lol

I remember going to my classes and seeing some girls in heels like… it’s a Wednesday afternoon and your sitting in a classroom, what’s with the heels? I just never understood the reasoning behind it. Oh… fashion statement…that’s it!

It’s not that I don’t like adding a little heel to an outfit, I’ve just never been the shoe obsessed type of girl. And I do think there is a time and a place for the heel. Sometimes sitting in the middle of a film class just doesn’t call for a stiletto. Hell at least not for me. I’d rather not have my feet killing me, and having to worry about trying not to be clumsy!  I’d rather rock my flats and be able to do what I have to do, or in the case of an event (where rocking heels makes more sense) dance and truly enjoy myself…

But then again, as a girly girl I do understand, that sometimes an outfit just needs heels! Heels make an outfit go from cute to sexyyy!

And let’s be honest ladies…that’s a good feeling! 😉

So my advice? Wear the heels (maybe not to school,) BUT bring BACKUP FLATS!!!! Trust me it’ll save your life (and your pinky toes!)

What can I say I was raised a practical chick! lol

However, shout out to all my girls who can rock heels to the fullest!

I applaud you!

Strut off, and dance the night away (with or without your heels!)

-<3-

“Women need to be more confident in who they are. It used to be the men had to be gentlemen in order to get one girl’s attention, and now it’s like reversed. Now it’s like they’re disrespectful and then they’re just kind of there, it’s crazy to me. That’s why my girls are my everything, and we’re not afraid to just be confident in who we are, and if a gentlemen can’t handle that…then that’s not my problem.”

Selena Gomez… an actress. a singer. and from what I can see a Disney star that is graciously embracing maturity. We’ve all seen the whole Disney star gone a rye time after time…in fact that very thing has been said recently about Miley Cyrus and her latest image change, yea let’s stick with that…image change. Nothing more, nothing less. I am staying out of that, lol. 

Anyhow, I am not writing this because I am a massive fan of Selena, although I am totally obsessed with her new single “Come & Get It,” it’s my jam! But I am honoring something that I feel has been misplaced in the eyes of fame these days and the young people who possess it.

It seems that often when young stars start off in a very sheltered environment, for example Disney… when they make that break from it, they tend to go a little crazy, in efforts to rebel, and be seen differently from their once squeaky clean image.

But from what I’ve seen from Selena Gomez she is slowly making the transition from girl to woman, rather nicely and rather beautifully. She carries herself very well, she’s conservative enough to allow her younger fans time to adjust to her changing ways. She dresses sexy but not slutty. In interviews she is respectful and honest. She words things in a way that shows she is an intelligent young woman, with values and morals.

In any event she is also sassy, which I think is a trait every girl should embody. But just a pinch, not over done, where it makes people assume your bitchy. And by sassy I mean how she’s handled her very public, very personal breakup from Justin Bieber. Celebrities

sometimes do everything in their power to avoid those situations, and I’m sure she’s done her fair share of that. But she has also made her little digs when the time was right, in a subtle way. For instance in interviews, or twitter/instagram pics, and my favorite singing a cover of Justin Timberlake’s “Cry me a River,” it’s the celebrity breakup rite of passage! haha. And she’s so awesome, because she’s doing her thing with her girls! I think that after your heart gets broken all you should do is focus on you and worry about how to make yourself happy. And move on from the assholes that aren’t worth your time!  And I’m sorry but just because a girl is classy and carries herself with respect, doesn’t mean that she doesn’t deserve to speak her mind. Even if it is publicly…because guess what, guys like to do it all the time, they talk crap, only difference is they do it in a more obvious and cruel way. Girls know how to dish out a dig with the most subtle yet classiest of ways. Do you girl! 😉

There’s also another reason I admire Ms. Gomez. She recently celebrated her 21st birthday and while many young stars choose to get sloppy drunk and make a fool of themselves. Selena celebrated hers in style. She had a birthday filled week. First she made a Birthday music video with a bunch of friends. Then she went to a big L.A. dinner and lastly she rounded it out with a New York Gypsy themed party bus extravaganza, with tons of celebrity friends as guests. Now mind you that may come off as a little much for a classy, sweet, innocent young woman, but for someone who is never exploited by paparazzi for excessive (under-aged) drinking or doing drugs, or promiscuity, you can understand she is legally allowed to enjoy herself and drink away. And from the pictures you can tell she partied and enjoyed but did so responsibly. And she even worked the next day as she appeared that morning on “On air with Ryan Seacrest,” and on “The Tonight Show with Jay Leno” and revealed her first legal drink of choice!

So that’s my point…when a once Disney star feels the need to break free, and grow up, and embrace their sexuality there are better ways to do so then just rebelling by acting out.  And Selena has graciously found the formula. She knows she is still seen as a role model and chooses to honor that, even tough she is allowing herself to mature at a proper rate.

Even with her recent break out into more mature acting roles, Selena had chose to take a role as a young impressionable girl named “Faith” in this past March’s, “Spring Breakers.” The amount of publicity this movie received was rather extensive due to it’s topic and due to the bikini posters floating about. And although I haven’t seen the film, I’ve heard mixed reviews. But never the less even though the film is said to involve drugs, drinking, sex, and violence, Selena chose to take the role in order to give herself new acting experience.

However, Selena’s character was said to be the tamest of all the girls. Selena was also kind enough to advise parents of her younger fans, not to allow them to see the film. I thought the way she handled that was really brave and really spot on. I mean she can’t solely live her life for the benefit of others, and stay a Disney clean teen for life. She is growing up and in need of finding new experiences to find herself. But I think she values where she came from and who her younger fan base is, and she takes care of them by being a responsible role model.

Same goes for her music, her latest singles include “Come & Get It”, and “Slow Down”  which proves her music is maturing along with her, and so are it’s messages.  It’s all about her growing up. There are ways of being sexy without being deemed a slut, and I think regardless of how she dresses, the messages behind her seductive songs, the movies she makes, or the ups and downs of her personal life, she is still one of the most relatable yet one of the few classy girls left out there today.

Two of my favorite Selena Gomez Red Carpet looks!

So Selena Gomez keep up the good work, god speed…. and always stay classy.

And fellow Disney stars…take notes! *Kisses*

-<3-

So as time is passing on I am slowly beginning to be able to gain a more humorous approach to this so called “break” I have been trying to accomplish, from my once super icon Justin Timberlake. And by trying, I mean I haven’t done the best job. The truth is our “break” didn’t last very long, (at most a week, at least a day… it’s all a blur.) His music (and yes I include *NSYNC in that) is back on my ears, his name on my lips, and his pictures and career updates on my electronics and my radar yet again. I just can’t help it! I’m a fan!

That’s the thing when you love someone for their overall entertainment; you learn to accept the good and the bad. Although that “bad” is still in the back of my mind, I forgive but I don’t forget…its part of being a woman! Let me hear it ladies…. 😉 And needless to say, I meant everything I said in those other posts, he was wrong and acted like an ass, and I will call him on it, (and I was pissed so there’s that…) the best writing comes from fierce emotion, lol.

I also consulted (yes consulted as if we’re colleagues in life) with a good friend of mine on the issue (yes it’s a grave issue) of “Fangirlin'” and she made me realize that it isn’t all in my head. My friend Michelle is a serious Jonas Brothers Fan, and I mean SERIOUS as serious as I am a J.T. fan she is a J.B. fan. Only difference is, if one pisses her off, she’s got 2 more to fall back on.

Joe Jonas is her favorite and she informed me that when there were certain rumors (or not really just rumors) or bad vibes following him and the choices he was making, she switched to fangirling over Kevin Jonas for the better part of an 8 month period. Which I found hysterical, but actually pretty normal considering when I was younger I switched over to JC, when Justin decided to rock those massive curls turned corn rows. Like seriously? Damn I was a shallow 10 year old, my apologies! 😉

Anyway…Michelle had the right idea, when you really are a fan of an artist, and they make you question why, it hurts and sometimes you need to remove yourself from a hurtful situation in order to cope. I’m aware of the fact that not all of you fangirl, so I am definitely sounding like a lunatic to most. But I could care less! Fangirlin’ is my thing, at least I’m not smoking crack, give me a break! Lol. 😛

The only fault with Michelle’s plan, for me that is; there is no other Justin. Now don’t get me wrong the reunion of *NSYNC, has reconnected me with my favorite boy band (not that I ever really need an excuse to blast my *NSYNC playlist), and I am now totally falling in love with Lance Bass, but let’s be honest I’m not exactly his type, haha. I guess that’s why Lance gets it…he gets us crazy *NSYNC fans. He knows how to talk us down, and give us hope. And pretty sure he’s the one operating and updating the *NSYNC twitter account, he’s adorbs (and is gonna make the best hubby ever, congrats on your engagement handsome!).

Never the less, I’ll always keep the *NSYNC boys on my radar, but now that Justin is solo, there is no other equivalent. No suitable replacement.  Just before J.T. made his big comeback, I tried falling for the young Justin; Bieber. And for a while I have to admit, I was smitten, even saw him in concert! But now he’s acting up and I’m just not about to worry about dealing with that crap, lol.

Ok went off on a tangent there…where was I…oh right, this whole concept where you whole-heartedly support everything an artist does, because you care, and you kind of slap this ever glowing halo on them where you think they can do no wrong.  And in some strange way they become part of your world, part of your family.

Everyone in my family knows I’m a Justin Timberlake fan; it’s just a known fact. I get texts from family members when he’s on TV just to make sure I’m watching, (I’m usually already watching, but that’s beside the point). They just know! The point is when you love someone’s work so much; the love extends to who they are. And I do love Justin (Timberlake). He’s kind of always been there, (minus that 7 year break where no one knew what cave he was hiding in, like seriously dude don’t ever leave me for that long again). He’s been a constant, someone I’ve grown up with.

I’ve seen him make his way fumbling through the weirdness of being a young man in the public eye along with the rest of *NSYNC. I’ve watched painfully as he broke away from *NSYNC and held my breathe praying for his safe return. I’ve watched him deal with heartbreak at its worst when he and Britney Spears called it quits. I’ve seen his phases go from boy band front-man, to R&B Michael Jackson infused Justification of heartbreak stage, to the anti/epitome of pop where he made sex turn into love sounds through music, to his latest work which blends all those mentioned into one. I’ve seen him mold into an actor from roles in “The Social Network”  “Friends with Benefits” and “Trouble with the Curve,” amongst other films. I’ve watched him grow into his 30’s and become a married man, (despite my objections) sorry jess. 😉 I guess that’s my point… that because of this journey, I know that I have to keep this relationship going. Because if I don’t, well let’s be honest there’s no way I can turn my back on him now, it’s just getting good! (Seriously seeing him with a wedding ring on, is HOT, can’t wait to see him when he’s a dad!) I’m way too invested in all that is Justin Timberlake, but whatever, I gather I’m not the only one.

But I will say this; *NSYNC will always be in my heart and I pray that it is in his heart too, and I don’t mean just because he feels he has to make the acknowledgement, but because he truly values all they’ve done to get him to this point of success. And because he valued them as friends and the years of memories they made for themselves and for fans all over the world.

I feel like I’ve been waiting for answers, any answers, to just make me feel better about this whole 110 second *NSYNC performance and I know now that I’m never gonna get those answers. Because time and time again he floats around social media, doing countless media tours and he’d rather talk about Miley Cyrus’ twerking (like the rest of

the world) then actually owe up to the fact that he did his boys wrong. But whatever that’s his shit to swallow. I am just here as a fan. I love his work and to ignore that he’s a brilliant artist was never my intention with my previous “Post Vma” entries. I know he’s gifted, hell I’ve been a fan of his for more than half of my life, (the other half consisted of ya know being a baby and junk… a.k.a during his Mickey Mouse years, where I was too young to even really know about it, lol). Gosh fangirling is exhausting, all the little things you feel you have to know, to call yourself a fan, I mean why can’t you just enjoy the music, right… like the rest of the world? Well, honestly it’s not my style.

When I love something, I really love something, and it really shows, I’m all in, and I wanna shout it to the world…. *god help my future boyfriends* haha. I don’t think there is any other artist who I have loved so consistently for this long, granted Britney Spears is always a favorite. But I have to say given the choice I’d choose him. I guess it all goes back to their breakup, as a fan you had to choose sides, and with Justin Timberlake running around singing “Cry me a river,” my choice was made. Fangirls do not take lightly to other (especially famous) girls hurting their man! When they’re together, oh by all means we are happy for you, we think you are adorable and so in love, but the minute you do us, I mean him wrong, you are out, and it’ll never be the same.

I went through a little Britney break back then, tried to hate her, but gradually the hate faded and her music won me over, however, I still think what if? What if she hadn’t cheated… would they still be together…would she have had that meltdown… would they be married now… and would her kids be his??? I think so. I really do.

You know Justin tries to brush it off as puppy love, but if you ever see interviews or any footage of them together… holy god it was there, and you can’t fake that. They were really in love; they were obsessed with each other. I feel like that’s a common thing Justin likes to do, belittle his past only to try and forget it, because he doesn’t like to look back. But if you ask me I still think that no matter what you never forget a love like that. And I still think in some ways he still holds onto her, in any sense I mean “Cry me a river” won’t ever let him forget. But granted I’m a Britney fan, none the less. They both seem happy in their lives and seem to be civil toward each other, but I must say my relationship with Britney Spears isn’t how it used to be. I just feel like even though she’ll always be iconic and always be talented, I just feel like her mindset has been altered because of the amount of fame her life has endured. And unfortunately, not everyone is able to block the world out, and that fame consumed her. It isn’t an untold story, and she isn’t the first to let fame rear its ugly head at the expense of her career, sanity and overall life. But she’s coping, and she has seemed to turn things around for herself, so GO BRITNEY! But do I think her life would have turned out much different if Justin were still in it… hell to the yes.

In any sense, my relationship with Justin will always win out, because at the end of the day I am a super fan, and will always be. But will always have love for the queen of pop, let’s be real she’s still got it!

There I go, going off on a Britney tangent, gosh when you hear

Justin you always think Britney, or at least I do! I guess now that I’ve had time to cool down and rationalize the fact that he’s actually human and not an angel sportin’ wings and a bright shiny halo, I have come to the consensus that once a fan girl always a fan girl. It’s all in how you carry the title. Sure… like his music, support his career, enjoy the obsession, but when shit hits the fan, and he acts like an ass…. It’s ok to be pissed, after all you’re a fan and fans are the opinions that actually count.

So Justin, I forgive your stupidity, but just don’t let it happen again. I love you; let’s give this thing another chance, shall we? 😉

 

Signed,

Revised & Reformed

Justin Timberlake Fan

(or Future Mrs. Timberlake… whichever is preferred) 😉

-“Break” Over-

[I do not take any credit for any of the celebrity photos or gifs]

-<3-

I was obsessed with Lizzie McGuire when I was in middle school, with all her funky clothes, hairdo’s and funny antics. I was always trying to wear things that I thought looked similar to her style even though I always felt like I looked more like Miranda, lol. Mismatched patterns, clunky shoes, colorful hair and hair pins, and funky book bags and purses were a thing of my generation! I’ll never forget I had this orange and white tie dye shirt and I loved it because I thought it looked like Lizzie’s shirt in the beginning credits only she wears it in blue! Lol, I was quite infatuated. I remember dying to try to get my hair to do that whole typical very Lizzie style, you know the whole bangs out, headband on thing. I don’t think i ever could get it quite right! I even wished for my own phone in my room, because of her, Gordo, and Miranda’s three-way phone calls! haha To me Lizzie was the original trendsetter, a girl who was close to our age, that we could relate to. And let’s do a quick shout out to the little Lizzie cartoon, she was hysterical, and now that I’m older I sit back and think, wow that was a really clever way for them to create her word bubble…she acted as Lizzie’s inner thoughts. Really cool!  I loved Lizzie, and so did my friends, every time there was a new episode my friends and I would watch it together. She was kind of a big deal for us! lol

I just gotta do a little Lizzie McGuire fav moments…real quick

Lizzie tries out for Best Dressed #styleshack

Lizzie’s Nancy Drew Whodunnit #jealousgordo

Lizzie gets  Zombie Clowned… #paybacksaB-kate

Lizzie’s Eleven #lizzie’sjamesbondmission #operationyearbookpics

I was in love with Lizzie’s outfit here #stayin’alive

Matt & Lenny’s Club Flamingo… #gordoandlizziehaveamoment

Those are some of my all time favorite eps…now onto the FASHION!!!!

Those crazy mismatched colors and patterns!

Hair hair hair! (Lizzie (and Miranda) started that color trend)

Holy Crimping… ya’ll remember that?

Workin’ them bandana’s

Ok “Over Outtie” …

Keep Calm and Love Lizzie

[I take no credit for any of the images used!]

-<3-

In the world we live in today

it’s a very pop culture centric place

a lot of things and life itself circle around media and “celebrity”

and I’m no exception

I fangirl with the rest of the world over artists I love

I tweet

I facebook

I instagram

it’s part of the generation we live in, I guess

social media has in some sense taken over the world

and you are somehow thought of as “weird” or “not with the times” if you don’t have all these different portals that which just keep from allowing face to face communication

“Weird” that word makes me laugh, I love it! I love being weird. I think normal just lumps you in with the rest of the world

I can’t sit here and be hypocritical though, I mean I have this blog which I am writing on my computer as we speak

So I understand the ways of communication have changed

But I just felt myself slipping away into a place where I’ve become more concerned about the lives of celebrities then my own

Because of this space we live in

and it’s a superficial culture at that

Don’t get me wrong

I’m guilty of it too

“Miley Cyrus is a slut”

“Ryan Gosling is a hot piece”

“Jay z this…

Beyonce that”

blah blah blah…

I’ve fallen into that realm of thinking often

That’s pop culture for ya

it surrounds you in every way, everyday

and I don’t think it’s wrong to partake in pop culture

especially if you enjoy it

if you enjoy an artist’s music

or admire someone’s sense of style

but it also isn’t cool to forget who you are

and what your values are

and what should be valued in life which is the character of a person

and their ability to remain humble in the face of glory and fame.

In a world where celebrity is all that counts

and money and fame are sought after

Remember there was a time where family and brotherhood/sisterhood mattered most

Remember where you come from

Remember who molded you

Remember when the “stage” was shared

and others cheered you on

be not afraid to be grateful

Because arrogance isn’t sexy

Neither is being cocky

There’s a certain level on confidence I suppose an entertainer should embody

But the line between confidence and cockiness can easily blur

and you need to check that

and reevaluate

Some are just easily more accepted

and carry a certain creative gift

But others were there when that gift wasn’t always instantly appreciated

A time when you had to prove yourself to the world

But fame and friends in high places have changed your views

and you’ve forgotten were you started

It’s sad don’t you see

How humble you used to be

Only Humble now is a vacant word

and it feels as though acting is getting easier

and You’ve been easily playing me

Celebrities want attention

they want fame

and just because you are granted that

doesn’t give you the right to belittle others

especially others who paved your way

Because fame can fade as quick as it comes

and friends and family may not always be forgiving

Fans are people too

and they need to be heard and understood

Just as much as you do

Your silence speaks louder than your words

and it’s easy to read between the lines

it’s a shame humble has been given new fake meaning

or was it always this way

and we just never saw it

blind to the facade in front of us

and overcome by the charm you threw out into the universe

be creative but be kind

and keep it humble

because no one likes a cocky bastard…

you know its strange by no means am I a Kanye West fan, but he gets so much shit for being cocky and conceded (much like the tons of rappers out there who act the same way). But at least he doesn’t fake being humble. He’s a cocky asshole and we all know it and he knows it. So at the end of the day you can’t really totally blame him (I mean you can, but you know what I mean). I just feel like there are certain celebrities and I won’t mention specific names (let’s just say I’ve recently dedicated a very large post to his lack of respect toward a certain group of friends) but I am still a fan of his work and am trying to just put all that crap behind me. But I just feel like if you come off as this humble, funny, caring guy and the world loves you. And talk show hosts like Ellen DeGeneres and Jimmy Fallon who you know for a fact are sweet people (because their line of work allows their true personality to shine through)  love you and rave about you, you think they are good wholesome people. But when humble becomes an act there is a problem , and I don’t know about you guys but I think it’s a problem that needs addressing. Because I’d rather not waste my time being a huge fan of someone who isn’t truly appreciative of those around them. Because at the end of the day it’s about admiring a person’s character, I think that’s what I need to start idolizing, or maybe not idolize as much as respect or admire. Sure I thought I “idolized” certain celebrities because of their talent or their sense of fashion, but all of that becomes superficial and irrelevant if you find out they aren’t who they claim or seem to be. Or if you just simply find out, they aren’t good people. So my advice to you, admire and respect the people who share the beauty of their heart with you. They are the true beautiful souls, they are the ones who deserve the awards.  I think that’s what I’m going to start doing, not necessarily idolizing anyone, but respecting them for their character and admiring them for who they are as a person with a caring heart. And I understand celebrities are people too and just like us they have good days and bad days, and they aren’t always perfect. I mean it isn’t their job to live a life to please us. But I just can’t understand how you expect a fans respect if your intentions don’t always appear genuine. Enough of this artificial fame bull crap. I’m over it! I will always remain a fan of a person’s craft, but I need to stop the idolizing and stop putting them at a higher standard then they deserve to be. I need to just enjoy their craft for what it is, which is good music to listen to. That’s the thing about celebrities, they get caught up and don’t realize their fans are people just like them. It’s frustrating because they get to say what they want and feel while fans have to try and throw vibes out there into the universe that never get picked up or responded to. And I don’t know about you guys but I don’t like to be ignored. I have a brain and I have thoughts that matter just like the rest of the fans or artists out there.  And I’m not talking about celebrities ignoring fans via social media, I mean out of billions of followers on twitter and busy schedules, I don’t expect a tweet back.  But I just feel like when they have a certain level of power and by power I mean influence due to their social status, I think they ignore the chance to speak out accordingly through the available forums they have access to. For instance, don’t ignore fans concerns, address them publicly instead of playing coy and sidestepping the issue. And at the end of the day we are all people, and God created us in the same way; equally, and no one is better then the next, your shit stinks just like the rest of us. (Sorry that was my Brooklyn showing, what up?)

P.S. Just as a side note this goes for all celebrities not just the ones I mentioned or danced around mentioning…see fans can be coy too  😉

#bekind #becreative and #alwaysstayhumble

-<3-

I have been dying to post this but, I actually made this shirt to attend a superhero themed surprise birthday party my brother’s girlfriend was throwing him. And I didn’t want post this before the party and blow the surprise, so I’ve been waiting! (Mind you he’s 27, but who says you can’t be a big kid, and still love superheros right!) lol. Any way I wanted to be festive and wear a superhero tee, but I also wanted to spruce it up and make it more me…

So I found this justice league super hero graphic tee in Kohl’s for $10, I knew I wanted to try this fringe top idea out, so I bought a men’s tee (which was inexpensive) … I got the size large because it fit nice, but still not too big, but just enough to have room to work with and have it fit like a real shirt once I finished my fringing 😉 However if you want more of a loose fitted fringe crop top vibe, I advise getting the bigger size.

This fringe top idea is just a really great and easy way to spruce up a fun graphic tee. It is quite the process, but very manageable for anyone who knows how to hold a scissor!  However, you only get one shot to make those major cuts…so work steadily and be mindful! Fortunately I was happy with my final result, (and got a lot of compliments) but there was definitely a few bumps in the road. For instance when cutting off the collar cut along the seem. Do NOT cut the actual seem, because then it begins to fray and it’s just messy. And you end up having to cut off more. Also when making the fringe cuts try to pay attention to how far you extend them (at the top) …I realized later on that I started off high and then just got decreasingly lower lol, so it looked like a slant. But if that happens to you, it’s really simple to fix just extend the top fringe cuts to match the rest.  Enjoy! And I recently bought this really cool “wolves howling at the moon” Indian vibe type shirt from a recent street feast, and I bought it big, so I’m thinking of crop topping it, or fringing it. I haven’t decided yet but I’ll let you know how it comes out!

#becreative

p.s. sorry for the crappy quality of my photos I need to get on buying a new camera, one of these days!

-<3-

Usually around this time I’d be singing the end of summer blues… because school would be just around the corner, and in a matter of weeks I’d be thrust into the same old school routine. Soon enough I’d be checking my schedule, double checking my classes, wondering who I’d have classes with, wondering how the professors I didn’t know would teach…mom and I would go shopping for a few new fall outfits…and although it was always bittersweet going back once the first week was under my belt it would feel pretty normal. And before I knew it it’d be Christmas break. That first semester always flew by, something that at the time I was grateful for.  I’m the type of kid who liked to get the new school supplies, a new notebook and folder, I would look at the start of the school year as a new beginning. But now as I look ahead, slapped in the face by all the “Back to School” commercials, and school supply filled store aisles, I feel a sense of sadness. That bittersweet feeling is back, but it’s different. Because this time there’s nothing to go back to, I’m done…no more school. Guess I’ll have to trade in my new books and school clothes for resume updates and interview appropriate clothes shopping. It’s not as though I wish I was going back to sit in a classroom and listen to someone speak for 3 hours, (definitely won’t be missing the studying for midterms and finals) but it’s more of a matter of missing the familiarity of it. I’m gonna miss that feeling of home, where the professors knew me and valued my abilities and ideas. It’s a weird feeling, and I think that I may feel differently once I get a job doing something I’m passionate about, but for now there’s just this. It’s strange all those years going to school day after day, year after year, and always waiting and wishing for the moment that it would all just end. That last semester of college…I could not wait for the summer…graduation was a blessing (the concept, not the actual long ass ceremony) but after it ended I don’t think it truly hit me. I thought it had, but I think I was wrong, maybe it still hasn’t even hit me. I’ve always thought “When I’m older I’ll understand,” “When I’m older I’ll be better.” And now that I am older, and even considered an adult, I feel as though I just don’t know how to handle it. Once September comes, I think that’s when I’m really gonna feel it. No more school supplies, no more hunting down the cheapest textbooks, no more dealing with annoying financial aid office crap…but there is one thing that still remains….LOANS! Oh the joys of being a college graduate…I guess to get myself out of these Not Back to School Blues, I’ll just have to stay busy, and focus on the positive…my goddaughter’s first of many will be coming up….everything this year will be new to her, and I can’t wait to watch her grow! And last but not least…The Job Hunt will be fierce…who’s hiring? I’ll write my ass off! God Speed my fellow blues singers… and if you are going back to school…. make the most of every second, and learn every life lesson you can, because when it’s over you’ll miss it!

I’m gonna leave you with this speech Ashton Kutcher made at this year’s TCA’s… it was actually really inspirational and I thought it was really well said and a well crafted message to teens everywhere (and adults!)

Remember kids always be “Sexy!”

And “Everything around us that we call life was made up by people that are no smarter than you,

and you can build your own things…so build a life don’t live one, build one.”

-<3-

Ok…Deep breath in…now Exhale…Now it’s two days later and all my tears have dried…but even still this “Reunion” has been “Tearin’ up my heart” (and not in a good way). I needed a day to process and I’m still confused and sad. I was so excited for the reunion…and we all know just what reunion I’m referring to, yes the highly anticipated *NSYNC reunion at this year’s 2013 Vmas. And that’s *NSYNC as in JC Chasez, Lance Bass, Joey Fatone, Chris Kirkpatrick and Justin Timberlake. Yea that’s FIVE guys, not just one.

But as I geared myself up, into an *NSYNC frenzy and prepped myself by watching old DVDs and listening to my *NSYNC playlist on repeat, it would appear that my worst fear came true. The fear that this so called “reunion” was short lived.

I think a part of me deep down knew this would happen, especially when you get your hopes up so high and all you expected to happen… well doesn’t. And you’re left feeling sad and empty, and almost disrespected as a fan.

Let me clarify before I dive in any further…I did not dislike the performance. It was brilliant in its own right. Justin basically put on a mini concert at the Vmas and normally I would bow down to his greatness. (Despite the terrible sound system at Barclays and sloppy camera work…the performance rolled on through.)

As a major Justin fan, I have always defended him in everything he’s ever done, because I think he’s brilliant.

But I have to say that if he had plans to include the boys in his big night as the recipient for the coveted Michael Jackson Video Vanguard Award, I would have expected a massive reunion, and not just the cheap 90 seconds we got. To me it was over before it started…blink and you missed it. He had a 15 minute slot, and yet he chose to sing almost every big solo song he’s ever had, and then just squeezed the boys in just to appease people’s expectations that he would acknowledge them.

Now I’ve never really seen Justin as a people pleaser, he does what he wants when he wants and when he feels he’s ready, (hence the reason he made us wait 7 years for this damn album, which is brilliant and counting of course) which in this business is admirable. But because of this I have been conditioned as his fan, to expect greatness from him, and when you bring back a boy band from the 90’s and the media hypes up a reunion…it is your job to honor that hype, honor the legacy you’ve left behind.

As an artist I feel like Justin had to know the insane response an *NSYNC reunion would get, and how billions of fans and media people would hype it up which of course would lead to the asking of a reunion tour. So why not deliver in a way that would make fans happy…fans that have followed you from day one.

Ever since *NSYNC’s breakup (due to Justin going solo) hopeful fans have been continuously shot down, when reunion questions would arise. I may be wrong but to the audience’s eye, it seems Justin Timberlake feels shamed by his past with the legendary boy band. Which honestly to me, doesn’t make much since. If it weren’t for *NSYNC he wouldn’t be the star studded JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE he is today. You have to start from somewhere.

I’m a big believer in remembering where you come from and appreciating the people who got you where you need to be…I truly was excited for the *NSYNC reunion and I think the boys rocked it but JUSTIN had a 15 minute set, he could have given them more time…I love you J.T. but that was cold and now I’m just dealing with sadness as I know a lot of other fans are too. I would have liked a longer reunion but for the time they were given, each of them did their thing, and did it well, and needless to say I got my synchronized dance moves! And props to JC for his little “baby baby baby” run at the end, yea boy get yours! You still got it! However, the set list left much to be desired…with a fragment of “Gone,” a few bars of “Girlfriend” and in typical *NSYNC fashion “Bye Bye Bye” was their exit song.  The boys exited the stage the same way they entered, descending into the stage amongst the bright blinding lights. I thought at first the boys were going to stay and perform “Suit & Tie” with him, but no such luck. To me it just seemed like a snub, like a “Well I’d be painfully degraded by the world if I don’t at least acknowledge them…so here’s 90 seconds.” I just feel like if it was just going to be a quick snip it, or a snippet if you will, then why do it at all? Why get the world so amped up and ready for a “Reunion” something hardcore fans like myself have been waiting for, for over a decade!

I feel like I would have been happier if Justin either did it all the way, and gave them the time they deserved or just acknowledged them in speech and just kept it a solo set. Because truthfully it just hurt to see *NSYNC not get the time they deserved. However I will not knock the Justin set completely because it was amazing and his solo music is something to be honored and rightfully so. There were beautiful moments that I loved, I loved the Rapper’s Delight throwback dance break, and the Jackson 5 meets MJ inspired back beats. I loved the little senorita audience sing along, and the “Cry Me a River” performance that made us all understand why Justin Timberlake is the sole creator of the world’s greatest break-up anthem, as the crowd’s arms were up in the air. The Justin solo set was a medley of amazingness, but half of that show stopping performance should have included *NSYNC and a larger medley of their hit songs. (what happened to the oldies…”I want you back,” “Tearin up my heart” “This I promise you” “It’s gonna be me” “POP!” ) Like are you kidding me!???

Like Justin said half the moonmen he’s won were when he was with *NSYNC. Granted maybe I’m being too hard on him, he did thank them (sloppy camera work seriously they didn’t even pan over to them during his speech!) and word on the street is he did call and ask them to be apart of this. But there were just little things that just made me feel like Justin wasn’t as happy to reunite with his former boy band as his former band-mates were to reunite with him. Each member tweeted thank yous to their dedicated fans for the kind responses to their *NSYNC performance…except Justin. Also the guys tweeted each other (including Timberlake) to say how great it was to be back together again. In fact aside from a quick pic post on his Facebook page, he hasn’t mentioned it since. And that picture I’m referring to…

Seriously, he’s covering his face, like I don’t know about you guys, maybe I’m reading too much into things, but all the guys are joking and goofing around and his body language basically says “Oh I’m not here.” I will never understand if he truly is ashamed of being apart of the boy band. I get it your doing your own thing now but it’s not like *NSYNC should ever be ashamed of their success, nor should Justin be ashamed to have been a part of it. Granted maybe the cornrows and crazy curly hair and leather outfits were a bit too much. But that was the 90’s! And that’s how things were, it’s not to be disappointed in, it’s to be remembered and joked about.

You know they could have said no, but they did it to honor him and his success as a solo artist, which is why those boys are a true class act. Can I just say when *NSYNC came off stage and each of them did their little wave to the camera, I fell in love all over again. I miss them…

I took to twitter to hash out all my aggression, basically tweeting away my feelings. I am wayyy to emotional over this “reunion.” But I’m not the only one! Glad to know there are other fan girls out there feeling similar to how I feel. I feel like we’ve been waiting for *NSYNC to make a comeback for so long, especially since it’s the resurrection of the boy band error, what with Backstreet Boys, New Kids on the Block, 98 Degrees, and even Boys II Men reuniting and touring. (Clearly I have A LOT of feelings about this reunion!) I think everyone just put all their faith in this VMA reunion. And we secretly hoped for more, hoped that maybe it would lead to new music and maybe even a tour. I thought it unlikely, but I always secretly hoped. But when the boys took the stage Justin repeatedly said “Last One,” like as in last time *NSYNC will ever be *NSYNC? To me that’s what he was saying.

Never the less there are ways to be a “boy” band and still be grown men, it doesn’t have to be cheesy, hell those tuxes were sharp, synchronized dance moves are the shit… and those boys still got it! *NSYNC reminds me of my childhood. It reminds me of a time where I didn’t know of stress or anxiety, it was a simpler time. I feel like now with college officially over and me trying to find my next move, I’ve been searching for a way to turn back time. To a time where everything was easy and everything was safe.

I was about 8 when I got their first album. About 10 when I got to see them in concert. The “No Strings Attached” Tour was my first concert ever. And I was probably about 11 or 12 when they started to wrap their last album and ended their run due to Justin going solo. Mind you I thought “Justified” was supposed to just be like a side project and that *NSYNC would be back…but yea that didn’t go as planned…hey when you’re that successful solo who needs 4 other guys taking away the spotlight huh Justin? I’m sorry that was a bit uncalled for, but I guess I’m still working through the pain.

I think it’s safe to say, when the *NSYNC VMA reunion rumors began to swirl fan girls everywhere were searching for that nostalgic presence. Especially when Lance Bass tweeted *NSYNC had their own official twitter account. After that tweet (if not before) I think we all thought “it’s on! This is happening.” Fans knew, and even though denies were made by Joey Fatone and even Lance Bass himself, it was all part of what was meant to be a surprise. Surely this “reunion” was the worst kept secret!

Once again…I’m not saying *NSYNC and Justin’s performance weren’t amazing, they definitely were, but I just felt like Justin jipped them, it just hurts my heart and I can’t handle it! As long as *NSYNC feels they were honored properly I guess I can forgive Justin, or at least start to, I guess I just miss them. And granted Justin was always a favorite, but they were just a packaged deal, they were beloved and always will be! They each brought their own talent to the group, and fit so well.

I swear anyone who reads this or who has read my twitter for the past two days must think I am a complete psycho (and maybe I am) or must think I hate Justin Timberlake, lol (and I really don’t, I’m actually insanely in love with him). But that love affair started with *NSYNC first so I’m just a little pissed at him at the moment, and he and I are gonna need a break, I need my space haha… no but seriously. 😉 I feel as though because I’m such a hardcore dedicated fan, I have the right to my opinions, lol. But at least the boys had good things to say about being a part of Justin’s moment, and how being back together feels like nothings changed, although we know so much has… (way to exclude them from your wedding guest list bro). As for any reunion rumors I highly doubt it will ever happen again. Because, upon my twitter scanning of article upon article displaying each members views on the possibility once again most of the boys seemed down for it; Joey reportedly saying “Let’s go on tour now!” Chris “I’m not saying it’s never going to happen,” and Lance saying “it would be lovely, but we have no plans.” The only definite no’s would be JC who shot the idea down quickly revealing this was all in support of Justin’s big night, and clearly judging my Justin’s continuous actions he doesn’t ever seem interested in the idea as a full frontal/ long lasting commitment  to the group that paved the way to his solo success. Don’t bite the hand that “fed” you my friend.

I don’t know maybe I’ll fully be able to forgive him once 2020 Vol. 2 serenades me with its greatness. But who knows maybe one day another 10 years (you know when I’m 32 and the guys are in their late 40’s/early 50’s) from now Justin will come to his senses. As for now I’m not holding my breath for any future reunions, but I look forward to what the future holds for each member of the greatest boy band of all time; *NSYNC.

As per usual even in anger I’m still a Justin supporter so…pre-order Vol. 2 now on iTunes, The 20/20 Experience Vol. 2 is out September 30^th, with songs featuring Drake and Jay-Z, and Target Special Edition including two extra bonus tracks “Blindness” and “Electric Lady.”

 Also… congrats on your wins, Justin racked up 3 out of 6 wins…

(p.s. where was the wife during J.T.’s big night? Thankfully they were seen at an after party together, so hopefully she was backstage. But even so shouldn’t she have been there to support her man? I mean get over it the world knows your married, act like it!)

Best editing; mirrors

Best direction;  suit and tie

Video of the year; mirrors

(The Michael Jackson Video Vanguard Award… puts him at 4… he definitely stole the show,

and weather or not we agree on his intentions toward the *NSYNC guys I will always be proud of his accomplishments)

And quick side note, the fact that Jimmy Fallon presented him with the award was pretty amazing and just perfect, they are such good friends and his speech was as adorable as he is! Love you Jimmy!

One Direction Fans brace yourselves…every boy band comes to an end…

One day this will be you, lol

So my advice to you, Enjoy it while it lasts, and fan girl as hard as you can!

And once again the sole purpose of this blog post was to show case a true fan’s true perspective.  I do not ignore Justin’s ode to the boys nor to I not understand the fact that he did include them in his speech. I just feel that it was a bit forced and lacked genuine intentions, and that, had the 15 minute time slot been used more wisely, it would have made for a more suitable reunion.

(I do not take credit for any images of *NSYNC or of Justin, etc.)

-Rant Over-

-<3-

Introducing a new segment entitled “Tea Talk”.… it’s going to be implemented well, when I feel a pressing manner (regarding the progress of this blog) coming up and need to speak on it…

With that being said,  Just had a cup of tea, and need to talk…Just a writer’s thought about writing…

So with just a few more then 100 posts under my belt I still feel like I’m a blogging newbie. I haven’t gotten much feedback and I suppose that’s my fault because I don’t like to force my work upon people. I’m painfully bad at self promotion. I do however go check the traffic on my page here and there and I know I have a few readers but I never hear back from you so I don’t know if I’m doing a decent job, lol. Then again maybe my interests aren’t your cup of tea…haha pun intended! Either way for those who do keep up with me I thank you. I also ask for  your feedback. I tend to be a little all over the place when I blog and I enjoy it that way because I don’t really like having a one track mind. I love to write the more serious writer type stuff…like the poems you see on my page. Those give me such inspiration but I also love pop culture, fashion, tv, movies, music etc. My interests are vast so forgive me if I tend to switch gears every once in a while. I just feel like its more interesting that way  at least for me…as a creative mind, …when a blog only has one topic I find its difficult to keep on that track. I did that for a class of mine my last semester of college and it just became boring and so mundane. And if there’s anything that puts you in a rut it is a mundane routine. It’s seriously just asking for writer’s block! So I’m gonna mix it up more, because this blog is personal and I’m sharing my interests with you. I also need to explain that my poems aren’t always easy for me to write…there are days I can write 4 in a day and then there are days where I just completely lack inspiration or just hate everything I’ve written. I may not know where this blog is going but I do know that it is a learning experience for me and I’m putting things out there that aren’t always easy for me to say. I’ve never really thought of myself as a “wears her heart on her sleeve” type of girl because I tend to be shy at times and often very private. But as I grow older I realize my heart is there on my sleeve and you can read it loud and clear if you look close enough. Compassion is something I think my heart is driven by and I think because of that it allows me to play certain roles when I write. Not everything I right is necessarily from personal experience but it’s a matter of diving into that mindset of someone who has gone through whatever it is I’m writing about, and writing for them, writing what maybe they cant say. I may not always get it right and my celebrity fluff pieces may throw you off track a little bit, but when I have something important to say I’ll say it, a writer can’t always spill their guts out to complete strangers 24/7…or maybe they can, I just choose not to. I think part of being a writer is embracing the different emotions of life, writing doesn’t always have to be so serious and dramatic, it can be fun, it can be simple. That’s why I love writing my celebrity fluff pieces, it reminds me of  writing for a magazine or something, it’s fun…so sue me! lol. Regardless of the content, whether it be heartfelt poetry or simple pop culture, hopefully those who can understand and relate…listen. This blog has become my best friend, it’s like a diary I know I can look back on and be proud of, because I took a risk. Anyway here’s to mixing it up and I hope those who do read along stick with me and those who don’t… tag along…I promise to write with a pure heart after all this is “a safe place for the written word.” And it’s important to remember that compassion is key, you never know what someone may be dealing with, you never know what their story is, so be mindful not to jump to conclusions. Be kind and considerate of those other hearts worn upon sleeves, because even though they may be willing to be an open book, they aren’t to be nor should they be walked all over. You are how you treat people, if you are kind, that makes you a kind person, if you are not maybe you need to reevaluate. If anything out of 3 semesters of philosophy stuck it is the concept of the Golden Rule- “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.”.. . in other words treat others how you’d like to be treated…in all of life’s lessons and all of life’s hardships that is the easiest thing to understand and the easiest to do.

…just a few thoughts I had to get out there…

 always be compassionate. always be kind. always be creative. always tea & talk. 😉

#happyweekendfolks

-<3-