In life there are always going to be things you wish were different, things you can’t control. People come into your life, and people go. And for what ever the reason, it always seems to make sense further down the road. But over the past few weeks, or for the better part of my college life, I’ve realized all of that is preparation for adulthood. I am not the same girl I am today that I was when I ended high school, nor am I the same girl I was when I started college. I will admit when we all graduated high school it was difficult, we were all scattered at different colleges, and it was difficult to handle, and difficult to see each other at times. But we always managed to find a way. I’ve gone through several situations that have made me realize things happen for a reason. It’s so important to surround yourself with people who are going to support you  in everything you do, and you should support them the same.

I am fortunate to have made an amazing group of friends in high school with the addition of a few old childhood friends who no matter what, I know will always be in my life. I’ve heard people say that “you don’t meet your best friends in high school, you meet them in college.” And although I’ve gained friends in college, I can honestly say that for me, my most important friendships are those that I’ve carried with me through most of my life.

The girls who know me better than anyone, the girls who I’ve had countless inside jokes with and who I’ve had endless conversations with about nothing, the girls who no matter how long we go without seeing each other, when we do it’s like we never left high school. All of the close friends I have in my life as of today, I have known for a good number of years.

In fact I’ve had the same best friend my entire life. I think that what is most important to our friendship is allowing the others to grow, as you grow. Because people change, times change, circumstances change, and it’s about accepting that and adapting to change that allows your friendships to grow. It’s not to say that it isn’t going to be hard, because let’s face it life throws a lot of things at us, some of them opportunities and some of them obstacles. But once you understand each individual has their own pace and their own path in life, you realize as long as you respect that, there is always room for each other. I now understand that the people who you turn to for advice, the people who you share your world with are the people who you call your best friends. I have also learned that because I’m starting to understand all of this, I know that the friendships I have are worth my time and effort. I also have learned that friendships who lose touch can sometimes be repaired, because the crap you dealt with in high school is all behind you now! 😀

So shout out to all my girls for always being there, I don’t think I could have asked for a better group of friends ❤

And sometimes people come into your life and you just click ❤

I always say my friends are my sanity and with this group I can safely say its true. Because friends become the family you pick for

yourself. And like my actual family these girls are always there for me…

So Thank You! Roe, Corine, Kate, Michelle, Lauren, Jordan (Buddykins), Jenny, Stav, Stella, Fatoosh, and O’sheazzie 😀

-<3-

*So it’s been quite a while since I’ve had the time nor the inspiration to get back into the blogging groove…but like I always say I consider myself a writer, and even when I’m not writing I’m still thinking about writing and making mental notes for when the time comes that I feel like I have something to say.*

Senorita ❤

So for the past month or so my mom and I have been going crazy planning my graduation party and so we’ve been on the go non-stop. Planning everything from the food menu, to the centerpieces, to the color of the napkins and tablecloths, to the Dj’s playlist, to the seating chart to all the other little annoying necessities.

You know it’s so crazy how you plan and you plan and you plan all for it to be over in 4 hours. But I have to say it was seriously one of the best 4 hours of my life; surrounded by family and friends who actually matter, and who actually wanted to be there to celebrate with me.

My family is psychotic and I don’t think there was ever a moment where the dance floor was left empty haha. Things like that make all the planning and the stressing worth it. And my crazy friends fit right in with my crazy family! It was quite the crowd!

“I don’t know about you, but I’m feeling “22” everything will be alright if you keep me next to youuu” ❤ #21ers #22ers

There may have been some hiccups a long the way, but in the end it all turned out well and everyone had an amazing time! I have to say, me and my friends screaming at the top of our lungs to  N’SYNC’s “Tearing up my heart” and Taylor Swift’s “22” were definitely some awesome highlights! So was laughing as we all tried to remember how to do the electric slide! Yea I went old school on that one! In fact my entire playlist could probably be described as 5 decades crammed into 4 hours!

Download “Never Changed” by Jeremy & DLo on soundcloud….trust me its pretty rad!

I also got to have my DJ play my two cousin’s newest track and had everyone jamming to it, that was really something, to see the two of them so happy to hear something they created, surrounded by a room of people who enjoyed it! In fact no one even knew it was them until all the other cousins started telling the guests and everyone was so surprised! lol…it was a good time for all!

But the most precious and memorable moment was when my cousin asked me to be my niece’s godmother, I was so surprised that I cried! It was such an emotional moment and I am so honored and can’t wait to baptize (and spoil) her! ❤ ❤ ❤

I’m gonna be a godmother, I’m gonna be a godmother!!!! 😀

And last but not least there are a few people I needed to thank that made my party happen!… My family, my parents for throwing me this party and my brother for capturing its amazing moments, because of all that I am able to have memories that will last a lifetime.

holy candy table!

BIG thanks to my girl and her fam for my table of treats….the guests thought it was a hit! 😀

So end result A GOOD TIME WAS HAD BY ALL!

And I couldn’t think of a better way to say goodbye to my college years,

then by spending it with the people who matter most to me!

Goodbye College…it’s been real

-<3-

I’m thinking of introducing a new segment called… “What up with that?”  Cuz let’s face it, there’s a lot of weird shit in this world haha… Anyhow this is going be a #quickpost today… so my ladies out there, I do hope you can relate!

For the past two Christmases I’ve gotten Sephora gift cards and I haven’t gotten to use them! But the other day I went shopping and finally remembered to bring them…both cards total amount came out to $75. $75 sounds like a good amount to spend in a makeup store huh? I least I thought so, in my naive little brain haha.  But guess what $75 later and I walked out with only 4 items; FOUR!!!!! I guess being that I’m not that much of a makeup freak, I didn’t realize how expensive good make up actually is. I mean $18 for lip gloss…what are these people smokin’??? However, I do love to get dressed up and put all the makeup on, so I was excited I got to use my gift cards, but at the same time I felt like the money was being cheated! Everything these days is so overpriced, (yes I’m clearly a frugal 75 year old woman haha). I walked around that store for probably about 45 minutes trying to decide what I wanted. I was so confused and a tad bit overwhelmed; so many brands of makeup, hair care, facial care, perfume…my god! Don’t get me wrong I’m a girly girl at heart, but I was raised kind of simplistically. I’m not that materialistic, and I don’t fall into the brand names much. The only thing I buy from Sephora is the bareMinerals face makeup. But it is nice to splurge a little every once in a while, especially when it’s a gift card,  haha.

What I bought….

Clinique take the day off makeup remover for lids, lashes, & lips- $18

bareMinerals marvelous Moxie lipstick; “Be Free” (a nude shade)- $18

bareMinerals marvelous Moxie lipgloss; “Hot Shot” (a bright pink shade)- $18

Sephora Waterproof Mascara; “Noir Black”- $12

Btw every girl knows this face well…

How every girl puts on mascara! #girlcode

So although I enjoyed my purchases, makeup is highly overpriced #Whatupwiththat, my advice…unless you’re going out, don’t wear it…and if you do wear it on a daily basis, don’t abuse it…when you’re older your non wrinkled face will thank you 😉

Smile it’s almost Friday!

-<3-

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It’s interesting. We are conditioned as young girls to believe in fairy tales, to believe that a prince will come and sweep us off our feet. And never in that fantasy is that prince ever a bad man… he’s always kind, and considerate, and rides in on a big white horse. He’s never arrogant, or conceited or a complete moron! He never walks around destroying everything in his path, wrecking all those who he comes into contact with. NO… instead his main goal is simply well…to make his princess happy. He does what he says when he says it, and he means what he says, he doesn’t just say it to say it. HA what a crock! Huh ladies? 😉

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These fairy tales are just that…tales. Tales for little girls to grow up believing  in something, something better than the norm.  Something to strive for, I guess in a way, it’s building up young girls’ ideal image, in the hope that one day they’ll truly know what they’re worth. And honestly I guess that’s a good thing, but at the same time it can definitely be misleading, haha. Because let’s face it, the shit you see in movies are just that…in movies. Guys aren’t really like that. You can work something up in your head, only to have it completely go in the opposite direction, and then your heart gets disappointed.  And guys say we’re the complicated ones! The same way guys expect girls to be “domesticated” well girls expect guys to treat them with some respect. (btw say a girl’s place is in the kitchen and you will get cut!) 😉

What is it with the  dating world today?  Well I guess you could call it dating, although I think there are a few other choice words for how guys and gals get together nowadays. Why is writing a comment on Facebook or texting a girl the equivalent of actually asking her out on an actual date in person. Although I will say that’s more technology’s fault than the guy’s so there’s room for slack there. But  Why is it “Yo girl”,  *like really who are you talking to, do I look like I’m one of your boys? because if so we have a problem* instead of “Hi, how are you?” Why is it “Oh she’s hot, I’d tap that”…instead of “Wow she’s beautiful, have you seen her eyes?”  Why do guys think it’s lame to be good boyfriends (or just good guys in general) when their around their friends, as if it makes you somehow less of a man? Give me a freakin’ break. Call me old-fashioned, call me an old soul, I don’t care. I believe in love, I believe it is the ONLY thing in this world that is even worth living for. I believe all the money and success in the world couldn’t replace what it feels like to be loved by someone. You can’t truly appreciate anything if you don’t have someone to share it with. It’s like going to see your favorite artist in concert alone. Where’s the fun in that???  It’s sickening to see how things have changed. But then again I guess most guys are dogs…although my bet is there are a few good ones out there… but that’s like trying to find a grain of rice in a cornfield…. Extremely difficult and frustratingly annoying!

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Well woof woof, move on, cause if that’s a line, I ain’t bitin

xoxo #keepcalmandcarryon 😉

P.S. word of advice…chivalry is not dead.

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and let’s not forget ladies have a few issues of their own to iron out! If you go along with his bullshit, you are just as wrong as he is!

So ladies….put your middle fingers away, cover up your boobs…and respect yourself enough to know you’re worth so much more.

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Oh now I get it… Girl Philosophy & Guy Psychology Just Don’t Match

-Rant over-

-<3-

So it’s no secret that I have a serious girl crush on the very beautiful, very talented Ms. Demi Lovato. She just released her latest studio album… entitled “Demi.” Demi has said that this album is very personal and that it is revealing and tells a lot about her and the things she’s been through. She’s expressed that it is possibly even deeper than her previous album “Unbroken” which is best known for nursing the inspiring ballad “Skyscraper” which captivated hearts all over the world. Needless to say, even though “Unbroken” was a stellar album and was received amazingly well by her very devoted and beloved fan base; the lovatics, “Demi” holds a greatness on it’s own.

Yes folks…she did it all over again. “Demi” is full of lyrics that hit home…for me personally I find Demi Lovato to be one of the artists who I feel I relate most closely with. It’s amazing, when I first heard her latest single “Heart Attack” I could have sworn she and I had a conversation and then she wrote the song based off of our conversation, lol. She writes about what girls these days feel, and I truly think that between the combination of her out of this world vocal talent, her personality, and her beauty, she is a force to be reckoned with.

She has become such an amazing role model for young girls, because despite all the hardships she’s faced in life, she has managed to put a positive spin on it. She looks at it as a way to give the issues she’s faced a voice, and has used it to help others suffering from those same issues. Til this day she is asked in interviews about her past struggles with self-harm, eating disorders, drug abuse,  bi-polar disorder, bullying, etc, and  she manages to have a light humorous way of speaking about them. It’s in no way demeaning these issues, but actually showing that yea she’s dealt with horrible experiences, but was able to come out on the other side. She can learn to laugh at herself. Sometimes making light of our hardships is a way to help ourselves get through them, and allow ourselves to know that it’s all going to be ok.

Demi’s new album consists of 13 tracks (target edition comes with an extra track “I hate you, don’t leave me.”)

I would just like to share with you some of my favorite lyrics and tracks 😀

“Heart Attack”

But you make me wanna act like a girl
Paint my nails and wear high heels
Yes, you make me so nervous
And I just can’t hold your hand

You make me glow, but I cover up
Won’t let it show, so I’m

Puttin’ my defences up
‘Cause I don’t wanna fall in love
If I ever did that
I think I’d have a heart attack [x3]

Never break a sweat for the other guys
When you come around, I get paralyzed
And every time I try to be myself
It comes out wrong like a cry for help

“Without the love”

And you work so hard to get me, just to let me go
Yeah you put me in the spotlight, just to steal the show
And you try to take me home like you’re DiMaggio, oh
It’s such a joke

Why are you singing me love songs
What good is a love song? What good is a love song, without the love

“Neon Lights”

Be still my heart ’cause it’s freaking out, it’s freaking out, right now
Shining like stars ’cause we’re beautiful, we’re beautiful, right now
You’re all I see in all these places
You’re all I see in all these faces
So let’s pretend we’re running out of time, of time

Baby, when they look up at the sky
We’ll be shooting stars just passing by
You’ll be coming home with me tonight
And we’ll be burning up like neon lights

“Nightingale”

I can’t sleep tonight
Wide awake and so confused
Everything’s in line
But I am bruised
I need a voice to echo
I need a light to take me home
I kinda need a hero
Is it you?

Baby I’m a little blind
I think it’s time for you to find me
Can you be my nightingale?
Sing to me
I know you’re there
You could be my sanity
Bring me peace

Sing me to sleep
Say you’ll be my nightingale

I don’t know what I’d do without you
Your words are like a whisper come through
As long as you are with me here tonight
I’m good

“In case” (this entire song is perfect!)

I know
One day eventually
Yeah, I know
One day I’ll have to let it all go
But I keep it just in case
Yeah, I keep it just in case

In case
You don’t find what you’re looking for
In case
You’re missing what you had before
In case
You change your mind, I’ll be waiting here
In case
You just want to come home

Strong enough to leave you
But weak enough to need you
Cared enough to let you walk away
I took that dirty jacket
From the trash right where you left it
‘Cause I couldn’t stand to see it go to waste

You’re looking in that mirror one day
And miss my arms
How they wrapped around your waist
I say that you can love me again
Even if it isn’t the case

Demi and Cher ❤

“Really Don’t Care” (ft. Cher Lloyd)

You wanna play, you wanna stay, you wanna have it all
You started messing with my head until I hit a wall
Maybe I shoulda known, maybe I shoulda known
That you would walk, you would walk out the door, hey!

Said we were done, then met someone and rubbed it in my face
Cut to the punch, she broke your heart, and then she ran away
I guess you shoulda known, I guess you shoulda known
That I would talk, I would talk
I can’t believe I ever stayed up writing songs about you
You don’t deserve to know the way I used to think about you
Oh no not anymore, oh no not anymore
You had your shot, had your shot, but you let go

“Warrior”

All the pain and the truth
I wear like a battle wound
So ashamed, so confused
I was broken and bruised

Now I’m a warrior
Now I’ve got thicker skin
I’m a warrior
I’m stronger than I’ve ever been
And my armor, is made of steel, you can’t get in
I’m a warrior
And you can never hurt me again
Out of the ashes, I’m burning like a fire
You can save your apologies, you’re nothing but a liar
I’ve got shame, I’ve got scars
That I will never show
I’m a survivor
In more ways than you know

Check Out all of Demi’s Lyrics HERE

Check out Demi Lovato’s commentary on “Demi”

Parts 1 & 2

and if you haven’t already… pick up or (download) a copy of “Demi”

Signed,

Overly Proud

#Lovatic

“Hi Mom” ❤

Is this real life? Did I seriously just graduate college 4 days ago? Holy crap, I guess I did. Honestly that day was a blur, thank god for pictures to look back on! But truthfully after all the studying and the papers, and the editinggggggg of my senior thesis, I can say it was all for something. I did it, I graduated college. For a while I thought I’d be stuck there longer, because I just thought it was too many credits to cram into 4 years, but I sucked it up, and I did it. And I’m so glad I did, because I got to graduate with all my friends. Regardless of all the stepping stones that came before graduation, now that it’s over it still hasn’t sunk in. It probably won’t until I realize in September that I don’t have to go back. It’s bittersweet really. I mean I can’t say that I’m not excited for the future, because I truly am, but school has always been my thing. It’s always been something to focus on. It’s always been a main priority, and now that it’s over with, I’m left feeling so strange. Granted I should be hauling ass and looking for a job, but people like me need a second. We need to gather our bearings and plan a thing or two. I’m not exactly the risk taker, or go getter type, but I’ve also learned that I’m stronger than I give myself credit for. Regardless of the situation I know I’ll get through it, because me and the big guy upstairs are on good terms 😉 That and I have a pretty kick ass support system in my family and friends. That being said, it’s been a pretty hectic few weeks, and I haven’t gotten to post in a while so here’s a rare Saturday post 😀

It’s so easy to get caught up in who other people think you are

Who other people want you to be

Or even who you think you should be

Instead of focusing on who you truly are

What means most to you

Who means most to you

And accepting that can often times be difficult because you always want to strive for more

But sometimes striving for more, when you already have what you need, when you already have what you want…

well that can ruin it all

I’m not talking about settling, by all means if you are unhappy…never settle…ever

But it’s important to understand that perfection won’t ever come

It’s how you make your life circumstances perfect for you, that counts

It’s not about what that one is doing, or what this one is doing

Because they are doing what’s best for them, which is how it should be

So you should do what you want to do…for you

And you’re gonna hear millions of different opinions and you’re probably only going to agree or understand half of them…

if you’re lucky

But at the end of the day…guess what? It’s your life…not theirs, so do yourself a favor and live it the way you see fit

The way your heart urges you to live it

And if you mess up, or you get hurt in the process

If you get fired or

if that boy or girl crushes your heart

That just means you were brave enough to take a risk

And you won’t ever have to wonder what if, or what could have been

That just means you’re actually living

And just remember you may make mistakes, hell you’ll make plenty

But God…he never makes mistakes…

Anyone worth being in your life, or anyone who wants to be in your life will fight like hell to be

I’ve learned that carrying yourself with Grace and Politeness does go a long way, but fate sooner of later takes over

#ClassyGrad

So do your thing, and let god do his, you’ll be alright,

after all look how far you’ve already come

So to all my fellow graduates who are feeling a little aimless lately like me, I feel ya, and it will pass,

Best of Luck Classes of 2013, rock what ya got!

God Bless

Signed,

College Graduate haha

-<3-

Photos By Robert DeSantos Jr.