Ask yourself

If you could fast forward time

and meet the love of your life

go to a place

where he’s tangible

where he’s so close you could almost feel him

instead of  boys who came and went

 you blinked and missed him

a place where instead of a clouded image

instead of a faceless man

he’s crystal clear

and he’s standing there waiting on you

would you walk over and introduce yourself?

or would you be too afraid to?

Ask yourself

If you could get the job you’ve always wanted

the dream your heart has held onto for as long as you could remember

would you go for it

would you send the resume without over thinking

would you polish your best clothes for the interview

would you beam confidence, even if you swore the job was out of reach

or would you be too afraid too?

Ask yourself

If you could wear that trendy outfit you’ve had in your head or your closet

but have been reserved about

because you think it’s not right for you

would you own it

or would you be too afraid to?

Ask yourself

Would you stand up for yourself and your beliefs

when someone puts you down

or would you be too afraid to?

Ask yourself

Would you dream big when you feel like a small fish in a big pond

or would you be too afraid to?

Fear

it’s real

it’s unnerving

But living life beats it every time

Note to self:

Take your own advice

Stop being so scared

-<3-

 

 

 

The only positive part to cleaning my room is finding old writing that actually seems like it deserves a second look…stumbled upon this little one a few days ago, not sure how long ago I wrote this but a few tweaks and home girl is ready for posting…hope you enjoy! 😉

 

Take a moment

Listen closely to the sounds that surround you

the sound of wine being poured into a glass

the sound of two glasses clinking

the sound of children laughing

the sound of tires rolling on a highway

the sound of fall leaves crunching beneath your feet

the sound of crisp white snow forming into a snowball

the sound of a new cry welcomed to earth

the sound of gentle rain trickling down a tin roof

the sound of birds chirping

the sound of wind’s passing kiss

the sound of two lovers breathless whispers

take a moment

listen closely

hidden in the silence

hidden in the emptiness

hidden in the darkness

there is happiness

in many shapes

in many forms

in many faces

in many actions

in many sounds

Take a moment

Listen closely

Listen to the silence around you

it speaks volumes

beyond all imagination

Just listen

 

 

 -<3-

 

 

I often sit and wonder

Am I just severely out of the loop

Are my interests simply less important then the rest

I may not know everything

I may be bad at geography

and even worse with directions

I may be sucky in math

And even worse in science

I may not even know my true place on earth yet

But I will find it

I like to write

But hate to read

And if you ask me to tell you my favorite author or writer

I’d probably say something like Eric Carl

I love Music

But barely listen to radio

And my love of lyrics will never fade

I studied film and video in college

And found my love leaned toward screenwriting and storytelling instead

I studied film and video in college

But haven’t even seen half of the movies I probably should

In fact some may say I have the worst taste in movies ever

And if you ask me to tell you my favorite director or screenwriter

I’d probably make something up

But it wouldn’t be the truth

It wouldn’t be what truly inspires me

Note to self…

I may not know where my place is yet

But I know I will find it

Note to self…

Don’t change for anyone

Note to self…

Don’t be shy

love what you love

There is a forum and a fan-base

for everything and everyone

you just have to find them…

find where you belong,

because once you do

it’ll always feel like home

So find your home

It’s waiting for you

You just might have to crawl through a few mazes

Climb a dozen ladders

And cross a few alligator lurking swamps to find it

But it’s there

And when you see it

When you see that door

Simply, knock on it

-<3-

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!

Find your home.

The days blur on by

And you are where you’ve always been

Grasping for something to hold onto

Grasping for a reason not to pretend

And in the darkness

You shall see

And the light will shine bright

For all it takes is faith and grace

And the belief that time may treat you right

What more could you ask for

It’s difficult to tell

You want to have it all

But you’re buried in your shell

But maybe she who risks and claws her way through

Is she who comes above them all

Instead of she who plays it safe

And  wanders down life’s long haul

Aimlessly running

never knowing

which way to go

But she who struggles

but pushes forward

Is she who is the one who never gave up

The Queen to the thrown

The one who holds onto hope

Stuck in traffic

While you wait

Never worry

God will pave your way

-<3-

Guarded now

unguarded before the wreckage

I’m guarded

Sorry for spoiled fun

give it time

to clear this mind

too rid this heart

of a girl yet to be loved

a girl unknown

unknowing of the world

the walls she builds are built upon a steep hill

the blame is not on you

it’s on he who never knew

he who never came around

still walking aimlessly in the wrong direction

wandering through town

I wonder, where is he going now?

to understand where I’m coming from

I challenge you

to step into my shoes

can you walk a mile?

you’ll never know another’s struggle

have you ever not been in love?

it’s almost as bad as being madly in

or losing love from one you love with all

Unguarded because I’ve never been hurt before

guarded because I know that love can get lost

to take a risk

is easier said then done

it’s easier to observe

then to risk

risk feeling more

risk

risk it all

risk

risk into opportunity

risk into challenge

brave

be brave

bravery is that risk

risk

risk away

lonely is the dreamer

lively is the achiever

but both are a necessity

But somehow the true blame is on those who are cruel

those who abuse

and use love like it’s full proof

use it like it’s something of little value

Dishonoring the meaning of life…

love

love is all there is

love is all that is needed

Shame on you

Shame on those who never knew

Sympathy for those who wish to know but have yet to

sympathy for the unknowing of a love so great

of a true love

of love that makes your heart race

If you have it

never let it go

If you’ve lost it

beg for it’s safe return

If you didn’t realize what was right in front of you

maybe you didn’t deserve it in the first place

Be guarded only when love is unavailable

Be unguarded as much as possible

for she who doubts herself…but pushes to risk it all

has much too lose

but also everything to gain

so hand your heart over

unlock those chains you bare

feel free to love

rebuild the wears and tears

And if you find he who will take it in his arms

to carry you afloat

promise you’ll choose wisely

for he who holds the unguarded heart

should be worthy of it’s love

Guarded or Unguarded

It’s all up to you

Which way will your heart choose?

-<3-

Romance

It’ll never truly fade

as long as there’s a woman to fight for it’s place

Romance

it’s more than just a word

but a presence

an action

a small smirk

Romance

is a touch of hands

a red lip stain

a warm embrace

a slight eye exchange

a flickery fire

Romance

is about the small things

a graceful appreciation of one for  another

Romance

is music that makes you feel like you want to be in love

a song that you can feel

Romance

is the opening of a car door

the pulling out of a chair

a few wine glasses

and dinner set for two

flowers given for no reason

unexpected compliments

White Flag waves freely

as I surrender the fantasy

and reality is a present meaning

no longer masked but imaginary things

the credits role

to a sappy love song that hurts the soul

the movie’s over

and the space beside, is bare

Romance

deserves so much more

where, where has it gone?

or better yet

where has it been coming from?

-<3-

Know when enough is enough

know when it’s time to give up

understand your limits

trust in yourself

to find there is someone else

moments of clarity

are threatened by relapse

and pacing and hoping

are just hopeless motions

But sometimes

letting go looks a lot like freedom

-<3-